Extra Zhao Cheng 1

Why on earth was I born? I don't know who my parents are. Even if I know that they must be in this world, why do they throw me alone in this small yard, restricting my freedom, and only a group of unsmiling big men in black who take care of me.

I have no one to talk to, and I don't know who to laugh at. I'm very confused and afraid. Who in the world can I rely on?

Even if I want to please, I don't know who my partner is! I think it is forgotten by the world, and only the endless darkness and loneliness accompany me.

I'm just a child who yearns to run in the sun.

My favorite thing is the shadow. Only it speaks with me and will never betray me.

I will be thinking, what kind of people are my parents? Why don't they want me? Why do you never come to see me?

I want to see them, but I'm not sure that I can't forgive them.

Maybe it's been depressing for too long. I just want to escape and go to a place with sunshine and laughter.

I did escape.

I escaped from the cold yard and went to the street. I saw a lot of people and heard a lot of laughter.

But I think things are too simple. I don't have money, I don't know anyone, I'm hungry, I don't know anything about the world, and no one has taught me. I need money to buy things. I just took a peddler's steamed bun. The peddler regarded me as a thief and took my hand to see the official. I didn't know what to do.

At this time, a child with ragged clothes gave me money for steamed buns. He looked at me and said, "Are you separated from your family?"

I shook my head.

"Run away from home?"

I shook my head and nodded again.

He looked at me with a smile, and his smile made me jealous. He told me that he could take care of me for the time being until I figured out that I was willing to go home. I didn't think I would go back to that place again.

But before I had time to enjoy my new life, they found me. They are going to kill Nan'er, but I won't let him. I said, if he dies, I will kill you one day.

I don't know why I said that, but it's so natural. For the first time, there were cracks on the faces of the people in black who had always been serious. They looked at each other, but in the end they still did not hurt Nan'er. This was the first time I protected a person.

After going back, those people in black had a better attitude towards me. They seemed to be a little afraid of me. Am I terrible?

That night, a man came to see me. He said he was his father. I have imagined what my parents would be like countless times. Obviously, he is more majestic and handsome than I want, but it is a little different from what I think, that is, there is no intimacy as I think.

He said that he was going to take me back to see my mother.

In fact, I really want to ask him why he came to see me now, but I didn't dare. I was afraid of him. There was no emotion in his eyes when he looked at me.

I didn't expect that the mother I imagined was just a cold corpse.

I think I should cry, but I really can't cry. The woman lying in the coffin is really just a stranger to me.

A beautiful aunt said that she would take care of me in the future.

I didn't expect that my identity was a prince, so why did my father send me out of the palace? I haven't asked anyone. I know no one will tell me. I can only find the answer I want by myself.

I have a brother who is younger than me, but he likes to laugh very much. I think he must have received a lot of favor, but why didn't I get anything? All I get is darkness and coldness.

I think I'm still a child who is eager to be loved, but my father only has my brother in his eyes. His eyes are only cold when he looks at me, but when he looks at my brother, there is a warm light floating, and the woman who says she wants to take care of me, although she doesn't She smiled stingly at me, but I can clearly feel that she treats me differently from my brother. My sister, her eyes looking at me are always full of vigilance and disdain, but when she looks at my brother, she has a smile and warmth on her face.

If I live in that small yard forever, I don't think there will be so much jealousy and hatred in my heart.

What does life bring me?

Why is it the same father's child, and why do I get different treatment?

Why on earth did my mother die? If my mother is still in the world, maybe I can still get a trace of warmth in my life.

My brother, this child was born on the same day as me. He treats me very well. It can be said that I don't know what's good or wrong, but I just think in my heart that he is good to me, it's just a charity. But no matter how resentful and depressed my heart is, on the surface, I still have to pretend to be lively and simple.

One day, I wandered around the Zijin Palace boredly and inadvertently walked to the cold palace. There was a very beautiful woman in it. She said that she knew my background.

It turns out that I have such a background. It turns out that I was born to protect another person. Why? Why? Even my mother died because of that person.

I hate it, why is all this?

The woman told me that she could help me, and she saw through the darkness in my heart.

I cooperated with the woman. First, I used the smoke she gave me to stun the shadow that had always been good to me, and then deceived each one in front of the woman.

Who will Jinfei save us? One is her son, and the other is the son of a woman who died for her son.

Concubine Jin, she chose to save me first. I saw the disbelief and injury in my brother's eyes in Concubine Jin's arms. I looked at him provocatively and felt a pleasure of revenge.

At the end of the matter, Jinfei still did not save her brother, and her brother was still killed. Looking at his cold body, I wondered, is this what I want?

Is it that if he dies, I can get everything I deserve? I never regret my decision.

But in fact, I don't get everything I want. I understand that what I want is not the position of prince, but the warmth I have never had before.

Jinfei is very sad because of her brother's death, but I don't want her to really die. Because of this woman's relationship, my father will love me more. But there is pain in my father's eyes. I want to replace my brother in his heart. I just hope that there will be a trace of warmth when he looks at me.

But no, I didn't get anything.

There is only coldness and darkness that belong to me, which has never changed.

I'm afraid to see Dan Hui's eyes. Every time her clear eyes look at me, I have the illusion that she has seen through me.

She didn't call my brother. She deliberately avoided me every time she saw me. Did she know anything?

But Concubine Jin is going to leave. He is the lubricant between me and my father. As long as she is there, even if someone knows the truth one day, my father will not kill me. But when she left, I can't keep her, but I still have to leave people related to her. I left a shadow to take care of me. At least, my father is watching. When you are a shadow, you should think of Jinfei.

Shuying doesn't know the truth. If she knows that I killed my brother, will she want to kill me?

I became the only son of my father, a well-named prince. No one thought that an abandoned and neglected prince would become the future king of Daxiang.

And because my father has an agreement with the eldest princess, I am engaged to the daughter of the eldest princess. I don't like this spoiled girl at all, but I still have to pretend to like it very much, just because she can bring my support to the eldest princess.

However, life is not without any hope. My father gave me a companion, and it turned out to be Nan'er, a child who once gave me warmth.