Chapter 147, Yong Mingyan's Confession

Mu Fangjin shook his head, "You are a good sister, but sometimes it's not reasonable. Don't think too much. People can't come back to life... If you ruin your body like this, it will become more and more useless. Why don't you stay healthy and continue to take care of your younger brothers and sisters in the future? As he spoke, his fingers brushed the corners of her eyes and cheeks, gentle or a gentle caress.

"Big brother...what's wrong with him?" Xinyi hesitated for a long time and finally asked this question.

Mu Fangjin's movements stagnated unnaturally, and his hand hung in mid-air for a while. After a long time, he withdrew his hand and replied, "It's okay."

"It's okay...how is it?"

"Why did you talk about him again," Mu Fangjin frowned, "I saw that day... You obviously blamed him... If he provoked you, it's all right."

Xinyi shook his head: "I knew from the beginning that he was right, but I went too much." She said this and looked up at Mu Fangjin: "After a while, when I'm no longer so excited... Maybe I should apologize to him." As she spoke, she lowered her head slowly: "He has been taking care of me and loving Pearl so much. He must have done his best at that time."

"If you can really think so, now that you are weak and can't get out of bed, I will convey your feelings to him for you." Speaking of this, Mu Fangjin also said slightly: "Actually, Mingyan's situation is not as good as yours. He has really lost a lot in the past two days, which is also because of his worry and self-reproach." Speaking of this, he raised his voice again: "But if Mingyan hears what you say, he will definitely recover a lot."

Xinyi listened and said silently.

"What about you... You have to take good care of yourself and don't make a child's temper." He looked back at the table and went to bring the small porcelain bowl. "The porridge has been warmed up. If you don't drink it, it will be cold." As he spoke, he thoughtfully scooped a spoonful of porridge with a spoonful and was about to feed her.

She dodged, "Or... I'll do it myself." Xinyi was obviously a little uncomfortable. After all, he still refused euphemistically: "I have broken nails, and it doesn't mean that the bones are broken. I'll come by myself... You... Second brother, you'd better go back to your study to work."

"No, at least I have to be with you." Mu Fangjin looked at her again and finally lowered his eyes: "At least such a big change has happened at home. There is no one around me."

"But...but the dust is enough to serve me."

"How can she be so considerate as your second brother?" Mu Fangjin suddenly smiled, making Xinyi's heart tremble slightly. I accidentally bit the porcelain spoon and had a toothache.

Xinyi hurriedly lowered his eyes and hurriedly swallowed a few mouthfuls of porridge to hide it. After a few bites, she raised her eyes and glanced at him: "So... is it possible that your daily business should be moved to my room like today?"

"Natural." The corners of his mouth rippled with a shallow arc: "If you feel noisy, I'll wait for you to sleep."

"I... I'm not as much as you think..." She just wanted to argue, but she raised her eyes and bumped into Mu Fangjin's frowning, full of distrustful eyes. I had to finally lower my head and said, "Okay."

"Good boy." As she lowered her head, the sourness in the ninja's nose kept stuffing porridge spoonful after spoonful of porridge in her mouth. Mu Fangjin also stretched out his hand and rubbed her head until it messed up the green silk that was not coiled into a bun.

It was five days in a flash. Although this incident hit Xinyi hard, but Fortunately, his body gradually recovered under the care. And she hasn't seen Yongmingyan for five days.

I heard from Mu Fangjin that Yong Mingyan has also locked herself in the room these days, and no matter who she avoids it.

Xinyi is not an irrational person. She has been thinking thoroughly these days, and doctors are not omnipotent. Even in modern times, there are cases that can't be cured... Not to mention that it is ancient now, such a thing is by no means strange.

It's just... This is a fan of the authorities. Everyone will say the truth, but if they really encounter such an encounter, how many people can still keep calm?

She always wanted to find an opportunity to apologize to Yong Mingyan, but every time she walked to the door of his room and returned.

Xinyi is now... a little afraid to meet him.

Although I think it's good, it's hard to guarantee that I won't be able to control my emotions like a few days ago. Or... what can I say to him when I meet him?

Although Yong Mingyan has 'caught' Chongxuan this time, Yong Mingyan is no longer in the mood to ask him about it. And the master stayed in Beijing for a few days, and it was time to leave.

It was night, as if Mu Fangjin had something to say to his master, so he went to the study alone, and Xinyi was bored alone, so he also went out on the moon and had the right to relax.

And a few turns around the corridor, and there is a figure wandering in the courtyard. The moon flows, and there are bright and dark mottled marks under his pale cyan clothes. It seemed that he was also aware of the existence of Xinyi. Looking back, his eyes were hot and his eyebrows frowned slightly, as if there were troubles in his chest and could not be hair.

After not seeing him for a few days, Yong Mingyan also lost a lot of weight. Seeing Xin Yi, he was slightly stunned, and then lowered his eyes to speak silently.

Xinyi stepped forward and also lowered his head and whispered, "Big brother... I was not good a few days ago."

He just shook his head, "What you said that day is not wrong. This matter has nothing to do with me. Pearl's death is indeed my fault." He said this and gave a slight pause, "How are you these days?"

The girl nod obediently: "Thanks to the second brother taking care of it..." She looked at Yong Mingyan: "On the contrary, the eldest brother seems to have reduced a lot in the past few days." Seeing that he was still frowning, Xinyi also had some doubts: "Big brother, what's wrong with you today? Why do you keep frowning? Is it because of something?"

His fist was clenched to death, and suddenly he let go. Yong Mingyan took a deep breath and finally said as if he had made up his mind, "I... I'm afraid I can't stay here?"

"...why?" Xinyi was stunned and grabbed his cuffs and asked, "Why did you say such a thing? Is there anything wrong with living here? I see that you and the second brother have a very deep relationship... Why, why do you never see each other again?"

"Hmm." He really answered. Never see you again."

Abnormal... Intuition tells her that today's big brother is really abnormal to the extreme. So, there must be some reason for everything, right?

"If you want to know the reason, he will explain it to you tomorrow." Yong Mingyan said this, grabbed Xin Yi's hand, and then pulled it down from his sleeve. Holding her hand tightly even made Xinyi feel slightly painful.

Xinyi looked at him holding himself and refused to relax. He tried to draw it back, but to no result. I had to look up in my ears, but I saw Yong Mingyan staring at me all the time, and his eyes were as bright as stars. Big brother... What's wrong with you today?

"You don't have to be afraid... I just want to tell you something." There was nothing very clear on Yong Mingyan's face, and the meaning in her eyes was hidden in the shadow of her forehead, which made her not see clearly. He lowered his eyes slightly and said slowly, "I know that today's words are not right, and the occasion is not right... I shouldn't have said this to you at this time. But... Xinyi... I... I'm afraid I won't talk to you today... I won't have a chance to talk to you again."

She was stunned. At this time, she seemed to understand something in Yong Mingyan's tone: "Big brother... What does it mean that there is no chance to say it in the future? Is it possible... Is it possible that you won't even disappear from me in the future?"

Yong Mingyan lowered his head, smiled bitterly, and shook his head slowly. Do you know what I'm going to say to you? Seeing that Xinyi looked up at him, his eyes were confused and silent for a long time, and he was also stained with a little gentle look at the corners of his mouth - that kind of gentleness and calmness, as if when he was watching her eat meat buns, listening to her talk about her brothers and sisters... Or, in that Zhongyuan night, when they walked hand in hand and walked through the market together, the one who looked at each other Glance.

Xinyi grabbed the clothes with his other hand, and then lowered his eyes without saying a word.

Then she only felt that her jaw was gently picked up by the man in front of her, forcing her to meet the luminous eyes of Yongmingyan. Xinyi... Listen carefully, I like you. It can't be said that since the first few times we met, I found that I was really moved. You are the first woman I really like in my life..."

Hearing this, Xinyi panicked and quickly pulled back his hand and subconsciously stepped back. Big brother, you...uh!" Before he finished his words, he only felt that his wrist was suddenly pulled by the young man in front of him and was wrapped in his arms. Then Yong Mingyan lowered her head and blocked all the words behind her with her lips.

It can be seen that Yong Mingyan is not good at such a thing, which seems particularly astringent. Before the unbridled tongue could blend with her, she first took a bite. The smell of blood permeated between the lips and teeth, with a different **. The two of them rubbed their lips and teeth for a while before gradually stopped. Yong Mingyan's forehead was against her, and both of them breathed with each other's smell.

"Xinyi, although I shouldn't have said this to you at this time, but... I don't want to leave any regrets." He muttered and put his hand around her waist tightly, as if she would disappear out of thin air if she was a little relaxed. I know... I know you won't choose me... So I confess to you at this time and won't embarrass you."

Xinyi's heart seemed to be fiercely irritating and painful. Big brother... Why did you say that..."

"Because I know... no matter what... I won't let you stay with me in my life, just think of me as selfishness... Xinyi, I like you, and I have been holding back this in my heart for a long time. In fact, I should have said it to you a long time ago, but I know I can't say it. I'm afraid... I'm afraid that you will have the same possibility of admiring me." He shook his head slowly, gently rubbed her back to the back of her neck and head, and finally messed up her long hair: "The stable life that ordinary women expect... I'm not destined to give it to you. So... I'd rather talk to myself about everything I say to you."