Chapter 30

The despair of life, the doubt of real life, and the negation of the values of outlook on life. Losing his goal and direction, except for a belief that supports Haolin's life, there is nothing else that can make him interested.

I used to think that I would live a light life, but tonight, by the dusty roadside, I would look like this to myself.

Her mistake is that she cares about herself, but more of it is a kind of pointing to Haolin's past. Haolin is very clear in his heart. I understand very well. It was unreasonable for her to do so, so that Haolin had no choice but to ask her about her past.

He suddenly felt that every step she took was designed and analyzed in his mind, just like her checkers technique, and then he chose another one that could directly block the enemy without a bloodshed. She is like a sophisticated instrument, like a budget, which can calculate the conjecture in Haolin's heart. Therefore, she set a trap in advance, so that Haolin knew it, but she was still willing to jump down.

Shu picked up and squatted on the roadside and cried. Haolin stood behind her and didn't know how to comfort her.

For comforting women, Haolin doesn't know what method to use. I can't coax girls, so I can only let the tears picked up by Shu overflowing from my eyes.

It is said that women's tears are the most powerful weapon. Unconsciously, crying once or twice can completely capture a man's restless heart.

In fact, for Haolin, this is really appropriate. Shu picked up and cried. Haolin couldn't have been squatting on the roadside when he looked at Shu picking up. He had to carefully guard her side, coaxed her back from sadness, and turned her into the one he cares about the most in his heart.

But Haolin, who has always been relatively honest and stupid, has never concealed his love for Lin Xin in front of Shu pick-up. Even if he is asked to choose Lin Xin and Shu pick-up in front of Shu pick-up, Haolin will definitely choose Lin Xin without hesitation. Not being able to lie has always been Haolin's biggest shortcoming. It is also the capital that he sees as an advantage to show off at some times. But sometimes, he still scolds himself in a no-man's corner, hates his straightforwardness, and won't lie.

No vehicle galloped by the roadside, and none of them stopped beside them. Most of them looked at the quarreling couple from the reflector, and then raised a cloud of dust as if nothing had happened and left them.

"Dandan, don't be angry, okay?" After all, Haolin did not lie directly in the middle of the road. Although there was a certain chance that he could die, he would not do that before he sent his parents away. Just like when he was about to be discharged from the army, when he was hospitalized in the team hospital, a fifth-year sergeant often said: I just now find that it is really not easy for my parents to raise me so much.

At the beginning, Haolin couldn't understand the specific meaning of his sentence, but just laughed at the other party's messy mood. But at this time, he fully understood the meaning of the other party's words.

In order to fulfill the responsibility of a filial son, he understood that it was more like saying it to him deliberately. It's not Li Lin's own feelings, the dog squad leader in the Golmud Detachment.

Shu picked up and didn't know what Haolin was thinking. She just squatted by the roadside and cried. In sadness, with desperate sobs, Haolin couldn't bear it.

"Dandan, I can swear, I will definitely forget her. I, Haolin, can't wait for an impossible girl foolishly!" Haolin repeated this loudly. As he had said before, it was much smoother than the first time he lied.

It also responds to that sentence. If you do too much, you will get used to it.

Haolin can't do habitual lying. At most, he can only stare at Shu's face and lie without blushing. Feel nervous.

After saying that, Haolin continued to help Shu pick it up. Pull her into your arms and hold her.

"Do not lie to me!" Shu picked up his mouth and stared at the foggy eyes, with domineering in grievances.

"I won't lie to you!" Haolin said firmly.

Maybe it won't lie to you. Na Xinxin is just a dream in her heart. Now that the dream has woken up, she continues to live in the dream, which can only make herself more and more lost. Haolin has been lost for more than a year. I thought it was plain and didn't care about so much, but in fact, time slipped away from me unconsciously. Now recalling the time when he was abandoned by himself, he really wants to keep it back.

That is to say, he regretted it. More than half of them have become depraved because of Xinxin. Become unmotivated and unwilling to get along with others.

It's almost seven o'clock. The vehicles on the roadside are always shaking with dazzling lights, shining through their faces, a face smeared by tears, and a face blackened by guilt.

Shu picked up and stared at Haolin, hugged his waist, rushed into his arms, and sobbed softly again.

"Haolin, I'm just afraid that you will treat me as her stand-in. Really, I love you. I don't want you to treat me like this. The tears he picked up gushed out and wet the clothes on Haolin's chest. The warmth was transmitted to Haolin's chest. The position of the heart was warm.

Her tears moistened his happiness. He picked it up with Shu in his arms, and the feeling of happiness came to his heart. A strong idea of picking up happiness for Shu gushed out in my heart.

Give her happiness all her life, don't make her sad, take care of her all her life, love her all her life, regardless of the past, and go all the way to the dark with her. The so-called love complex is just about the inferiority complex at a certain age.

Suddenly, Haolin thought a lot. If two people really love each other, why do they care so much?

Hao Lin kissed Shu's forehead affectionately and said gently in her ear:

"Dandan, you are not someone's stand-in, and no one can replace you. You are my only one and my support. We will live our lives.

Shu picked up Haolin and kissed his hands, holding Haolin's waist, and hugged them tighter, for fear that he would fly if he didn't pay attention. Her sobbing voice became louder, but she said a few firm words: "Haolin, we will live for the rest of our lives!"

"Well, for a lifetime, no one is allowed to give up, and no one is allowed to leave anyone!" Haolin hugged Shu and picked her up and let her lean on her shoulder. The thin body and not wide shoulders are all the reliance they pick up. All the faith is that she has gone from a trough to a stable and solid train.

Haolin watched Shu pick it up. The stone in my heart was also put down. It's just that there are still some problems surrounding him like vines.

If you ask according to Shu's pick-up, one day, when Lin Xin suddenly returns to her side, what will she choose? How will you face it?

He still remembers that Lin Xin said that he would give him three years to see what height he would reach in three years.

Haolin also asked on the phone. He said, what is your minimum requirement?

Xinxin was silent for a long time on the other end of the phone before slowly saying, "The requirements are not high, but they are not low. In three years, as long as you work hard, you will reach this height sooner or later. Without saying so much, you are not allowed to fall in love, let alone blind dates or get married within three years. After three years, you have to drive a Guangben and have your own house in the city.

After listening to it at that time, Haolin felt that his hope was killed again. Just answered boldly on the other end of the phone, "Xinxin, wait. In three years, I must reach the height you said!" I'm still waiting for you to marry into my house!"

But the fact is that after Haolin hung up the phone, he cursed. Tears. Call yourself a beast. She used to be cheap for a while, didn't control her mouth, and let her slip away from her side. It's also that I was cheap and scolded her on the phone to see her off. What's worse now is that I can't forget her.

Originally, the two could have nothing to do with each other. Although it was an online love affair, there was no connection at all in the two years of being a soldier in Haolin. At that time, Xinxin should not have left his contact information on his previous QQ number. In this way, Haolin, a military comrade who is not lonely and impatient, called her. What's more, I won't listen to Xinxin's sweet words.

Although Xinxin finally met him, Haolin always felt that he had been cheated. Xinxin lied to herself and betrayed herself. Her body is not pure. When she falls in love with herself on the phone, she can sleep with another man.

These are the extensions of his hateful love complex. Absolute self-esteem and absolute self-confidence make him unwilling to believe that she lied to himself. In fact, he also knows that he can be summed up in another word, which is innocence. Very stupid, very naive.

He didn't know how he would face it if Lin Xin appeared in front of him and Shu one day. Maybe he will choose to be with Lin Xin ruthlessly. Because that's my own demon. But this result is just what he is looking forward to in his heart. Looking forward to the day when Lin Xin finds herself. But that day is forever. In terms of her current arrogance, she will never be brazen to return to Haolin's side.

The reason why Haolin works hard is that he doesn't want to see him ordinary all his life. Give him some pressure and make him full of motivation.

So, although he held Shu's waist and walked home step by step, there was no reason, and there was still a burst of despair in his heart. That is, without faith in life, he can only live like a puppet, without a goal, just like the walking dead.

Shu picked it up and didn't know what Haolin was thinking. But she felt very happy. There was a man who loved her wholeheartedly. With him accompanying her and waiting for her, no matter how many difficulties there were, she would always go on.

However, there are also words that are right. People's hearts are separated from each other, and no one knows who's thoughts. Everyone is the lowest level of people who are tortured by life, and they can only learn to touch someone with deception and sensational words, and then hide everything in the past.