Chapter 6 Parting

The next morning, I walked to the station. My head hurts. I basically didn't sleep last night and couldn't sleep. My head was full of Yaer. I remembered many things in the past. At that moment, I understood what it means to be reluctant to leave..."

I saw a group of people around Yaer saying goodbye to her. Of course, there were some who retained her, but she smiled and shook her head and said nothing. It seemed that she was the same as usual. She didn't say much, and she was always just that shallow smile, which gave people a very cordial feeling and would never bring distance to others...

Seeing me, the faces around her have changed. Maybe they have heard about me and Yaer. I lowered my head and looked at the cement floor. I didn't know what to say, and I moved step by step. My outfit was very strange. At first glance, I knew that I was a ruffian, with my hands in my trouser pockets, shrugging my shoulders, and a cynical look.

Several bold girls pulled Yaer out of the crowd and pushed her in front of me. Then, Zhiqu walked a few steps away.

"Thank you for coming to see me off. I know you will definitely do what you promised me..." Yaer forced a smile.

"Well..." I was speechless in front of Yaer again. Will I definitely do what I promised her? So how many things have I promised her? How many pieces have I done?

"..." For a moment, the atmosphere was a little awkward, silent, always silent.

After a long time, Ya'er said, "I'm going to get in the car. Don't you have anything to tell me?"

In fact, I have something to say, and there seems to be a lot more, but at this moment, I asked coldly, "Where's that man? Why didn't he come to see you off?"

"Who? Which man?" Ya'er was a little surprised, but she seemed to realize something and stared at me with wide eyes.

I smiled dryly, thinking that Yaer was intentional, and took a breath: "The man I saw downstairs of your house that day. He hugged you. You looked very close. How long are you going to lie to me? Well, now I don't want to know anything. You go and get in the car..." After saying that, he turned around and walked away.

Yaer cried and stopped me: "Wind! You bastard! Come back! That's my cousin!"

My head suddenly exploded. "Boom..." She said it was her cousin? I stopped and turned around with difficulty: "You mean, that's you..."

Yaer rushed to me, hugged me tightly, and shouted in my ear, "Feng, you talk, you said you didn't want me to go, you said..." She lay on my shoulder and cried loudly, as if she was going to do her stomach full of grievances. Now she finally knows the reason why I broke up with her. It's just that both of them were stubborn at the beginning, and no one wanted to say so much...

I suddenly felt that my world was spinning, my head was suddenly empty, and my heart was full of a huge sense of guilt. I left just to be retained, but I felt that I couldn't say anything.

My silence made Yaer desperate again. A tear fell on my arm. I shivered all over my body and slowly raised my head. What I saw was Yaer's determined back, dragging her suitcase and boarding the car going south.

Through the car window, I can still see Yaer looking at me with resentful eyes, motionless, complaining about my cowardice and silence, but her slightly swollen eyes reflected in my eyes...

When the car's engine was lit, I suddenly raised my head and opened my mouth, saying what I wanted to say and shout, but I always felt that something was blocked in my mouth, and I could only make a "woo-woo" sound.

Suddenly I felt a drop of hot something slipping from the corners of my eyes. I knew it, and I cried. In a hurry, I wiped away the tears from my face and stared at the disappearing car. I didn't drag my heavy footsteps until I couldn't see the rear of the car.

Finally, I couldn't help it. I burst into tears and devoured my eyes ruthlessly. I was afraid that I would cry, so I strode and ran all the time. I didn't know where to run. I only knew that I wouldn't, and I didn't want to stop...

That night, I took out the bottle of lucky star she knitted herself from the box. This is the only thing she left me. Sitting in front of the window, by the moonlight, I looked at these colorful stars affectionately again. I remembered a lyric and whispered, "Yaer, you know gardenia. Is it? In fact, you are the gardenia..."

I hate my cowardice a little, and I am even more annoyed by my stubbornness at the beginning. My silence deeply stabbed the heart of a girl who loves me...

That night, I wrote a paragraph in Ya'er's diary: Ya'er left. In fact, I wanted to keep her, but I didn't say anything in the end. After she left, I seemed to have lost everything and nothing. I think I finally understood what love is, but everything came too late...

In front of the window at midnight, only cigarettes accompany my melancholy and lonely heart...

Yaer and I didn't seem to end here, but we didn't expect that the final ending would be like that...