Chapter 37 The world is impermanent.
"Peace of mind..." An's mother shouted.
Seeing her mother looking at herself with a worried face, Anxin could only avoid her eyes and said, "It's really okay."
About Mu Junhao, she really doesn't want to mention it anymore. Let all take its course. If she can be a friend, just be a friend. If she can't do it, she doesn't want to force anything.
Seeing this, An's mother could only sigh silently. She couldn't do anything about it. As long as she didn't want to say it, no one would force her to say it. However, even if she didn't say it, An's mother knew it was because of Mu Junhao.
Because the peace of mind that day was obviously so happy to run out, but when she came back, she was heartbroken, so it was not difficult to guess that her strangeness during this period was because of him.
"What's wrong with you?" An's mother asked.
"No, we're fine." Who did you say this to? He thought with self-deprecating that their relationship had obviously broken down.
Then she smiled and said, "Don't think nonsense. I'm really fine. It's just that I'm under too much pressure recently." I don't want to say, because my heart hurts once without mentioning it, so I have to find an excuse to escape.
With a sigh, An's mother could only look at her helplessly.
And Anxin took out his notes and looked at it absent-mindedly to avoid his mother's questioning.
But the development of things was far from expected. I thought that the relationship between the two would continue like this, but...
It's still afternoon, but Mu Junhao is not in the classroom, but he is as quiet as before.
Isn't you used to it? With a smile, didn't you get used to being alone now? Can't you live a good life without him? Isn't this going back to the past? But... Why can't my eyes always help looking in his direction, just like now, staring at his empty seat, thinking about whether these self-comforting words have forgotten him or not? I know best, but also the most vague.
Whenever I am alone, I always have no choice but to find that my thoughts will run back to the old days. I don't think I've forgotten you at all. What I said and thought in my heart may be all lies.
However, I think time will be the best trauma medicine. No matter how deep the feelings are, the healing of this special medicine will gradually become thinner and fade over time, and after the college entrance examination, we may never see each other again. Maybe I will never forget you, but time will make me no longer feel heartbroken when I mention you. .
Smile and think at ease that everything will pass and gradually forget. It's just a matter of time.
She withdrew her sight, but suddenly found that the person she wanted to forget was standing at the door of the classroom.
The eyes met, and Mu Junhao's eyes were as cold as before, and the peace of mind looked at him calmly, but it was just a show that his heart was as painful as if it was about to break. It turns out that no matter how much you comfort yourself, once you appear, the scars that have been hard to heal are immediately as if they have been rediscovered, and the painful blood flows.
Slowly look away and can't look at each other, otherwise she is afraid that she will show her emotions that she should not show, and since she has become passers-by, there is no need to pester her anymore. Just break it completely.
However, Mu Junhao came to her step by step. Although he looked down at the book, his gradual approach made her start to panic.
Standing up from her seat, she couldn't share a separate space with him. She didn't know how he felt, but she felt that she was going to suffocate. If it goes on like this, all the defenses she has finally built will collapse.
However, at the moment when he passed by, Mu Junhao suddenly grabbed her hand, which made Anxin's heart begin to tremble, but he turned back.
"Are you true?" Mu Junhao looked sideways at her and asked.
When you blindly ask my heart, I don't know the answer, but when I give the answer, you don't believe it. Do you think it's funny? And you don't believe it and ask me what to do? Is there something wrong?
He broke away from Mu Junhao's hand and said at ease, "It doesn't matter anymore."
You are already in the arms of others, but you still ask me if what I once said is true. Is this still useful? Is there any difference between real and fake? We have nothing to do with it.
"Answer me!" Mu Junhao suddenly pulled his relieved shoulder at this time and let her face himself. I won't let her go.
Looking at the face in front of him that was always forcing himself, Anxin suddenly frowned in disgust and recalled their past. Almost as long as Anxin did not answer, Mu Junhao would force her to say the answer in various ways.
"Why do you always force me?" She said lightly.
You don't listen when I want to answer, and you keep asking when I don't want to answer. It feels really bad, you know? This feeling of not forcing is really annoying.
And her words made Mu Junhao's face suddenly change.
He slowly let go of his hand, and his face was full of sarcasm.
And his expression was also relieved and uncomfortable, but she made up her mind, so she said, "I have something to do, I'll go first!"
But at the moment when Anxin was about to turn around, Mu Junhao suddenly kissed without warning, so that what Anxin wanted to say was all submerged in his lips.
And his behavior suddenly made Anxin's eyes wide open. She really didn't expect him to do so.
And Mu Junhao held her tightly in his arms and kissed her lips fiercely, and even felt that his lips were about to be bleeding by the other party. And the pain also brought her back to her senses, and her face began to have a fever, and she kept struggling in Mu Junhao's arms.
"Wow!" As soon as he could speak, he was blocked in an instant.
This is a school, and students will come back to the classroom at any time. If they are hit by their classmates like this, it will be bad, so they will struggle with fear and peace of mind.
But Mu Junhao hugged her waist tightly with one hand and pressed her head fiercely with the other hand to press her towards himself, so that Anxin and he did not leave a gap, so it was useless to struggle with ease.
pushed Mu Junhao's shoulder hard, but he seemed to grow on Anxin's body. No matter how hard she tried, they were inseparable, and Anxin, who had resisted for a long time, gradually lost strength. Finally, he could only give up and let Mu Junhao kiss her.
I don't know how long it took until Mu Junhao seemed to feel satisfied that he slowly let go of his peace of mind. With his behavior, a silver wire was pulled out between them, which also made him embarrassed and relieved, and he didn't even dare to raise his head.
Because the kissing time was too long, their chests fluctuated violently, especially at ease. She never knew that a kiss would make her gasp like this, which also couldn't blame her. She only had two kissing experiences. The first time was Mu Junhao in the hospital. That was her first kiss, so she gave it to him, and the second time was This time, she didn't know how to breathe with her nose at all, and his domineering kiss made her unable to breathe at all.
However, she still doesn't understand why Mu Junhao kissed her. He was already with Feifei and why he still kissed himself.
And just as she was wondering, Mu Junhao suddenly held her tightly in his arms again.
"You..." She was so surprised that she couldn't speak, and she could only hang her hands like a puppet and be held in his arms.
"Whether what you say is true or not, I have taken it seriously, so don't leave me, I won't allow it! I won't allow it!" Mu Junhao made a domineering declaration and hugged the person in his arms. Do you know? During the period when you are not by my side, my heart is dying with pain. I miss you, miss you, miss you, my mind is full of your shadow, but you are not by my side, and you seem to be happier without me than before, and I am even more uncomfortable. I keep telling myself that I can live without you, so I leave You are far away and think that you can forget you if you can't see it, but in the end, I find that I am deceiving myself. I can't live without you. No matter how far away you are, your face always appears in front of me, because you have been engraved in my heart! The other day, I was so happy to hear you say that you liked me in the bar. I was so happy that I wanted to cry, but I was afraid, I was so afraid that all this was cheating, you know? When you're not here, I often think nonsense, because I always help you solve the money problem, so I'm afraid that you just like my money, so I pretend to care and pretend not to care. Mu Junhao said in a choked voice, "However, I'm really going crazy when I see you leave, so I don't care, even if I really cheated on me, even if I really like my money, I won't let it go. If I can only keep you with money, I will try my best to make money. No matter how much you want, I will give it to you. I just ask you not to leave me. I really can't live without you."
The hot tears burned her reassuring skin and made her cry like rain.
The more she liked it, the more scared she became. She thought she could understand that he was so scared.
Reaching out and hugging Mu Junhao, he said in a trembling voice, "It's not because of your money. I really like you. At first, I really didn't know what I wanted, but later I found that without you, I always felt empty in my heart. I can't leave you when you can't leave me. I stole your heart, so didn't you steal my heart?
I won't be wayward to explain to you. I will confess everything to you and reassure you, so don't be afraid. My Mu Junhao, don't love so carefully anymore. Only like a fool did I know how much harm my practice has caused to you who love me. Sorry, I should have told you earlier. I should have said everything earlier. Even if you ignored me, I should have explained it to you. Now I know that the more I care about this feeling, the more uneasy it will be.
"Don't say sorry!" Mu Junhao said, "Don't say sorry to me. Do you know how long your sorry in the canteen that day has made me sad? Your sorry is equivalent to denying my efforts! So, don't say this to me anymore, I hate it! I don't want to hear it again!" Mu Junhao looked up at this time and said, "Thus I like you and you won't leave me."
Looking at Mu Junhao, who is still uneasy even now, his tearful eyes and his uneasy eyes like a child really hurt her heart. She really regretted it very much. If time can flow back, she will definitely tell Mu Junhao her answer without hesitation at the beginning: "I If I like you, I won't leave you."
Tears were again out of the encirclement of his eyes, but he could only hold the person in his arms tightly and rub her into his body.