Chapter 33 Diary

Since you want to learn something, you should have the demeanor of a scholar. Chen Gou left and Xiao Yao took a taxi to Uncle Zhao's house to get some books.

When they arrived at Uncle Zhao's yard, the two looked at each other and smiled. This place was the place where they met. At that time, Chen Gou left didn't think Xiao Yao was good. When he first saw the girl, he just thought that she was pure enough. After all, Chen Gou, who just came to Shanghai, was not very tricky. At that time, he just liked women with big breasts and big buttocks, such as Zhang Xuexian.

Chen Gou asked Xiaoyao what he looked like at the first sight. Xiaoyao curled her head and sat on the old-fashioned lounge chair and said, "What did you feel at that time? Just like... Well, it's very honest and honest, just like a fellow villager."

Chen Gou asked, "There's more."

"It's very good at coaxing people."

"What else?"

"Oh, that's it anyway!"

"Don't you feel my power and height? Don't you feel my son of aiss? And my jade tree in the wind?"

Xiaoyao pounced and said, "I also feel that you are a complete pervert, and even Xiao Yaoyao won't let go."

Chen Gou left the house full of chasing Xiaoyao and playing.

I bumped into a small coffee table, and a diary fell out of it.

At this time, Chen Gou's leftover women's Nokia bell rang.

Running Waves

The river will never stop

I have finished all the world

Mixed with a surging trend

It's joy or sorrow

I can't tell the difference between laughter and sadness in the waves

......

Chen Gou left to pick up the phone. After waiting for him to say something, he said "I believe you" and then hung up the phone.

Xiaoyao fiddled with Chen Gou's remaining women's mobile phone and continued to play the song "Shanghai Beach".

Chen Gou left listened to this most fascinating song and suddenly thought of two Shanghai women.

The snow buds are close to Emei, and the red bag Gu Zhuchun is not reduced.

Bamboo leaves are green, greedy wolves.

He slowly opened the dusty diary.

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Rainstorm on June 1, 1979

Today is my third birthday. My father and mother took me to many interesting places in Shanghai. Dad bought me a watercolor pen and a drawing board. I like it very much. I drew Dad, Mom, and me on it. This is my happiest day, because my father used to refuse to take me to play on the pretext of being busy. Dad told me that I was born in the year of the end of ten years of turmoil, so he named me Zhao Chenfu, which is homophonic. I don't know what the name means, but at night, an old man came to my family. He said it was my grandfather. After he told me that the word "the ups and downs are still ups and downs" that I didn't understand, my father coaxed him out. Go.

I asked my father why he wanted to drive away that kind grandpa? However, I was beaten. This was the first time my father hit me, and my buttocks were broken.

The scorching sun shines on August 3, 1980

Dad called me up very early. He said, silly daughter, what do you want to do when you grow up? I said to my father, I want to be a teacher. Dad asked me why. I said, being a teacher can educate children, which is very powerful. Dad smiled and touched my little head without saying anything, and then he sent me to school. When I got to school, the teacher and the children my age envied me very much, because my father was the only one who drove me to school.

It was cloudy on August 8, 1981

The old man came to my house again today. He doesn't look good. Grandpa and I waited at the door until the evening. Dad came back with an uncle. He was a very handsome uncle. At least that's what I thought at that time. Dad pulled him out of the car and began to fight. It was not until the grandfather shouted to stop that Dad stopped. At that time, my father looked very ugly, and I was so scared that I cried when I stood beside him. Grandpa began to beat his father. As he hit, he said, it doesn't matter if your brothers look down on me. I robbed a woman from the Chen family, and you also robbed one. He**s your sister and should fight, but you shouldn't fight. I don't understand what "**" means, but my intuition was not good at that time. Indeed, I looked it up in the dictionary at night to understand the meaning of that word. I also hate that bad uncle.

Negrine rain on October 2, 1982

Dad came back with a baby in his arms. He told his mother that this was the man's child. At that time, there was a trace of loneliness in my mother's eyes. I saw it clearly next to me. I don't know why my mother had such an expression. Mom smiled and said, so what? Dad said that his sister committed suicide soon after giving birth to a child. I cried when I ran back to the room sadly. I know that the person who committed suicide is my aunt.

Sunny on June 15, 1983

Grandpa moved into our house, but he never talked to his father or mother after entering the house. In addition to chatting with me every day, he talked to the one-year-old boy in his arms. Today, he happened to be 1 year old. Grandpa was very happy and kept holding him and saying, he was really like our Yuxi.

Sunny on April 3, 1985

Today, a boy told me that he liked me. I hated it. We are all children. We shouldn't have said these words. Be careful not to let adults find out and beat us.

From sunny to overcast on May 10, 1985

A grandpa came to my family today. My grandpa is very happy. It's been 2 years. I haven't seen him happier than today. I got up early in the morning and went to buy food and wine in person, as if I was ten years younger all of a sudden. He said to the three-year-old boy, this is your grandfather. The boy shouted obediently, Grandpa. But he didn't agree at all. He hummed and said, "What about the girl in the Xia family?" Grandpa said he was pregnant with his child. The old man didn't say anything, so he hugged the little boy and left.

Grandpa moved out.

It was overcast on September 10, 1988

I have always had some bad feelings these days. I went to junior high school and understood a lot of things. Dad has been drinking and keeps drinking. I know he seems to have quarreled with his mother, and then his mother moved out. I asked Dad what happened to you and Mom. Dad touched my head and said, "Chenchen, when you grow up, you must be a teacher." I didn't respond to his words and asked him if he had divorced his mother? He nodded. At night, I vaguely heard the sound of fighting outside the room. I quickly got dressed and came out, but it was too late. My father had been taken away by several people in black, and the leader seemed to be the bad man who was ** aunt. I shouted at the car that was far away. This was the first time I said dirty words. I hate that man, my aunt took my father away. Maybe my mother's departure has something to do with him?

Sunny on September 11, 1988

I live with my grandpa.

Sunny on December 1, 1989

The bad man sent a little boy. I think he is very similar to my aunt's child. Maybe it's him! But soon the little boy was picked up by a military vehicle.

Rain on May 1, 1990

Today, when I arrived at school, a boy who seemed to be a gangster in the school called me to the playground. He asked me for the watch in my hand, which was given to me by my father on my tenth birthday. Although I don't know how much it is, this is the only thing my father gave me. Of course I can't give it to him. What can I do as a weak woman? I was finally robbed by him, and I was slapped. He said that he asked me to wait for him at the gate of the Hongtai Hotel in the evening. I knew what he was going to do, but I still went there. I brought a knife. When he rushed at me, I stabbed him, one knife, two knives, and I don't know how many knives I had. I came home and was very calm, and I also took back the watch. I wrote this diary, maybe this is the last one.

Postscript: The boy had a great life and didn't die. After Grandpa heard about this, he said that you should be more ruthless. If something happens, and Grandpa, as long as I am not dead, I can resist for you. After that, I became the eldest sister in the school.

Sunny day on June 1, 1992

I'm already in high school, and the first exam is the first place in the school. In this area, I am already very famous. I have cut off someone else's hand and broken the dick of a man who thinks about me. Today is my 16th birthday. A big brother on the road bought me a drink. After that, he wanted to**. I, I took out the dagger that had been on my body and pricked it at him. I didn't stop until I couldn't die anymore. I came home full of blood and said to my grandfather that I had killed someone. He asked me whether I was a good person or a bad person. I said, it can't be too bad. Grandpa said, read at ease.

Rain on August 1, 1993

I was admitted to Fudan University. I could have a score of Tsinghua University and Peking University, but I didn't go, because I think the university is not important to me anymore. It's just a disguise of my identity. Shanghai people gave me a nickname, and I also like it very much. They call me Zhu Yeqing.

Sunny on June 1, 1994

Today is my eighteenth birthday, and it's the day I go to the orphanage again. Since my father left, I go to the orphanage every year. I will donate the pocket money I have saved for a year. Today, I donated 100,000 yuan, which was the protection fee collected by my younger brother.

June 1, 1995

I went to the orphanage today and knew that Xiaotian had died of illness. I was very sad and cried all night. The child who had traveled to most of China for his sister not to eat or drink. It's a sad secular world. How should the little girl named Water Ice be arranged?

Sunny on November 1, 1995

I killed someone again. I'm still a bad person. It's very relaxed. It's not the same as the first time. This time I used a gun. This time I didn't tell Grandpa, because I think I can solve it myself, and I solve it better and faster than Grandpa!

Wind and rain on June 1, 1996

Another year has passed. I miss Dad. Dad, I'm 20 years old, but I don't seem to be able to be a teacher. I'm a bad woman and I can't teach my children badly. Today is my last diary, and I also burned the watercolor painting. Dad, goodbye, I can't talk to you anymore, because I want to avenge you.

Chen Gou left her diary, and Xiao Yao was still fiddling with the mobile phone. She didn't ask why it was a women's mobile phone. She was not stupid. She knew that there must be some unspeakable secrets in this diary.

The two walked out of Uncle Zhao's house, or under the banyan tree in the distance, an Accord Honda was still parked there.

Chen Gou left saw the car, and the woman in the car also saw Chen Gou left and the diary in his hand.

Chen Gou is scolding the dog. At this time, he knew why this woman was called Zhu Yeqing, the beautiful snake. Women are thinking, no wonder they can't find it, but you know too much, okay?