Chapter 62 Sleepless

At night, the red silk can't sleep with the pillow in its arms. A person's face always comes to my mind, with laughter, anger, disdain, contempt, and doting.

How can you be spoiled? Turn over and lie flat, so that you can fall asleep quickly, so that you don't have to think nonsense.

But there is something in that look...

She bit her lower lip, took a deep breath, stopped, and slowly spit it out. Nie Hongsi, please wake me up. Don't you know what kind of person he is? You won't have a good result if you go on like this. Even if he really changes, it's only for a while. How can a man with such a deep government pay attention to his children's private feelings? Compared with Tang Ruomu, he doesn't have any feelings.

Think about it. In the previous life, in that dream, what did he do to you? Who made you helpless? In the end, it was him who had to jump into the river to commit suicide. His name is Tang Ziran, who is Brother Ziran, who has been playing with you since childhood. He can deceive you since he was a child. So do you still want to believe him now?

But now he is not sorry for himself, and another voice suddenly appeared in his mind.

Nie Mei died. No one robbed you, and your parents are no longer difficult for you. What do you have to worry about now? Your sister is also very happy now. She has a child. Maybe the child will be able to walk on the ground soon. There is nothing you have to worry about now. Why don't you fight? You like him, don't you?

No, no, the red silk was covered with sweat, and her tossing body suddenly stopped. She looked up at the dark ceiling. There was an abyss. It was endless, and the abyss that would fall to pieces...

Scold yourself. Why are you still not afraid to provoke him? He and you are two extreme people. You yearn for a leisurely and comfortable pastoral life, but he is different. His vision is high. How can ** enter his eyes? He wants more. He wants the throne, power, and the people of the world. Kneel, so much, so much, you can't give it. You'd better quit this meaningless game early. Taking advantage of the game is still just the beginning. You can abstain, otherwise, in the end, it will still be you who lose.

A mother often says that the greatest happiness in a woman's life is to have a husband who is good to her, or more lovely children, so that her life will be complete.

Maybe my mother is right. A woman must find someone to rely on. In the end, she doesn't have to rely on the person she likes very much, but she must find someone she likes very much, so that she can be happy.

She thought that if there is a man in the world who likes her so much, like... She can't find a pair to describe it. It seems that in her opinion, whether it is her parents or Nie Qiang and Tang Ruomu, or the Emperor and Empress Mo, they are not perfect. With a wry smile, there is no perfect and beautiful thing in the world,

No matter how beautiful the beginning is, it is just empty and sad in the end.

She seems to think a little bad. Of course, she doesn't rule out that there are men and women who love white heads in the world, but she never believes that such a pair of immortal couples will appear in the court and their kings and grandchildren. Sometimes because of power, the overall situation, and their own selfish desires, they often sacrifice what they seem to like. Men and women.

Tang Qin once said to herself that she must find a man with both talent and beauty in the future. She must like it. Of course, the other party does not have to like her. She also said that the other party must not be higher than herself. In that case, she can't control him. You see, even Tang Qin's little cardamom girl said so. It can be seen that there can be less open and secret fights in this big family in the palace?

She knows that she can control a person with power, a man, the man she likes. At that time, Hongsi thought this suggestion was good, but she thought about it. What she liked was Tang Ziran. He was more powerful than her own, and she couldn't control him in the future. Tang Qin had many ideas and thought of a plan for her. Tang Qin said, then you have to grab his stomach. Men, it's all like this. You grab his stomach in other words. That's what grabbed his heart.

At that time, the red silk was convinced. Now that I think about it, men are all affectionate. Even the women they like can change at any time. Of course, they will not fall in love with food alone.

The beautiful scenery of the good day has become hatred. Don't ask about the New Year and the old year. That's what she thought when she woke up.

The idleness changes the hearts of the old people, but the hearts of the old people are easy to change. Later, she thought so.

I'm not in the mood to sleep, and the dream is still on the edge of sadness. This is what she is thinking now.

These three verses represent her three moods. From the hatred at the beginning, to the ridiculous friendship between them later, and finally, now, she begins to toss and turn again. Every time she falls asleep, she will think of his and her past, which is very annoying.

On the next day, the red silk sat up with big dark circles under her eyes. She sat up from ** and ran to the window sill with her bare feet. She pushed the window open with both hands. A fresh wind came to her face and made her head faint and suddenly woke up.

"Miss, you got up so early." Xiaomei swept the floor not far away. Seeing that the red silk was opening the window, she was thinking and said.

"Ye-huh, I can't sleep." The red silk stretched out, but in fact, she didn't sleep at all. Last night, she thought about it all night, but there was no result. The two voices in her mind made it difficult for her to fall asleep. She rubbed her eyes, put on her shoes, and went outside to wash.

"Miss, why did you come out?" Xiaoju was holding the toiletries and was pushing the door in. Maybe Xiaomei asked her to bring it in. The red silk didn't say anything. She took the teacup in Xiaoju's hand, rinsed her mouth, spit out the tea in her mouth, and exhaled, full of the smell of tea.

"Would you like something to eat? I'll let the kitchen do it." The little chrysanthemum handed over the dried towel for the red silk.

The red silk wiped his face and patted his cheeks. He was very refreshed. "Ye, prepare some jujube porridge."

"The maidservant retreated first." Xiao Ju withdrew from the room with toiletries.

It was a rare good day. She sat in the sun and basked in the sun, and her face turned red. It was not until Xiao Zhu came to persuade her to enter the house that she was willing to lift her buttocks from the low stool.

"Miss, Mr. Bao asked me to write to you yesterday." At that time, the red silk was wiping the strings. She never played the piano, but she just wiped it as if it was empty as a treasure. I don't know when Xiaolan came in. At this time, the girls were not free, doing laundry and preparing meals. It was very strange for the red silk to see Xiao Lan when she looked up.

"Baozi? Which prince?" Her eyes were a little uncomfortable, and she was afraid that it was sent by Baofeng.

Xiaolan put the letter on the table and said, "It's Mr. Bao Yuyan. Last night, he asked the maidservant to secretly give it to the young lady and told him not to tell anyone."

The red silk looked at the clean envelope suspiciously, and there was no word on it, "He gave it to me?"

"Last night, the young lady talked to his wife very late. When you came out, Xiaozhu and the others were there again. The maidservant wanted the maidservant to give the letter to the lady and told her not to be seen, so the maidservant gave it to the young lady now."

"Oh." The red silk was ready to open the envelope. Seeing that Xiaolan hadn't gone out yet, she was about to open her mouth. Xiaolan had closed the door and walked far away. He is a smart man.