Ebeichen Extra [Yibeichen]2
(II)
I fought hard at the border for seven years.
One by one, my comrades-in-arms turned into dead bones in front of me. In time, I was almost the only one who survived. Every time I go to the battlefield, I am afraid of those knives and guns. Although I have gone through hundreds of battles, I am still afraid.
Yes.
Fear.
But I'm not just afraid of death. I'm... afraid that after a hundred years, I will never be able to go back to my hometown to have a look. If I were lucky enough to send the bones back to my hometown, and I knew I wouldn't come back, what would I look like?
You must be very sad, and then you can't stop crying.
This is what I fear the most.
I'm afraid that you will cry, that you will be sad, that you will be sad... I know you have been looking forward to me coming back. I can see you who has grown into a big girl, and then hold you in my arms, just like saying goodbye to me, and gently say 'I'm back' in your ear
So I want to live.
No matter what, I will see this future with my own eyes.
Touching the wedding book in my arms, your appearance came to my mind - Xinyi, who had been waiting late at the entrance of the village, on tiptoe and kept looking.
I don't know how many times I have been seriously injured and can't survive several times. I have even walked to the gate of the devil's gate, but I still have a wish. Thinking about the crazy person, I can't bear to die. He breathed a sigh of breath and climbed out of the dead.
People are in great trouble, and they will be blessed. His Highness is like my nobleman, who has been promoted all the way and even achieved the position of general. Until the end, he finally calmed the border chaos and was able to return home.
Return to your hometown... and you will be able to see you.
When I returned to Jizhou, it was close to the end of the year, which was the coldest time of the year. The snow in Jizhou is very thick. Walking on the road, the heavy snow has not passed the horse's hoof. The eldest brother walked with me on the way back to his hometown. The horse's hoof slipped and he could only move forward slowly. He kept talking about the changes in his family in the past seven years. This is also the first time I have found that my eldest brother is so talkative.
"Brother, do they... know that we will come back today?"
"Of course." The eldest brother replied, "I have already sent a letter to my family. Naturally, they know this. I guess they will be able to welcome you to the entrance of the village to pick you up."
"Is it..."
I suddenly looked forward to the countless fantasy pictures in my mind - you stood at the entrance of the village and looked at my return, and the expression on your face was a little happy, a little shy, and the softness that made you want to cry.
I don't know if I haven't seen you for so many years... Xinyi, what on earth do you look like? It must have become more beautiful than when I was a child, right?
Thinking of this, the corners of his mouth inadvertently bent, but immediately became a little nervous.
No.
It's so cold. What would you do if it was frozen? How can you stand outside on such a cold day? If you don't wear warm clothes, won't you get a cold?
Thinking of this, I quickly shook the reins, clamped the horse's abdomen, and urged the horse to move faster and walk towards the haunting scene.
The closer I got, the more my heart pounded. At this time, he was close to the village. In the distance, he seemed to see some people standing on the roadside at the entrance of the village, looking at the way home of himself and his eldest brother.
Xinyi......
The second brother is back...
Turn over and get off the horse and quickly run in the direction of everyone. Such a reunion is like what you have imagined in countless dreams. You stand at the entrance of the village and look at my figure, and then I can finally take out the wedding book and hold a lively wedding banquet to let everyone know that you, Zhuo Xinyi, is my wife. Zi.
I couldn't stop running a few steps before I came to everyone.
But.
My eyes swept over all their faces, but I didn't see the one I expected most.
The smile at the corners of his mouth froze on his face, and his mind suddenly went blank.
"Second brother." The familiar name made me turn my head and look at the girl. She is so similar to the face in my memory, but... it's just similar. Second brother, you are back."
"...hmm." He lowered his head, but didn't look at her: "Is it Peilan?"
She smiled shyly and said angrily, "I'm afraid that my second brother won't recognize me."
"How come." I said perfunctorily, but my heart seemed to be under heavy objects, and I couldn't breathe: "What about Xinyi?"
Peilan made an unnatural 'ah', then lowered her eyes and twisted her fingers to answer, "Sister, eldest sister... she went to the capital with her master."
"Master? Where did she come from, Master!?
"That's, that's Uncle Chongxuan..."
At this time, the mother came forward with a gloomy face, pulled my sleeve and said, "Don't mention her again, saying that she followed the master. I obviously saw a prince take her away that day. It's been half a year, and I haven't come back yet."
Brother? Who? Who is it!!
In an instant, my memory collapsed into pieces. I stared at the familiar street and the white snow on the mountains in the distance of Jizhou. After a moment of shaking, his heart was so depressed that he couldn't describe the pain.
Why?
Xinyi... You clearly said you would wait for me to come back.
Don't you count everything?
Peland said that you will probably come back during the Spring Festival. I think maybe all this is not as bad as I thought. Maybe it's really that Uncle Chongxuan took you away? Speaking of which, I have still seen him.
In this case, you will still come back. When you see me, will you still jump into my arms and call me 'second brother'?
But... I was wrong.
There is another young man standing beside you. When he saw me enter the door, he protected you first. I understand what this means, and I can even figure out how your relationship is.
When I saw you shrinking behind him and looking at my familiar and strange eyes, I just woke up. It turned out that all my hypotheses were just talking to myself.
Peilan said that after Aunt Zhuo's death, you kowtowed to the coffin and suffered from amnesia.
I lost my memory... so I can't remember anything. You can easily erase all the memories between us, including me. If you don't admit this, you can even deny my existence as your husband. And his eyes were full of that figure, paying attention to every slight change on his face, and even deliberately pleasing him...
Why did it become like this?
My Xinyi, the Xinyi who can only call the second brother and smile at me in my memory, why did he shrink behind others and look at other men with the loving eyes that looked at me back then?
Constered, shocked, followed by anger and unwillingness.
In the past seven years, I will not fall asleep with your smile, and one day... I will not live like a year.
I want to see you... I want to see you and I want to be crazy, but I never thought of you that I miss... Now it will be like this!
I really hope you are lying to me. You deliberately want to make me angry, then flashed out from behind him with a smile, obediently stretched out your arm at me, sank in my arms, and sweetly called 'Second Brother'.
But you don't.
You have been looking at me with frightened eyes, as if I were just a stranger to you.
...No.
No, you are mine.
From the beginning, it has not changed. You can only be mine... You can only belong to me! No matter who... can't break us apart anymore. I will remind you of all our previous past and remind you how attached you were to me back then.
No matter what method is used.
... Looking at your figure driving away, I made this decision silently.
Even if you say it's despicable or shameless... Xinyi, I won't let you go this time, never.