Chapter 11

Chapter 11

Song Chengbin sent Zhang Shiya home every day and just followed her silently. Zhang Shiya never said a word to him. Song Chengbin knew Zhang Shiya and did not take the initiative to speak. But today, if she still obeys her temper, I'm afraid that the two will be strangers in the future.

"Shiya, I..."

Zhang Shiya was already used to the life that Song Chengbin accompanied her at a certain moment. She was no longer lonely on her way home. Occasionally, when she looked back and saw Song Chengbin, she would smile secretly, and even couldn't help but feel relieved to see Song Chengbin leave in front of the window. When she saw Song Chengbin, she was no longer cold-faced. Only in front of him did Zhang Shiya show her lovely and gentle side, and she would smile so cutely. Song Chengbin knew that Zhang Shiya had tried to accept herself. She must not hurt her and be better for her. Although Zhang Shiya does not reject Song Chengbin, she still doesn't want to take the initiative to talk to him because of her self-esteem. There is nothing she can do. She hopes that Song Chengbin takes the initiative to talk to herself, so that she can naturally break the deadlock with him. Who knows that Song Chengbin does not always take the initiative to talk to her, which makes Zhang Shiya distressed. Several times, Zhang Shiya wanted to talk to him, even if she smiled, but she didn't know how to speak. That's good. Song Chengbin finally took the initiative to speak. But Zhang Shiya didn't know that her good face would make her lose her inner lover.

"What?"

"Shiya, I once thought that although you never take the initiative to speak, you like me in your heart. You don't hate me sending you home. I fantasize that one day you can fully accept me, we can be together, and I will give you all my warmth, but... But... I'm sorry, I'm going to break my promise. The family arranges me. I'm going to the United States for further study. I'm leaving. I know you like me, Shiya, be honest and face your feelings bravely. Would you like to wait for me? Or, come with me. I want to continue to take care of you, Shiya, believe me!"

This is like a bolt from the blue. Zhang Shiya never thought that Song Chengbin would leave. She once thought that as long as he took the initiative to speak, she would tell him what she liked him. She hoped to give him a surprise, but this surprise had been conceived for too long. In the face of Song Chengbin's departure, this surprise seemed so unimportant. What can he do if he knows that she likes him? Does he want to start a long-distance relationship? She doesn't have the courage. It's not easy for her to fall in love with someone. She doesn't have self-confidence. She doesn't believe that she can handle this relationship. Zhang Shiya couldn't accept the sudden news. She had to use her usual way of doing things.

"I've never liked you, hehe, are you going abroad? I wish you a good future. I'm finally going back to my old life, haha, that's great. Song Chengbin, let's be strangers in the future. I'm afraid we won't see each other again. Goodbye!"

Song Chengbin didn't expect Zhang Shiya to leave him so indifferent, or even didn't care. It's ridiculous that he had been affectionate for so long. It's ridiculous that he quarreled with his parents for the first time because he didn't want to leave her. It turned out that all this was just his wishful thinking and his own fantasy. Zhang Shiya, I didn't expect you to be so cold. But he fell in love with this ice. His heart was full of reluctance. The feeling of heartache infected every nerve and hurt his whole body. Only at this moment did he realize how much he loved Zhang Shiya.

"Fool, take good care of yourself. If you miss me, come to the United States to find me. When I come back to you, it's not goodbye, but goodbye. Baby, goodbye..." Song Chengbin showed his signature smile, and there was a trace of desolation behind his bright smile.

Zhang Shiya's pain is no less than that of Song Chengbin. She curses her timidity. She loves him, but she can't say that he is so perfect. He is loved by everyone. He is so excellent. He doesn't have her drag. There will be a Jinxiu future. There will be a girl to warm him. She is not worthy of his love. She is sorry for Song Chengbin. She is more I don't want to hug him. I feel the warmth for the last time, which has never been before. She also wants to say goodbye. But she can only think about all this by herself and bless Song Chengbin.

Zhang Shiya couldn't stand the person she would miss day and night anymore. She turned around coldly and continued to walk forward. Song Chengbin didn't keep up or say anything. Just let her calm down.

Zhang Shiya thinks that only the sky understands her. Yes, it is true that the sky knows her mood best at this moment. On a night full of stars, a heavy rain poured down without any warning.

The passers-by hurriedly sheltered from the rain. The vehicles galloped in the rain, and the splashed mud ideas mercilessly splashed on Zhang Shiya. Will Zhang Shiya still take care of this? She had long been numb and walked forward like a walking corpse. She couldn't see the front at all. A heavy rain destroyed the light brought to her by Song Chengbin. The people who love her leave one by one. She has no one to trust. It's so difficult for her to have a warmth. She didn't know that she pushed away all those who loved her with her coldness. People can maintain a certain relationship with love. Her background makes her only use and struggle since she was a child. The terrible growth environment makes Zhang Shiya not know what love is. Song Chengbin let her taste the sweetness of love for the first time, but time is a horrible monster. It devours everything. Only love is left in Zhang Shiya's hands. The bitterness is so cruel to Zhang Shiya, who is about to face love bravely. But perhaps Zhang Shiya lost to herself. Her fear of love made her push Song Chengbin far away, and she failed to summon up the courage to say "I love you" to him at the last minute. She was defeated by her timidity of love and was defeated.

I don't know why I got home. I took out the key, opened the door, changed my shoes, walked upstairs, opened my parents' house, looked at my mother's posthumous photos, and then went back to my house, went to the balcony to watch a pot of lilies crying. I started my previous life again. She let the rain beat and cried loudly on the balcony. She sat quietly when she didn't have the strength to cry. Her eyes were dull, and her brain was occupied by Song Chengbin's name.

Zhang Shiya's love has ended before it has begun.