Chapter 46 Out of the Heart

Ying and Mu Xin tried their best to make me happy, but Jun Yu never appeared again. I think I don't know how to continue my life except for Jun Yu's saying to forgive me. When did he become so important in my heart? When did I care so much about his thoughts? When did I even want to hurt myself in order to follow him?

I fall asleep and tired. This is the life I live now. I don't dress up. No one is seen. How sad I am, how decadent I am. Ah Zheng came to see me once. He said that Xiao Mufeng was very good and reassured me.

I think the little guy will be fine, because he is not my child. If it were my child, what would Junyu do? Will you like him as much as Xiao Mufeng? Calculate that Shen Weijun will get married in more than 20 days. Will he bully the child at that time? I really can't imagine that she will attack her child without knowing.

If she hates me so much, will she be as afraid of being innocent? After all, I still don't know Shen Weijun, but I know she must be fierce, because she grew up in the palace.

Xiaoyu came on the tenth day of my quarrel with Jun Yu, bringing the bright red flowers I have longed for but never seen before. That was the first time I saw the flowers on the other side. There was a big bright and bold red color. There was only one flower in the whole flower. The whole world was lonely and proud. There was only bright loneliness in its world, leading to the end of the road to death.

It is said that this flower grows on the other side of the bridge, and the dead soul will leave the memories of the past on the other side of the bridge, and the flower on the other side will change from white to blood red, because it carries the happiness and pain of that person's life.

And the one I hold has been stained with the previous life of someone, so it can no longer bear any pain and happiness of me. I can only hold it in my hand and quietly appreciate its beauty, and then watch it slowly wither in my hand. Xiaoyu said that if the flowers have withered, that person's life will no longer exist in this world. There will be no painful fetters in his previous life. That person's life will be a new beginning, and there will be new opportunities, as well as new happiness and pain.

I looked up at him in a daze, hoping to get another inspiration from his sentence. But what he told me was very straightforward, but I stubbornly thought I didn't understand.

He put his shoulder on my shoulder and said, "Little future, you only have him in your heart, and no one can listen to anything, so the flowers on the other side can only bloom on the other side. This is your choice."

I looked at him in amazed. I don't know what this means. What does it mean that flowers can only bloom on the other shore? What was in my hand? He took the withered flowers in his hand and threw them on the ground and stepped on them. He looked at me faintly and said, "It's dead and dissipated. Therefore, you can still bear everything by yourself, and you have to go on the road you choose, no matter how difficult it is.

Yes! This is the way I chose, because at that time, I didn't know how Junyou would torture me, but I was scared when I thought of that possibility. As soon as I was afraid, I instinctively wanted him to stop hurting, but I clearly knew that I couldn't avoid it, so I could only follow his meaning and induce him to use another method. I thought it would be much lighter. In fact, I underestimated my love for him, dependence and belief in him.

I have been getting along with each other for more than a year, which is not long but not short. Since the fate of him and I met in front of the gorgeous building in Kunlun Mountain, the wheel has turned. Whether the growth is short or not, it is doomed to have a lifelong bond. Perhaps, the fate that has been doomed since a long time ago, will persist no matter what the outcome, although the road is full of thorns, even though we are all hedgehogs...

Xiaoyu glanced at me in a daze. I went to the bedside and picked up Xiaobai from ** and shouted, "What on earth do you want?" That's a rare severity in front of me, and his cold eyes are no different from Jun Yu's.

Xiaobai looked at him blankly, and I found that Xiaobai had lost a lot of weight these days, and his whole fur seemed to be falling off. Only then did I remember that I have been living alone these days, and Xiaobai is the only one. Isn't it lonely? In addition, I only care about my sadness. I don't even know whether it has eaten or not. I have lost so much weight, but I still blame it.

I stumbled over and hugged it. My little white eyes lit up, like a wisp of warm sunshine in winter, but it immediately faded. I held it in front of my eyes and kissed: "I don't blame you. You're not wrong. It's our identity."

Xiao Bai stared at me with wide eyes, as if to ask if I really don't blame it? I held it in my arms and couldn't stop crying: "No, I only have you here. How can I blame you?" How can you give up! If it weren't for Wu, you wouldn't have betrayed me or made me sad! Isn't it? Otherwise, I won't be hungry, sad and suffer together with me. How can I be willing to give up? How can you give up?

Xiaobai blinked his eyes, and tears fell down. I also hugged Xiaobai and sobbed softly. Xiaoyu reached out and touched my head, sighed and turned away. At this time, the knot is in my heart, and only Jun Yu can be untied.

But Junyu should be busy holding Shen Weijun's wedding these days. I'm just an abandoned son. For him, he has lost its use value, so it is not worth paying attention to.

I thought that I was imprisoned in the Peony Garden all my life. Even if he ascended the throne, I was just a concubine abandoned in the Six Kings' Mansion in the past, so no one would care whether I lived in this world or not.

My love is like a mountain on Junyu. When the time is short, he will regard it as another emotional experience; but as time goes by, it is a burden that can crush people. Therefore, because it is an indestructible mountain, it is not worth paying attention to, because it looks like it will never fall, so it is not worth being cared about...

The moment I finally closed my eyes and lost consciousness, I saw a pair of worried eyes. Those eyes are familiar to me and strange that I have never seen before. I think I must care about this person, because my heart seemed to jump out of my throat at that moment, fluttering so fast.

At that time, it was already a month later. It seemed that day when Shen Weijun married into the Six Palace, and I sat on the swing and gently rippled, listening to the gongs and drums in the whole palace, celebrating that Junyu married another side concubine. This side concubine was also the only daughter of the Shen Taifu family. Marrying Shen Weijun is to get Shen Tai. Fu's support. Getting the support of Shen Taifu is equivalent to holding half of the country firmly in his hand.

At that time, what was funny was my innocence. I always thought that Junyu would not marry her if he didn't like Shen Weijun. Now I think it's just that Shen Weijun lost his mind for love, and maybe Junyou may use other ways to imply Shen Weijun, because only if Shen Weijun himself can't control it, Junyu can be upright. Brightly got Shen Weijun and the support of Shen Taifu.

I think Junyou is worthy of being Junyou. He was born to be emperor. He has buried this bait for many years. He is quite confident. He is confident that Shen Weijun will be rational in order to love him, just like me. Junyu doesn't like me, but he still wants to marry me in order to stabilize the future throne. This is the same. He is Junyou and pays enough money for the girl he has never met. I don't care about being a complete despicable villain in front of other girls. I just want to be a decent man in front of that girl.

I just didn't grasp the rope when I was swinging, and at that time, my mind was already far away. If I can't return to the State of Wu, let me fly to the high wall and take a look at the thousands of miles of rivers and mountains, or the State of Wu thousands of miles away. But when I flew out, I fell to the ground and fell forward fiercely. For a moment, I only felt that my internal organs had moved, as if I had lost my life.

But my life is really like Xiaoqiang, and I died immediately, and it seems that I saw Junyou before I fell into a coma. I think how much I should love him. Before I die, the last thing I thought was not that my father was not the eldest brother, the second brother, or Xiaobai, but the Junxuan I should hate.

I reached out and touched his face and cried: "I didn't expect to see you before I died. God really favored me. But father, Xiaobai... I miss you so much, I'm so tired..."

He shouted in my ear, "Don't sleep, don't sleep." Fluttering in my ear, I can't hear what he is saying, as if he won't let me sleep, but I'm really tired. Thinking that my love is so hard and humble, I have to hurt myself in circles, just like scraping the meat on my body with a blade, just because I want to follow him, just because I don't want his image to be worse in my heart.

"I just want to sleep and forget the past when I wake up. How nice!" I think this is a gorgeous, painful and sad dream. If you are destined to meet Junyu, please let me meet Xiaoyu first, so that I may be captured by his charming appearance. How happy and pleasant it would be to live with him in the valley full of flowers on the other side?

Or I was still on Kunlun Mountain and didn't sneak back, so there would be no later marriage... People's loneliness is really terrible, and I just left because I was too lonely on Kunlun Mountain.

But when I was woken up by a noise, I had to accept the reality, because I heard a whimper, like the last sad cry of Wanshang, I couldn't cry by myself.

I opened my eyes tiredly, and Xiaobai's yellow hair was curled together, and there was no way to look cute in the past. Jun Yu lay by the bed with his eyes closed, as if he was sleeping, but his eyebrows were still entangled. Except when he was laughing, his eyebrows had not really relaxed.

I think I must be dreaming. Although he is still in his own room, he may not be true. Because I have abandoned my son and have been abandoned by him. With the support of Shen Taifu, Wu Guo is not so important.