Chapter 40 Deep mountains and clouds, lovesickness has nowhere to return

Chapter 40 Deep mountains and clouds, lovesickness has nowhere to return (Part 1)

I went up the mountain early the next morning. Long live this morning, they will leave for Beijing. I'm going to go to the temple to smell incense. I can't see the Empress Dowager off.

The sun came out today, and there were fewer clouds and fog in the mountains. Halfway through, I sweated a lot.

I wanted to stop and rest, but I looked at A Xing. He was still standing in his seat the day before yesterday, or in a thin dark blue satin, or with his back to me and looking at the bottom of the mountain.

Without the mist, I looked at his back carefully. This is the last time I can look at his back like this.

He turned around, did not walk away, did not have indifference, and even burst into tears like me. This is the first time I saw his tears and the last time. I still remember that he moved his lips silently, as if he was saying something, but there is nothing else for us to say. He has become a husband, and I will be a woman.

Later, I recalled that it seemed that we didn't talk anymore until he was going to the battlefield.

I walked over step by step, and my feet seemed to weigh a thousand pounds, because I knew what I was going to do. I took off the jade tied to his neck and gave it to him.

"If you don't want to keep it, just throw it away. Who else can I give it to?" He looked at the jade in my hand for a long time, then left a sentence and went down the mountain.

Who else can I give it to? His words have been circulating in my ears. A Xing, I am satisfied that I can be the only one for you in my life.

When I arrived at the temple, I saw the fifteenth master. He stood by the incense burner and smiled at me, as if he were waiting for me.

I concealed my mood just now and saluted, "Fifteenth Master, please tell me something."

"I didn't see you treat me as a brother before, but now you are outside," said the fifteenth master. "It's okay. I thought you would go up the mountain. I just want to see you. I'm leaving today."

How not to ask me to see you? In the past, you were the person I admired. Naturally, you wanted to get close and talk to you casually. Now that I have been married by the Long Live Lord, how can I talk and laugh with you and play chess with you without a trace of distractions?

"Well, I won't embarrass you. You'd better get used to it next time I come to see you." The fifteenth master said.

Next time you come to see me, I can't laugh or cry. Is this person still the fifteenth master I know? Looking at his back down the mountain, it was so light again. I told myself that I had misheard it.

"It's all gone, and I'm still looking at it. I'm not afraid of falling out." The tenth master suddenly came out from the side.

"Master Ten, you will die like this." I covered my chest and said.

"How can you talk nonsense? This word can also be nonsense." The tenth master scolded seriously, and then seemed to think of something, " By the way, I want to support the fourteenth brother and won't talk to you."

"The tenth master wronged the slaves so much. Can the slaves be blamed for what happened last night?" I said, "Master Ten is also a sensible person. He doesn't want me as a friend like this."

"What happened last night was indeed arranged by Empress Defei too suddenly, and A Xing couldn't help it." The tenth master said, "Mu Nian, you can blame him."

I looked down the mountain and said, "He is as helpless as me. No one is wrong. Why should I blame him because he was born in the emperor's family?"

The tenth master seemed to feel the same way. He sighed and didn't say anything more.

I laughed and said, "Is it so touching that the tenth master is leaving? I don't care. The tenth master just doesn't want me as a friend, and I rely on it. If the tenth master ignores me, I will go to Shumo to complain.

"Okay, okay, are you strong? If you have something to say," the tenth master shook his hand and said, "There is still a large group of people waiting at the foot of the mountain. Let's say goodbye and wait for you in the capital."

Wait for the tenth master to disappear on the curved stone steps, my smile was stiff on my face, took off the fake mask, walked into the temple, and knelt in front of the Buddha and recited the scriptures.

"I haven't talked to you these days. I'm leaving today. I'll talk to you."

Their brothers had a tacit understanding and said goodbye one after another. I got up and smiled and said, "Mu Nian hasn't congratulated the thirteenth master yet. Congratulations to the thirteenth master on getting a little brother."

"If only you weren't too sad. I was worried that you couldn't stand it last night." The thirteenth master didn't seem to be ready to fight with me and went straight to the topic, "You wrote to ask the fourth brother not to be too enthusiastic about the court in front of Emperor Ama, to show leisure and filial piety, and let him to be dormant like Goujian, implying that he will definitely complete the great cause. Although I have been with the fourth brother for many years, I am not so sure. How can you believe in the fourth brother so much?

I didn't talk, just like I can't explain to Concubine De, I can't explain to A Xing, and I can't explain to the Thirteenth Master that I believe in the Fourth Master so much, just because I believe that history is history and there is no way to change.

"I know that you still have a fourth brother in your heart, and he also has you in his heart. I was happy after reading your letter for several days, thinking that you finally understood the fourth brother's heart, but now that Huang Ama has married again, I don't know how to tell the fourth brother. The thirteenth master sighed and said, "The fourth brother was originally depressed and angry at the corruption of the imperial system and officials. However, he wrote several times, but no one paid attention to him. Empress Defei only loves her fourteenth brother. Now it's not easy for you to make him happy, and this happened again.

"13th Master, everyone is like this. As long as you live, it won't go well. Only cherish the present. Mu Nian is thinking about his aunt now. I don't know what they think. Every move of mine seems to be misunderstood as being a heart for the fourth master in their eyes. I really don't want to say anything more.

"Treasure the eyes in front of you, you say it very well." The thirteenth master said, "I will take good care of her. Don't worry about her. It's getting late. It's time for me to go.

I saluted. When I raised my head, the thirteenth master had gone far away, and I knelt on the futon and read the unfinished scriptures.

The bells of the temple rang, and the heavy bells echoed in the mountains. After the hour, they set out.

After reading the scriptures, I knelt in front of the Buddha: "Buddha's mercy, I have given up and only ask him to be safe."

I held the jade stone with my hands together: "Buddha is merciful, I have given up and only ask him to be safe."

After the ancient bell rang three times, the bell stopped, and I read it for the last time: "Buddha's mercy, I have given up and only ask him to be safe."

In this way, life in Wutai Mountain has returned to peace. I am glad that the Empress Dowager has never said anything about going back to Beijing. Five years have passed in a hurry, and I have not worried about my marriage with the fifteenth master.

Follow the empress dowager to eat fast and recite the Buddha every day, recite the scriptures for A Xing, ask the Buddha to bless him, or indulge in thinking about him on a full moon night. Enjoying this hard-won peace, I get used to this kind of life. I am not a person who knows how to feel at ease. These days, I feel uneasy every day, and I always feel that such a comfortable life will be broken one day.

On October 8, 1954, I went to wake the Empress Dowager up in the morning, but no one agreed. I hurriedly opened the bed account and found that the Empress Dowager had a fever and could no longer hear me speak.

"Xiu silk, Xiu silk, come in quickly." These days, the empress dowager was not very energetic. I called the doctor. The doctor only said that he was a little cold and prescribed medicine. I personally boiled the medicine for the empress dowager every day as ordered. How could it be like this?

"Sister, what's wrong?" Xiu silk ran in in a hurry.

"The Empress Dowager is very burned. Go and call the doctor in the manor, and then ask Brother Wu to go to the town and invite two good doctors."

Maybe my posture scared Xiujuan, and she stayed there motionless.

"Why don't you go?" I said.

"Oh, sister, don't worry, I'm going." Xiu silk just ran out.

I put down the curtain at the door, brought hot water to wipe the Empress Dowager's sweat, and twisted the cold veil and applied it to the Empress Dowager's forehead.

Xiu silk brought Dr. Hu from the manor, took the pulse for the empress dowager, looked at the empress dowager's look and shook her head.

"How's it going, doctor?" I watched the doctor shake his head and my heart trembled.

"I just suffered a little cold a few days ago. I prescribed medicine and took it. It should have been better. Why is it so serious today?"

"I served the Empress Dowager according to the doctor's instructions. The doctor doesn't know why he is now." I hurriedly said that this quack asked me in turn.

"Sister, didn't the Empress Dowager get up last night and caught a cold?" The silk road standing aside.

"Why don't I know when the Empress Dowager got up last night?"

"Last night was a slave vigil. The Empress Dowager got up in the middle of the night and said that she had a nightmare and didn't want to read the scriptures. I have been persuaded for a long time, but the Empress Dowager didn't listen. Xiu silk said in a hurry.

"Why don't you call me? The Empress Dowager is not in good health these days, and you still let her."

"My sister is also not feeling well these days. I finally took the medicine and went to bed early last night, so I didn't want to disturb my sister," Xiu silk said and almost cried. "I have lit the stove and wrapped the empress dowager in a fox robe, but I didn't expect..."

Wu Jing brought two doctors in, both of which were gasping. In such a short time, you can imagine how fast Wu Jing drove a horse.

I asked the two doctors to give the empress dowager one by one, and they both shook their heads. One of the doctors in white and looked young said, "Such a high fever is nothing for young people, but the Empress Dowager is old and I don't know if she can stand it. I can only drink the medicine according to the prescription and take good care of it. The Empress Dowager can survive these two days.

Subconsciously, I felt that the young doctor was not very reliable. I looked at another bearded doctor beside him. When the doctor saw me looking at him, he bowed to the doctor in white just now: "Doctor Ouyang actually became a ghost doctor Zhang Daofu, and I have nothing to say."

I have never heard of any ghost doctor, but the elderly doctor agrees with him, so now he has to follow his prescription first.

"It turned out to be Mr. Ouyang. I have been looking forward to him for a long time." Dr. Hu of the manor also came forward to make a bow to Dr. Ouyang, "I'm really lucky to discuss medical skills with Mr. Ouyang today."

"In this case, please ask the two doctors to stay at the manor for the time being. I will thank you again when the Empress Dowager is ready." I also ordered Xiu silk to prepare two rooms.

"Girl, don't have to," Dr. Ouyang wrote me a recipe and said, "according to my recipe, you can take it sooner or later. Whether it's good or not depends on the creation. I'm useless here, and I have something else to do.

I saluted and said, "D. Ouyang, the empress dowager is like a grandmother in the evening. Such a sick person's heart is like a knife. Please stay. If there is a doctor who has changed, it is easy to observe."

"There are patients here, and there are patients elsewhere. Besides, our prescription has been written, so there is no need to waste time here." He put the recipe on the table and walked out of the door.

"Brother Wu." When I called, Wu Jing was blocked at the door.

"D. Ouyang, it's really offensive, but the Empress Dowager hasn't woken up yet. I can't let you go like this."

He stared at me and smiled, "Do you think you can keep me?"

"There are a total of 13 guards in this manor. Dr. Ouyang can't help but feel weak. I advise the doctor to carefully cure the Empress Dowager's illness, so that he doesn't have to hurt the bones." I said.

"Haha, I can't help but feel weak. The girl has good eyesight and is interesting. I'll stay." The man smiled brightly against the door. If the Empress Dowager hadn't been ill, I would have wanted to beat him.

"Xiu silk, take three doctors down."

When they left, I asked Wu Jing, "Where was this Dr. Ouyang invited?"

"I drove out. He happened to go down the town from the mountain and asked me to take him for a while, so I agreed." Wu Jing said, "I found Dr. Zhang in the town. I wanted to find a doctor. He said that he was a magic doctor and asked me to take him back, so I had to bring him here."

"Ye, I know. Brother Wu, go down and rest first."

On this day, I have been changing the veil beside the Empress Dowager. Xiu silk boiled medicine and finally fed a bowl to the Empress Dowager to drink, but half of the bowl was spilled.

Late at night, I wrote a letter to report the Empress Dowager's illness. There are some things that I don't want to face and dare not face, but in the end, I have to face them. Escape is always the most self-deceiving method.