yi Beichen Extra [Yi Beichen]1

(I)

My mother often says that as a man, you must be promising.

You should work hard like a big brother, and then get a reputation.

The Yi family is not a big family, and their ancestors have never been a senior official. Although the family has a few mu of land and is well managed, it is also a worry-free place for food and clothing. But after all, he is inferior, so my brother studied so hard, thinking that one day he can add glory to the Yi family.

But I don't seem to need it. As a second son, I don't like reading and learning, so my parents naturally don't value it. On the contrary, this childhood has been much better.

At the age of eight, the eldest brother passed the examination, and after that, he studied harder and harder, but when the spring was about to begin the second year, he fell ill.

The disease came in a hurry, and the family was completely confused. Even the doctors invited by the city could not say why. Seeing that the eldest brother had been ill for a few days and had been bedridden, a doctor surnamed Zhuo next door came out with a prescription. I didn't expect this pill to be a medicine to get rid of the disease. And when I went to the Zhuo family to thank him with my mother, I also entered his house for the first time.

In fact, the Zhuo family has not moved here for a long time, and I don't know where they moved from before. The head of the family is a doctor. Although he is not famous, he seems to be good at medicine. The hostess is a very kind and gentle aunt, young and usually speaks softly.

I almost forgot to say that Ding has just been added to his family, and their eldest daughter is one year old this year.

Xinyi, you must not know how bad your sleep was when I first saw you. The small body is wrapped in a small quilt, with a round, pink and chubby face, with a shiny saliva dripping from the corners of his mouth...

Xinyi is the name of magnolia. Uncle Zhuo gave you such a name. He must hope that you can be as beautiful as a flower, gentle and elegant in the future... However, this appearance now is really not close to the word beauty.

Then you slap your mouth and wake up, staring at me curiously with big eyes.

"Come on, little Xinyi, look, this is Erge Yi, come and call Erge~" Aunt Zhuo picked you up, and your face was soft and tender that people couldn't help but want to pinch it.

You opened your mouth as if you wanted to scream, but before you could speak, you turned your head to look at your mother. Listening to her teaching over and over again, and then finally called "Second Brother" vaguely at me.

I never thought that a simple name could warm people's hearts to this point.

For you... After all, I can't tell what kind of love you are.

Every day, I will take you out to bask in the sun, lead you through every road in the village, and teach you how to grow into a little girl who can be loved by everyone.

My mother often said that if I really had a sister, I might not be as good as you.

But I just like to look at your eyes and listen to the 'second brother' from your mouth.

If only... If you could stay with me like this all your life, you could follow me, take my hand and call me 'second brother'?

My parents saw what I was thinking, and even Uncle Zhuo and Aunt Zhuo understood the truth. They did not object, but simply pointed to the baby kiss. Isn't this the most common thing?

I'm just looking forward to you growing up quickly and become a big girl, and I can marry you into the door.

But.

When I was 15 years old, the war spread. The eldest brother had gone to the capital as a petty official, and I couldn't let my elderly father join the army.

At first, I resisted, but later I gradually saw through it. In fact, there is nothing wrong with the army. What my mother said to shine on the linting is not only the road of the eldest brother's official career. I can also fight on the battlefield and then return to my hometown one day.

It's just that I'm afraid I can only let you wait for me.

The night before the departure, my parents and the uncle and aunt of the Zhuo family held a wedding for us. There were only us and four high-ranking people at that wedding. No one except us will know about our marriage.

No one knows what the future will be after this trip. After all... I won't come back alive, so even if I want to marry you to fulfill my long-cherished wish, I still have to take care of your future.

You are only eight years old and a child. When I squatted down, you hugged my neck and replied that you were going to marry me with a childish voice.

So... If I come back, I will definitely give you another lively wedding.

But if I can't come back...

Xinyi, no one knows that you have married your second brother, so you are just a woman who has not left the cabinet and can find another beloved.

This is the best future I can budget for you.

No wedding clothes, no firecrackers, only a pair of red candles and a wedding book.

You raised your eyes and looked at me, which were particularly soft and beautiful in the candlelight. Although he is only eight years old, he also has a young girlish attitude.

You hung your hand, hesitated for a while, and then put your fingertips on the palm of my hand, timidly, not like the slightly naughty cuteness when you laughed when we grew up together.

I feel that you obviously want to say something to me, but in the end you don't say a word.

I keep the wedding letter alone. If I can come back in this life, I can renew our marriage.

Before dawn the next day, I tidyed up and went on the road. I put our wedding book on my chest so that I could feel it, as if I had filled my heart with you.

You also got up very early and wore a beautiful tulle skirt that you don't want to wear, which makes your figure more and more petite and lovely. As if it was because of the cold weather in the morning, your body trembled slightly. When I grab your finger, it feels cold.

"What's wrong? If you wear so little clothes, why don't you go back quickly? What if you are sick?

If you don't speak, you lower your head and ignore my blind persuasion to go back, but silently send me to the entrance of the village, "Second brother... I don't want you to go."

I suddenly didn't know how to answer. I squatted down and wanted to persuade you, but I bumped into your tearful eyes first.

"Second brother... you will come back, right?"

"Well, the second brother will come back." He stretched out his hand and gently stroked your silky hair: "Xinyi is waiting for the second brother. When Xiao Xinyi grows up, the second brother will come back."

A look of joy flashed in your eyes: "It's agreed, second brother, don't lie to me!"

"How could it be?" I smiled at you, "How can I be willing to make Xiao Xinyi sad? The second brother will definitely come. When Xiao Xinyi grows into a big girl, the second brother will definitely come back."

You lowered your head slightly, squeezed your mouth and smiled gently. The smile was so simple and pure that I couldn't help bending the corners of my mouth gently.

"Then the second brother left."

When I was about to get up, you suddenly hugged my neck, as if when I was a child, you always asked me to eat honey balls, and gently kissed me on the cheek. Second brother... I'll wait for you to come back."

"Hmm."

get up and carry it on your back and walk all the way. Looking back, I saw you standing at the entrance of the village, raising your arms and looking at me all the time, still looking at me. Second brother, Xiao Xinyi will try to grow up faster, and the second brother will come back early!"

I withdrew my eyes, but I couldn't bear to tell you that I may never come back.

"...hmm."