209 when I die

After a big quarrel with Murong Zijun, he did not embarrass me. I went straight back to Qingyun Villa and locked myself in the room without seeing anyone. He was afraid that he also understood my personality and immediately said nothing, so he led his troops to leave.

Yes, since the visitor is Murong Zijun, my safety is guaranteed. This man, no matter what I do, he won't hurt me. Yes, in my heart, I understand that none of us can forget that past.

He never came to see me again these days. This is a little unexpected. Yes, with Murong Zijun's unrelenting personality, he will definitely not wave his hands because of this. Has he completely changed over the past year? Is it no longer the Murong Zijun I know? Or is what I said the other day too much and hurtful?

Thinking about it, although I feel a little uneasy and guilty. But I can only comfort myself. It's okay if you don't come. Xiao Qingyun should return on time.

When you see me so entangled with Murong Zijun, even if there is nothing, it will inevitably be a little bad.

But in a blink of an eye, almost a month passed. Not only did Xiao Qingyun not come back, but there was no news from Zhang Banxian.

I fell into an unprecedented loss. Without Xiao Qingyun's news, I was like a broken kite. I don't know what I should do? What's wrong with him? What happened to Liu Ruo? It was clearly said that he would return in more than half a month, but now it's almost a month. I don't know whether he wins or loses, life or die. Sometimes I want to ask the people in Qingzhuang, but when I see their confused and empty eyes, I know that they don't know the situation better than me.

Sometimes, I think I'm going crazy waiting. It's not that I can't stand loneliness. If everything is fine and let me wait for ten years, I don't care. However, now his life and death are unknown. Let me wait like this. I feel that I feel worried every moment. It's not that I didn't want to find him, but Liu Ruo, a mysterious country, can't be found by everyone.

So, the only thing I can do is endless waiting. Because I believe that Xiao Qingyun can still come back here.

He asked me to wait for him here. Anyway, he will come back. I silently told myself in my heart that after a long time, the fear and loss made my heart more and more cowardly.

So, I decided that it was not the best way to wait like this. I have to do something. It's good. I don't do anything, just live to wait for him. It's really painful.

However, the more you want to find something to do, the more you feel that everything is so boring.

Until this day, the little girl Anu saw that I was depressed and depressed all day, so she wanted to take me out to play.

Anu is the girl who was bullied by Sima Ruer that day. Since I saved her that day, she has also been grateful and loyal to me.

I have been worried about Xiao Qingyun, but in fact, I am not in the mood to go anywhere. Especially after visiting mountains and rivers with him before the expedition, wherever I go and what I see will make me feel sad.

Later, the little girl told me that the former emperor died and the new emperor ascended the throne. It was the time of universal celebration. It was so lively outside that she insisted on letting me go out. I was stunned to come back to my senses.

I took Anu's hand incredulously and said, "The previous emperor died? The new emperor ascended the throne? The new emperor is..."

Before I finished speaking, Anu naively took over and said, "The new emperor is naturally the former prince of the East Palace, that is, the one who came here a few days ago did not expect that he would become emperor so soon. Oh, no wonder my mother used to say that things are impermanent.

I finally understand why he hasn't come to me these days. It turned out that his father died. Today's emperor died, and as the prince of the East Palace, he naturally couldn't escape. However, he thought that since he was the emperor. So...

"So that woman has become the queen? The queen of the mother world?" I said coldly, and the corners of my lips couldn't help raising a touch of bitterness. She really became the empress, so when can I avenge myself?

"Queen?" Anu was stunned and said lightly, "I haven't heard of the establishment of a queen."

I said with a sarcastic smile, "What else can the former princess be if she is not the current queen?"

"I don't know about this. Anyway, I haven't heard of the establishment of the emperor, only the new emperor ascended the throne. Why don't you, girl? Let's go out and have a look. I think you have been bored at home these days and have been lost your mind all day. Go out for a walk to see if it's better?

This time, although I didn't agree, I didn't refuse.

Anu only thought I was tacit, so he was ready to take me out of the villa immediately.

Kyoto, at the feet of the emperor.

It's a new look if you don't come for a month. There were lanterns everywhere to celebrate the new emperor's accession to the throne.

Today is the third day of Murong Zijun's accession to the throne. According to the Qilan National Code, it is reasonable to cruise around the most prosperous Kyoto.

This means that his love for the people also shows the power of his emperor.

I stood on the corner of the street and looked at the noise. It seems that my loss and quietness are incompatible with everything around me.

Far away, a burst of cheers woke me up from my wandering.

I saw Anu around me with a red face and was a little out of state and asked, "What are they looking at? Squeeze like this."

Anu said excitedly, "The emperor's team is about to pass by here, and everyone is preparing to welcome the new king."

"Real?"

I muttered and heard a loud gong sound from the front end.

"The emperor is here and pray for the blessing of the whole nation."

As soon as the words came out, the people on both sides of the street knelt on the ground respectfully and politely.

However, he bowed his head and bowed, "Hang live my emperor, long live, long live."

I was pulled to kneel on the ground by Anu, and I didn't kneel and worship like other people around me. I looked at the magnificent soldiers and horses in front of me.

Murong Zijun was dressed in a golden suit, and the nine five-clawed golden dragon embroidered on the dragon robe looked noble and majestic. He sat on the golden and luxurious dragon chariot and looked at the eyes in front of him so firm and calm. The sight and attention of tens of thousands of people seemed to have no impact on him. His calm temperament could not see that he was just A teenager who is only about 20 years old. With the sound of fluttering music, the bright sunshine fell on the new king, and the people's uneasiness gradually settled down. The steady performance of the new emperor made them full of confidence in the future.

I looked at him like that, and now I felt familiar and strange.

handsome eyebrows, beautiful eyes, straight nose bridge, and prinkly lips. The dark hair goes straight to the buttocks, scattered on the strong and long body, decorated with enchanting beauty. Such a man, regardless of his appearance, is enough to make women in the world crazy.

In the end, it made Chu Tianxue possess it, and I felt disgusted.

When I looked up again, I saw that there was no one in the position of the phoenix. The feeling of emptiness makes people feel a little lonely.

I stared in front of me like a god until the music disappeared and his figure was blurred. The people got up one after another, and I was dragged up by Anu.

"Girl, what's wrong with you? When it's time to kneel, don't kneel. Now that the emperor has left, I won't get up.

I can only smile sadly, "What do you think of the new emperor?"

Anu's face turned red and couldn't help nodding, "In my heart, I always thought that the emperors were old men of 70 or 80. Unexpectedly, this new emperor could be so handsome and beautiful."

"You are not timid. How dare you comment like this."

"Girl, I'll say it in front of you. You are so kind that you won't expose me. However, I'm serious. Look at the new emperor just now. His eyes seem to be black and gold, deep and beautiful. The face pet is also handsome and extraordinary, showing the natural emperor's domineering spirit and irresistible wild charm.

After listening to Anu's description, although he thought so, he still made fun of her on the surface and said, "Yo, little girl, how dare you even blasve the emperor?"

She said urgently, "This is not blasphemy. This is the love of women."

"Love you. Seeing that you have been bowing your head just now, I didn't expect to peek the emperor so clearly."

"No, just take a look. Unexpectedly, I can't move my eyes when I look at it.

"Yes, such an emperor is the dream of women in the world. It's a pity."

"What's a pity?"

' "It's a pity that woman has her."

Anu listened and said disapprovingly, "What's the matter? Isn't the queen's position hanging?"

"Is the queen's throne vacant? What do you mean?

"Just listened to the comments of the people next to me, saying that the new emperor did not set up the previous concubine as the queen, but only gave him the name of a concubine at will, and didn't even let her follow the feast. That means that the emperor doesn't pay attention to the former crown princess in his heart.

"How could this happen?" Since he didn't like Chu Tianxue, why did he marry her at the beginning? Now, I'm confused.

"Why not? The holy will is unpredictable. What did he think in his heart? How could we ordinary people know? Since the queen's position is vacant, it shows that the new emperor has made other preparations for her.

"Real?"

Anu stared at the distance without looking at me. He still said excitedly, "It must be like this. I don't know which woman was so lucky that the new emperor was crowned as the queen. Alas, if it were me, it would be worth it to die.

After listening to it, I smiled indifferently. What kind of bitterness is hidden behind the seemingly prosperous?

As the saying goes, the ancients had a good saying. If you are not a fish, how can you know the joy of fish?

"Okay, Anu, time is running out. Why don't you go back?"

"Go back?" Anu also said with some nostalgia, "Will it be too early?"

"If you still want to play, then play for a while."

She understood my words in an instant and immediately opened her eyes and said inconceivably, "What's wrong? Are you not going to be with me? Do you want to go back? Well, if you want to go back, then let's go back.

"No, I won't go back to the villa for the time being."

Ah? Girl, where are you going?

"I still have something to do."

"What's the matter? Do you want me to go with you?

I shook my hand and refused: "No. Anyway, I will go back to Qingyunzhuang before dark.

"But..."

"Don't be. You can play by yourself. I'll go first."

After avoiding Anu, I then fixed a carriage and went straight to my former residence - the Prime Minister's Mansion.

Yes, this is my first home in ancient times, but I didn't find any warmth that belongs to me.

My father's indifference, the oppression of the eldest lady, and the frame of the two sisters made me very tired.

Fortunately, I have completely separated from them.

However, I came back today for only one purpose.

That's right, revenge. Since I can't kill Chu Tianxue for the time being, I can only put the second target on the old lady.

These two vicious mother and daughter, as I said, ghosts will not let them go.

When the carriage stopped at the door, I took out two pieces of silver to send the driver, then bypassed the wall yard and walked to the back door.

Since it is revenge, I can't go through the front door. Moreover, the location of the back door is exactly the old lady's residence.

When I jumped into the wall with all my strength, I was stunned in an instant.

At this time, there was an indescribable depression and withered in the once magnificent prime minister's mansion.

In such a large house, there are not only no guards, but also few maids and slaves.

The porter in the distance is a little dilapidated and has no one to repair it.

Moreover, several yards are so empty that there is no life, and the garden where I stand doesn't even have a guard.

At this time, there is nothing more than the prosperity and bustle of the past. There is a feeling of cold tea.

How could this happen? For a moment, I couldn't recover.

Until I was hit hard, the pain of eating bones made me take a deep breath. I didn't have time to turn around, but I heard a little girl scold: "Who are you standing here in the way during the daytime?"

The moment I looked back, the girl was stunned, and then her face turned white.

Her big eyes, like seeing a ghost, covered her mouth for a long time and wanted to scream.

According to the usual practice, of course, I know that the other party is scared and will call someone immediately. I'm here to revenge. Of course, I can't reveal my identity, so I grabbed the girl's hand and covered her mouth fiercely and said, "Don't make a sound, otherwise..." I wanted to say something cruel or something, but I found that I was not acting as a bad person. I couldn't say anything that killed and raped.

But the little girl seemed to understand what I meant and stopped immediately. She just stared at me with a helpless and pleading face.

I saw her pitiful and immediately let her go, but blocked her way.

"Don't shout, do you hear me?"

The girl nodded suddenly, as if she wanted to cry and couldn't cry.

"What are you doing? Have you seen the ghost? Scared like that." At least I used to be the third lady here, as for her.

In addition, the girl said with a big tongue, "Three...Three...Are you really Miss Three?"

"What?" I don't think so.

"Didn't I see... see... ghost... ghost?"

"What do you think? Do you dare to stand here in broad daylight? Besides, don't you see a shadow under me?"

Seeing me say this, the girl immediately lowered her head to check. Sure enough, after finding out that I was not a ghost, she breathed a sigh of relief and said with a good face, "Miss San, are you not dead?"

I rolled my eyes and shook my head and said, "Of course not."

"Then I'll tell the master right away."

After saying that, she turned around and wanted to leave. I quickly dragged her back: "Don't go."

"Why?"

"Don't ask why, I ask you, what about the first lady?"

"Madam?" She hesitated for a moment and said a little depressed, "At the beginning, she said that she had killed you, Your Highness. If today's new emperor and your father, she directly forced the first lady to become a monk and cut her hair. It is said that it is a punishment for her to accompany her with the blue lamp and die alone in this life.

"Cut your hair for Ni?" I was shocked: "Are you sure it was forced by the new emperor?"

"Of course."

"..." If it's really forced by Murong Zijun, then, is he really for me? Since you should know that Chu Tianxue and her mother are in the same group for me, why do you want to marry her?

"Miss San, why are you stunned? Why aren't you dead?" The little girl came over her face curiously, and then poked me with her hand. After feeling the elasticity on my body, she was relieved.

I looked at her and thought that since my revenge had been revenged, it was useless for me to come here.

I want to leave now, but when I see the situation in the house, I can't help but wonder, "What's going on in this house? What about people?"

"I have been dismissed by the prime minister."

"Demobilization? Why?"

The little girl was a little sad and said, "After the eldest lady cut her hair for Ni, the eldest lady got married again. The second lady often quarreled with her husband's family and went home to make trouble. Although nothing big has happened at home, there is a feeling of uneasiness. Xiang Ye is always worried and sighs all day long. This year has passed, like a teenager. These days, the minister said that he was getting more and more unable to do it, so he planned to resign from his official position and want to leave here.

"Leave?"

"Yes, he plans to take your mother to the countryside to find a quiet place to enjoy his old age."

"Is he really willing to give up all this?" I couldn't help sneering and thinking that at the beginning, he treated me badly in order to let several daughters fly to the branches as phoenixes. Now, why, I can't do it. Do you want to return to the field?

"The prime minister said that there is nothing to give up. Several daughters have caused this now, and it's all his own harm. In fact, he was very ashamed of your third lady. He thought that after your death, the prime minister set up a spiritual position for you, often standing in front of your spiritual position for a day.

When I heard this, I couldn't help but feel a little bit in my heart.

It turned out that this old man also had a time when his conscience was uneasy. If he had known today, why did he do it at the beginning?

"Miss San, since you are back now, the prime minister must be happy. I'll let him come over. How about your father and daughter get together?"

"No."

My cold voice suddenly shocked the other party. The other party looked at me puzzled and said, "Why?"

"Anyway, you all think I'm dead, just think I'm dead."

"Ah?"

"Even if I know I'm alive, I won't leave with them."

"Don't you leave?"

"Yes, if I die, just think I'm dead. Don't think about it. Maybe if I am alive, it will make his uneasy heart more and more entangled. All right, girl, this is for you. Remember, just as if you haven't seen me today.

After saying that, I stuffed an ingot of silver into the girl's hand.

When she was about to leave, she caught up with her again and stopped talking, "Miss, are you really not going to see your husband?"

I said cruelly, "No, if there is a chance in the future, I will come to you."

"But..."

"Okay, I'm leaving, remember. I'm dead."