Chapter 4 Wake up in a dream, guilt like a mountain

The wind sent the jade cicadas to the west, and the three times were not exhausted, and the window entered the bamboo shadow.

The window was half opened, and the moonlight quietly flowed into the quiet boudoir through the green bamboo. There was a wind style, shaking the bead curtain, and the fine and crisp sound made the quiet night seem more lonely. The lily fragrance of the room was messy. Outside the red curtain, a lonely high copper lamp stood silently, and the light and shadow swayed slightly, faintly lit up the couch. The girl's eyebrows seemed to struggle in the dream and frowned slightly.

This is a messy dream.

Ten miles of red makeup, drums and music, colorful sedan chairs and white horses around the city, as if it were the wedding day.

Dragon and phoenix candles, a room of red gauze, and the man in a wedding dress was half on the couch, which was covered with red, making his face particularly pale. He looked at her and seemed to smile, her eyes were clear, and his eyes were pale by the face, reflecting like a little paint.

"Binable scenery."

He called her and stretched out his hand to her. His palms were also pale, as if he could see the slender cyan veins.

He is dying, so weak.

Ten fingers are holding each other without a trace of warmth.

She was suddenly pulled by a huge force, standing unsteadily and falling close to him.

I clearly saw that his clear face twisted in an instant, as if he was enduring great pain.

"Why, why did you hurt me!" Bright red blood kept flowing from the dark pupils, as if it could not flow out, filling her palm and dripping along her wrist.

No! I didn't mean to. I don't want him to die. I can't let him die. This time, I can't, look at him...

Her heart was like ajiaoling, and she was so painful that she couldn't breathe. She hurriedly used her blood-filled hands to cover his bleeding eyes.

"Kill him!" Someone behind him is saying gently.

"Yijing, kill him, kill him and we can stay together for a long time."

Looking back, my eyes were filled with shadows, but I couldn't see any face, but the sound in my ear was suddenly noisy, and I gradually couldn't tell whether I was familiar with it or not.

"Kill him!" Kill him!" Kill the son of the king of Chu!" Yingjing, kill him!"

Wake up suddenly...

The forehead has been covered with a thin layer of sweat, and the light plain silk coat on his body also seems to be soaked with cold sweat.

Even if you use your palm to hold your chest tightly, you can't calm down the heartbeat of a hundred horses, and your throat seems to be stuffed, making it difficult and painful for her to breathe. For a moment, I couldn't tell whether it was a dream or reality. It was not until I saw the beauty lying on the side of the side in the blurred light and shadow that the beautiful scenery was relieved and fell down.

That's great, it's just a nightmare.

I turned over and lay face to the wall, but I was not sleepy.

Yu's handsome face in memory was separated and clearly appeared in front of her. Even if he closed his eyes, he could not get rid of it. He was always so gentle and stared at her, as if with wanton pity, which made it difficult for her to face and shed tears of shame. At this moment, he hated himself and hated his stupidity. Stupid and vicious.

Before the yellow scroll associated her with his name, Yu Yu, the son of the king of Chu, was really just a stranger to her. The most heard about him was just the sigh of many people - the loss of his mother since childhood, lingering in the sick bed, I'm afraid it won't last long, the poor king of Chu only has one son - later The magic doctor Qinggu appeared and heard that it could cure the evil disease of the prince of Chu. She just said simply - so - she turned around and put the name and the things related to the name behind.

Of course, I never thought of any intersection with him.

Because of his body, Yu rarely went out. He remembered that the only time they met before marriage was at the Empress Dowager's birthday banquet, singing and dancing through a vague glance.

So, when the Empress Dowager gave her the decree of marriage, she even thought that there was something wrong with her ears!

It's not Yuzhou, it's actually Yu! This really made her incredible... She knew that at that time, her grandmother often went to the palace to discuss with the empress dowager, and her mother also vaguely revealed that her grandmother intended to marry the king of Chu, so she had been waiting with shyness and longing, thinking that she would make a good relationship with the man who was a childhood sweetheart.

Everything seems to be a nightmare.

I still remember my grandmother's words at that time: "Jing'er is obedient. Yu'er is a good child. Although he is weak, he is unimped. Now with Mr. Qinggu's diagnosis and treatment, he is bound to get better every day. Yu'er also lost his mother at a young age. He will pity you. You have loved literature and calligraphy since you were a child, and he is the same. You two really match each other. Grandma can't get it wrong.

At this time, I thought about these words carefully, but there was a deep meaning in them.

Grandmother has never been an arbitrary elder. At the beginning, the marriage between the eldest sister and the eldest brother also asked their original intention. Why is it that she is so decisive that she is always spoiled and completely ignores her pleas? Besides, even if she never mentioned it, she has been close to Yuzhou since she was a child, and even Jiang Yue can see the ambiguity between the two. How could her grandmother not know it at all?

But she still resolutely let her marry the son of the king of Chu.

Before getting married, my grandmother seemed to want to stop talking every time she saw her. What are those things she wanted to say but didn't say in the end?

At that time, she complained about her grandmother and did not ask. After marrying into the palace of the king of Chu, although she felt that the protection of the prince of Chu was too thorough and a little strange, she did not think about the reason.

The first king of Chu had only two sons. The king of Chu was born, and the general of the town was a concubine. He should have divided the government early. However, because the son of the king of Chu was sick since he was a child and the princess of Chu died young, I don't know why. The king of Chu has never married a step-in-wife, and the old princess is a business. The family of the king of Chu can only rely on Xie, the wife of the general of the town. She is the take care of it, and Xie is the niece of the old princess, and she is in harmony with the old princess's mother-in-law and daughter-in-law.

I vaguely remember that the biological mother of General Zhen was originally a half-sister with the old princess. Both of them were daughters of the Duke of Zhen, but one was a concubine.

General Zhenguo's biological mother has long passed away, and the scenery has never been seen before.

I vaguely still remember that my grandmother once mentioned that the old princess discussed with the empress dowager to fight for a hereditary title of prince for the general of the town. Because of the Dalong etiquette, the throne was inherited by the eldest son, and the rest of the legitimate sons were awarded the title of prince, while the concubine of the prince could only be a general of the town or a general of the auxiliary country. The title of general was not hereditary, because If Yuzhou had not been canonized for meritorious service, it would only be an idle clan in the end. However, if his father is crowned as a prince, Yu Zhou is the son of the prince and can also inherit the title in the future. Unfortunately, because Emperor Taizong wanted to establish a leader in those years, the reserve position was almost insurable, so the Empress Dowager and Jins attached great importance to the direct concubine and refused the old princess's plea.

In those years, the scenery still regretted Yu Zhou, but he didn't pay attention to it.

Now I want to come...

If the son of the king of Chu dies and the king of Chu has no other sons, he will inevitably inherit an attack from the sons of the generals of the town.

In the previous life, due to Guan Suiyuan's strict defense, especially the son's medicinal diet, he could only be handled by Guan Suiyuan's maid, and after he became the imperial concubine, the prince never guarded himself.

It is no wonder that it will become a weapon used by others.

On the ten-year anniversary of the Lantern Festival, when the prince of Chu drank the poison she handed herself, he was still looking forward to the coming year. He said - next year, I will be better. When next year, when all the haze is over, I will take you to enjoy the lanterns, take a boat ride in the Liuguang River, and make a wish under the golden dragon lantern in front of Ping'an Gate.

At that time, his face was haggard, but his eyes were particularly bright, with a longing for a better future, looking forward to her response with a smile.

But the next moment, he felt abdominal pain, and blood kept pouring out of the corners of his eyes and nostrils, which made her panic!

Yes, panicked!!

Although she never loved him, she never wanted to let him die!

She believed Yu Zhou's words so much that she really thought that the medicine could only make people fall into a coma.

How stupid... Why did you ignore Yu Zhou's desire for the throne? Why did you never think about how much Yuzhou looked forward to the death of his son!

She took the initiative to hug him for the first time, holding his gradually cold hand in despair, and watching his blood gushing out, but at that time, there was no ferociousness or resentment on his face.

The last words - the scenery, they won't let you go! Go back quickly, go back to the Duke of Wei, and go back to find the Empress. Only she can save you. Youjing, I can't do it anymore...

We have been together for two years, but the image of him is pitifully indifferent. She has always failed and perfunctory.

I don't even know when he took her seriously. I only remember that when she got married, flowers, grass, screens and paintings in Guan Suiyuan were all her favorite furnishings, a cup of tea, a plate of snacks, and soup dishes, which were also her favorite.

But what about her? I have never cared about him, I don't know what he likes, I don't know how his condition is, I see him getting better day by day, and I have never been really happy.

What a ruthless wife, how can he be remembered at that last moment?

Even if you meet again in your dream, you should cover your face with your hands and dare not see it.

Yu Yu, I will only make up for it in this life. You don't have to pay anymore.

Two days later, Yijing finally felt that the sharp pain in her throat had disappeared. Although she occasionally coughed, she was no longer hoarse when she spoke, and more and more recovered the tenderness and lightness that a 12-year-old girl should have, and she gradually got used to the fact of rebirth, but she still dared not go to Yuanyingtang - there seemed to be a feeling of timidness, thinking When it comes to seeing my grandmother, I will still panic because of guilt and betrayal.

Although the spring has been beating around several times: "Linglong comes to visit Wu Niang every day, which must be the lady who is very worried about it."

Qiu Yue also said bluntly countless times: "Wuniang, the old lady must know that you are fine. If the fifth mother doesn't say hello, I'm afraid that the old lady will think that the fifth mother is still angry."

Qiu Shuang is also always nagging: "I heard that the old lady is not comfortable these days, and she doesn't want to eat tea, and she is getting more and more clear."

Bing sighed in her heart that it's not that I don't want to see it, but I don't dare to see it. How can you little girl know the thoughts of me, a regretful man?

In the morning, after the beautiful scenery got up, I finally changed into bright clothes - cherry red cross-front shorts, six smoky purple light gauze skirts, silk wrapped around the waist, small brocade bags, coral beads on wristbands, and brocade shoes.

A group of maids were so excited that their eyes lit up. Looking at Wu Niang's dress, they must have gone to Yuanying Hall to say hello. After they didn't want to wear a new one, beautiful scenery tilted on the beauty chair again, holding a roll of books and reading unsteadily.

The maids were all discouraged, blocked their breath in their chests, and they were busy.

Yijing is also struggling in her heart. Whether she goes or not, she is afraid that she can't help kneeling on the ground and crying when she sees her grandmother's kindness. But if you avoid it like this, won't you see your grandmother in this life? Whenever I made up my mind, I felt a stuffy pain in my lower abdomen, and my heart seemed to be floating in the deep pool, and I collapsed in an instant.

Later, I couldn't help raising the book in my hand and knocking on my forehead, as if I could instill courage from my forehead to the five meridians and eight veins.

Suddenly, I heard a few smiles, and saw that the brocade curtain was lifted. The woman in a fiery coat strode in and pointed to the beautiful scenery and laughed, "You little fool, aren't you stupid to read a book? It's not smart to shoot. Let me see, are you looking at those talented women again, private meeting under the moon?"

If this word is changed to other people's mouths, Yijing will definitely think that she is mocking her again, but the person in front of her is her favorite aunt, so naturally it is another matter.

It's not easy for a peer to come——

Unfortunately, beautiful scenery has to continue to pretend to be immature, with a little mouth and a stamp of her feet: "My aunt laughed at me again. I know I made a mistake. I shouldn't have seen it. I won't do it again."

Su Lian grabbed the book in Yijing's hand and looked at the title page. Her amber-like eyes stared exaggeratedly: "Take the Scholar's Record? Aren't you the most bored to read these dull books? When did you change your sex?

In the past, she only liked to read those poems and songs, miscellaneous books, and stay away from those military books and strategies, and etiquette. Therefore, she only knew how to recite poems and moon, stroke the piano and painting, and got a talent name of Kyoto Shuanghua. She was actually more stupid than a maid who didn't know big words. How could she make the same mistake again in this life? It is said that it is wise to read history. She urgently needs to be wise, not to mention revenge. I'm afraid that she can't even figure out who the enemy is.

But these heartfelt words can't be said to the little aunt, so beautiful scenery had to be perfunctorily: "I can't understand these when I was young. Now that I'm old, I feel a little interesting."

Su Lian laughed and said, "I was still looking at the talented woman before I was sick. How many days did I grow up after I was sick? I want to say that at your age, you have to read less books. Mo Ru went to practice riding and swordsmanship with me, which will not be in vain. When you are old and can't walk in the future, many of them are reading while lying down.

My aunt is still of the same nature. When she met a person, she began to lobby for martial arts.

In the past, Yijing would have avoided with a smile, but today, she agreed: "Okay, I will pester my aunt to practice martial arts every day. Don't bother me."

Su Lian was surprised and said, "Children can keep their word. You should know that those who eat their words are fat. You have to carefully become a fat girl in the future, with a bucket waist and a big cake face."

"If my aunt can't teach me well, she will become a fat girl." View rushed over with a smile and was about to scratch her little aunt's waist.

"Come on, I'll take it seriously. It's better to hit the sun than to choose the day. Go horseback with me today." Without saying anything, Su Lian took Yijing's hand and walked out of the room, stunned Chunmu. After a while, he ordered Qiu Yue and Qiu Shuang to look at the room and followed him with his skirt.

The two sisters laughed all the way out of the Green Qingyuan and passed through the fake stone garden. When they arrived at Yuanying Hall, Su Lian restrained their smile and pulled the beautiful scenery and walked in: "Since they know it's wrong, they still don't apologize. They used to act coquettishly in front of their grandmother in the past few days. These days, they have been hiding in the room and pretending turtles."

Before Yijing came to her senses, she was "cond" into the eldest princess's house.

I saw my grandmother sitting in Luohan** at a glance--

Like a cloud bun, it is only used to tie up with a white jade. The large-sleeved coat on the body is the bright blue and dark cloud satin that is always preferred. At the cuffs, it is embroidered with the eldest princess's favorite jade honey winter. It is gorgeous and elegant, and friendly to the eyes. The beautiful scenery only feels that a heart is beating hastily. I don't know if I feel wet at the end of my eyes.

Although she was over 100 years old, her grandmother was still heroic, noble and beautiful. Unlike at that time, the eldest sister was depressed after marriage and suffered from two minor births, so that Tao Li Nianhua was seriously ill. Her grandmother was very worried, but she did not make the eldest sister happy. In the ninth year of Yuanqing, there was a bloody case in the East Palace that shocked Dalong. The son was stabbed, and the eldest brother Su Wei was also poisoned by the assassin in the disaster. As a result, his grandmother was sorely hit that she coughed up blood and lingered in the bed...

And because of the marriage, I have grievances and complain about my grandmother. When I return to see my sick relatives, it's just a few perfunctory words.

I don't know how sad my grandmother would be after learning that she poisoned the world's son and "avoid death"...

The ignorant and unfilial self not only ruined my grandmother's love, but perhaps it was her who gave her grandmother the most deadly blow.

Only when I saw my relatives in the next world did I know the word guilt and what kind of weight it was in my heart, so that the heartfelt hatred for the cruel man became insignificant at this moment.

The eldest princess was talking to Mother Song, but Su Lian and Yijing suddenly broke in, and she was also slightly stunned.

Seeing that the scenery was hesitant, Su Lian pushed her forward: "Why are you stunned? You still can't admit your mistake."

This push actually made Yijing kneel down with a bang, which made the people in the room stunned again. The eldest princess quickly got up and hugged Yijing in her arms: "Silly child, what are you doing? Your body is just right. How can you stand kneeling?"

"Grandmother... is all grandchildren's unfilial, which makes you worried." Thousands of words and all kinds of guilt, but there is no way to elaborate. Only this lightly sentence is full of tears.

Su Lian came to her senses at this time. Seeing that Yijing was crying sadly, her mother also seemed to be very sad and hurriedly smile to save the atmosphere: "I also said that Jing's girl didn't come to Yuanyingtang. It was because she was angry with her mother that she went to catch her. I didn't want this stupid girl because she felt guilty... Mother Dear, you don't know. When I just went there, I saw her patting her forehead with a book and grabbed it, but it was a book of "Records of Scholars". I was surprised. I wondered if the girl Jing had a fever, and even her temperament had changed. Who knew that she was most afraid of these dull classics. She also said that she had grown up and felt that these books were also interesting. If you are obviously a little boy, you can only cry if you can't wipe your face.

A few words made the eldest princess laugh, stared at her beloved daughter, and was busy wiping tears for beautiful scenery: "It's not a big mistake. How can you cry like a flower cat? You used to love your face the most. What's the matter? Aren't you afraid of maids watching jokes today?"

So the scenery also burst into tears and smiled, only feeling warm in his heart. Although his guilt was still like a mountain, he stopped his tears.

Crying can't make up for anything. She was reborn, not to get understanding with tears.

"The princess is relieved this time. The maidservant said that although Wu Niang is a proud person, she is also a filial child. How can she have a grudge and become unfamiliar with you because of a punishment." Mother Song also laughed.

This is especially harsh!

Lifting a pair of clear eyes soaked in tears, the eyes of the scenery stayed on Mother Song's smiling face for a moment and turned away for a moment.

After marrying in her previous life, Mother Song became the stewmer of Luqingyuan. Later, she married herself. Because Mother Yang was no longer in Jinyang at that time, Mother Song naturally followed the King of Chu's Mansion. Thinking about the past, Yijing realized that her grandmother's desire must have hidden feelings. Maybe she had insighted some people's wildness at that time. Xin, the reason why she didn't speak bluntly to herself was because she was worried that the complicated inside story would increase her burden, but her grandmother had always believed in Mother Song and thought that she must have told her to mention herself in the Chu royal palace.

But Mother Song, who was deeply trusted by her grandmother, never mentioned anything about her.

It is absolutely impossible for Dongyu to carry out the conspiracy seamlessly without the indulgence of Mother Song.

Besides, based on the relationship between Mother Song and Dongyu, she said that they were not accomplices, and no one would believe it.

Dongyu is two years younger than himself, but he has such a meticulous and fierce mind that no one will believe it without Mother Song's guidance.

Very good, in that life, you are in the dark, and in this life, Mother Song and Dongyu, I will definitely uncover the ferociousness under your hypocritical faces! The scenery smiled sweetly at Mother Song——

"Thank you for your good words in front of your grandmother."