135 Entangled

The author has something to say: The content of this chapter is very troublesome to write, just because the feelings are too strong. It was written by Sun Nan's "Salvation", which is very suitable for the artistic conception of this chapter.

Maybe it's because his image is not very attractive. He didn't like Sun Nan very much in the past, but after watching the same song in the latest issue, Sun Nan's live singing was so emotional, and the voice was so extraordinary that it was really amazing. I quickly searched for this song on the Internet, but found that the perfect album recording could not catch up with the touching performance of this live performance. If you have a chance, come and listen to it~~

I have to go out for a few days next week, and I won't be back until the weekend. I don't know if I can update it. I will try my best to find an opportunity to update it. If it doesn't work, please forgive me. ^_^ I was taken back to Changluxuan and locked on the bedpost again. The bed has been changed.

It's late at night, but I have no intention to continue the interrupted sleep. I sat on the carpet in front of the bed with my knees in my arms, and what appeared in front of me were those eyes full of hatred.

He hates me, which is the most unforgettable hatred I have ever seen.

I lost his heart, completely!

Haven't you always wanted to cut off love and escape? Why do you mind so much? Although people want to leave, their hearts have to stay? Is it in the bottom of my heart that I am afraid of losing my place in his heart?

What a contradictory and selfish person I am!

I lost his heart, completely!

I deeply reflected on what I had done in my heart, and this desperate and frightening idea swirled in my mind repeatedly.

I lost his heart and completely lost...

Yin Zhen finally came back. His face was slightly hako, and his eyes were also slightly □. He stared at me sitting helplessly on the carpet with sarcasm.

"Yo, who did Xiao Taoer show such a pitiful look to? The cousin you are looking forward to won't come to save you again tonight!"

"I didn't expect him to come again to save me!"

"So, are you looking forward to the fourth brother to save you?" This man is simply unreasonable!

"No!" I said immediately.

"So, is it the prince?" He shook his head and said, "I can't see that whether you are Liu Chuntao or Lin Qianer, you are quite attractive!" Our brother has been hooked by you several times. There is nothing more insulting than this!

"No, I've never seduced anyone, including the ninth master!" His words stung me, and my words were stiff.

"That's natural. How can you, Liu Chuntao, pay attention to me? Isn't the person in your heart your 'Cousin' Shang Yu? Didn't you escape with him and win for his life?

"No, the two of us are not what you think!"

"Shut up, I saw it with my own eyes. Don't lie to me anymore!" He forced himself to come forward, staring at me angrily, but said slowly, "He also cares about you too!" I set up a trap in the capital. I sealed all his houses and shops. I destroyed all his network. He dared to go to Beijing and sneak into my house to save you!"

I had known for a long time that Yin Zhen would not let Shang Yu go, but I didn't expect that after a few months in this house, so many things had happened outside. The two of them fought against each other countless times, but Yin Zhen didn't mention a word to me.

One is my favorite man, and the other is my most trusted partner and friend. The two men I care about most in the world are fighting for me. Is this what I want to see? Am I the legendary beauty disaster?

No, no, this is by no means the situation I want to see! I shook my head depressedly.

He looked at my expression and movements, and his face was colder. He sneered, "What's the matter, Tao's heartbroken? Are you afraid that I will hurt your lover? Humph, do you two wild mandarin ducks also plan to fall in love with each other, life and death? It's really touching! When I catch him and lock him up in this house, I will torture him every day, and let you see him every day. Will it be as you wish?

"No, don't!" I shouted.

He is the prince and the head of the Ministry of Criminal Justice. The state apparatus can be borrowed at will. It will be a matter of time to catch the business. I'm afraid it's better to die if Shang Yu falls into his hands.

He squatted down, picked up my chin with his hand, and said slowly but in a gentle tone, "What a loving couple, huh? Unfortunately, with me, a vicious person who is unforgiving and robs the strong women of the people, don't dream of getting married in the end! You, you, if you want to hate, just hate enough!"

His sensive and destructive tone not only made me afraid, but also made me faintly sad.

I shook my head and said, "That's not the case, I don't..." I won't hate you, never! I fled again and again, but I just didn't want to be imprisoned by you!

I want to tell him, but he won't let me finish." Just hate it enough! Don't let me go even if you hate to be a ghost! I will pester you all my life, whether love or hate! You will never get rid of it!" He approached me and snorted on my face.

He clenched one hand into a fist, and the other hand holding my chin also intensified. I was pinched by her and struggled to push his hand away. But he grabbed his wrist again. He grabbed so much that I cried out in pain.

He had caught me before, but he carefully controlled the force. Today, he did not restrain himself and used his strength to vent his anger to the fullest.

I'm so painful that I feel that the bone is about to break!

"You're crazy, let me go!" I screamed bitterly. The pain made me lose my mind and shouted regardless of the consequences: "Yes, in my heart, Shangyu is a unique existence. He is indeed much better than you!" He just accompanies me, but never restrains me; he just helps me, but never restricts me; he only appreciates me, but never wants to possess me. He won't hurt me. He is much better than you!"

As soon as I finished shouting, I immediately regretted it, because I provoked an angry lion.

He gritted his teeth, his eyes were about to crack, and his eyes were blood red, but his voice was as cold as if from the ice cellar. Oh? Is it? He is so good! Unfortunately, I will only imprison you, restrict you, possess you, and hurt you. The person who makes you so despised and so unbearable is your man. You have to accept your fate in your life!"

He grabbed my clothes and threw me to **. In the middle of the world, I haven't understood what's going on. I've been pressed by him.

His face was distorted, and the expression on his face was very horrible. I was afraid and struggled to refuse, shouting "No". But he turned a deaf ear and grabbed my arms without pity, pressed them on my head, and tore my clothes with the other hand at the same time.

The buckle of my coat was pulled open by him, and the strap of my belly pocket was also torn off by him. The delicate body ** came out, and I felt a chill in an instant. My body trembled, like the last shivering dead leaf on the tree in the autumn wind. But it's not because of the cold, but because of fear.

He didn't notice my trembling, maybe he ignored it at all. He grabbed my weak neck with one hand and reached out to me with the other. His lips fell on my lips, but it was not a gentle kiss that I was familiar with, but a hard bite.

I was in pain and shouted, but he blocked my voice in my mouth. The strength of his men is very heavy. My neck is about to be broken by him, and my **□ is also pinched by him.

My heart hurts, I'm afraid, my heart is crying, but I can't struggle, and I can't cry.

I tried my best to endure, but I couldn't help bursting into tears.

He hates me!

He hates me very much! Hate to the extreme!

Usually full of love, it is a way to vent hatred at this time. There is no tenderness, no pity, only possession and torture. He humiliated me and hurt me in this way, so that I could suffer and embarrass me, and let me know who is the master, who is my man, and who has the final say!

He is punishing me and other people's "concubine" and "life and death" in this way!

When and when did the two of us get to this point? I closed my eyes and let tears gushes out.

In my unconscious mind, fragments of the past with Yin Zhen are constantly flashing, especially the previous scene in **. The first time I was kicked out of bed, the second time I was kicked back, the third time I was spanked, and the fourth time I was drunk, leaving countless marks on him, the fifth, sixth, the seventh time..., the last time before escaping, my attachment and obsession...

Looking at the crazy raging on me at this time, I asked myself over and over again: When did we get to this point?

The dry and stiff body could not bear his strength. I snorted and burst into tears.

The pain began to numb, and I felt dull. My body was so weak that I didn't have any strength. I no longer struggle or shout, I just clenched my lips tightly and let him do whatever he wanted on me...

I don't know when I went to bed, but I was out of my mind later. I don't know who I am, whether it is Lu Mintao or Liu Chuntao, I don't know where I am, whether it is in modern or ancient times, I don't know who the man who is ravaged me, how long it will take, and when it will be the end...

I'm like a doll at the mercy of others, at the mercy of others**...

......

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I opened my eyes, and there was no one beside me. The big bed doesn't seem to be the same as before, and my brain is still chaotic.

The sun is dazzling, and it seems that it has arrived in the afternoon. I stretched out my hand to block the sunlight shining on my eyes, but I found that my arm was sore that I couldn't lift it at all. A circle of black blue on my wrist reminded me of the source of the pain. I put down my hand dejectedly and wanted to turn over, but I suddenly felt uncomfortable all over. My waist is sore, my thighs are sore, and it hurts at the touch of many places.

It seems that the injury is not serious. I closed my eyes again, and the memory of yesterday poured into my mind like a tide. Despite the unwillingness, the memory is still a little clearer: last night, I was raped and raped by the man I loved without pity!!

The fact is so ridiculous that I closed my eyes and laughed silently. I trembled with laughter and burst into tears.

I, Lu Mintao, unexpectedly, was □ by someone! He is still the one who is loved by himself!

The man I love hates me. He punished my "infidelity" in this way. He hurt me to let me know that he was my master and my man.

How funny and ridiculous!

I laughed for a long time, so long that I couldn't feel the passage of time, so long that I lost myself unconsciously.

Yin Zhen has never come back.

These days, when I wake up, I'm in a daze and laugh. I'm stunned enough, and I'm going to sleep after laughing enough. It seems that there are only these two things left in my life. I didn't say a word. I no longer care about the sunrise and sunset, no longer pay attention to the filth on my body, and no longer care about the hunger in my stomach. The reincarnation of the sun and the moon is completely meaningless to me.

Xiaolu and Xiaocui came to serve me. I turned a blind eye, but I didn't resist. I let them clean and apply medicine for me. The blue and purple all over my body and the scars on my lips are always reminding me of what has happened. I don't want to look at it, and I don't even dare to look in the mirror. Mobile phone reading 1 6 xs. c m) When Xiao Cui helped me comb my freshly washed hair that day, I inadvertently caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. The woman inside was pale and blind, like a walking corpse who had lost her soul, and the blue and purple and tooth marks on the corners of her lips were so shocking.

I took back my sight in escape, and since then I have never dared to look in the mirror again.

I eat very little these days. No matter what Xiaolu and Xiaocui brought, even my favorite dishes made with fresh mushrooms and green tea snacks, I just ate two bites and stopped. How can a walking dead have an appetite?

Although I am almost self-abuse to myself, my body is still slowly recovering, and the wounds on my body are fading. The blue and purple on the corners of his lips is no longer so obvious, but his face is still pale.

Yin Zhen, who had not seen him for a few days, suddenly appeared.

As soon as he came back and saw me for the first time, there was a moment of surprise and anger, and then he looked away as if nothing had happened.

Xiaolu and Xiaocui wanted to wait for him to change his clothes, clean face and clean hands, but he dodged without saying a word, and then looked at me with his eyes.

I walked forward silently, put my hand on his body, and helped him unbutton his court uniform one by one.

I respectfully held the hat, took Chaozhu with both hands, and helped him change into casual clothes. Mechanically do the actions that have been done some time ago.

I handed him the clean hot handkerchief, took back the used clean handkerchief, and then handed him the clean cold handkerchief.

Burn incense, make tea, and serve tea cups...

I didn't say a word or look at him. It's just doing the work in the hands one by one.

Since he hurt me without pity, I will no longer deceive myself into thinking that I still have a special position in his mind. I'm just one of his slaves, just like Xiaolu and Xiaocui. No, I'm not even as good as them. Although they are only insignificant servants in Yin Zhen's heart, at least he doesn't hate them. And I, Yin Zhen, I'm afraid of hatred, anger, resentment and indignation to me, all of them!

What about how I feel about him?

I don't know. It's complicated.

Do you have love? There used to be. So what about now? What happened after that night? I'm not sure I still have love for him. All I know is that I don't want to see him now, and I don't want to say a word to him.

Do you have any hatred? I think so. After being treated so roughly by the man they love, few women will have no hatred at all, right?

Do you have any complaints? My heart was hollowed out and my body was hurt. How could there be no resentment at all? Moreover, resentment and hate always go hand in hand, don't they?

I lowered my head, held the teacup in my hand, bent my knees slightly, and stood silently in front of him, waiting for him to take the teacup.

He didn't move for a long time.

My calf began to feel numb, and it was very difficult for my hand to maintain the action of holding the teacup for a long time. The wound on my wrist has not been completely healed. After a long time, it is faintly painful. The wrist began to shake a little, and the teacup and the teacup trembled with a slight bump.

I couldn't hold it anymore, so I stretched out my arm to maintain the action of lifting the teacup. The sleeve slid from the wrist to the elbow, revealing the marks I had been carefully hiding. After these days, the scars on the wrist gradually faded, but the purple became darker. A large area of blue and purple on it is still so eye-catching.

My body is shaky.

I knew I couldn't support it right away, but I still stood there silently without saying a word.

I just don't want to speak.

Just when I thought he would never pick up the teacup, he took it. I was relieved. I was about to retreat silently, but I saw him raise the teacup and hit the wall fiercely. With a bang, the teacup was smashed, and the tea inside splashed all the way to the wall, and finally left a large flower-shaped tea mark on the snow-white wall.

That's a blooming peony. Its blooming anger is so bright and clear that people dare not even face it.