Chapter 187 Pursuit and Persistence

As a boy growing up in the desert, such a meal has never appeared in my dream.

"Don't look at me like that. I'm too embarrassed to eat." The girl's voice interrupted my thoughts.

Only then did I realize that the girls around me do not allow me to think as often as usual. This kind of thinking represents honor and the most diligent study of learning in the new city, but in front of girls, this may represent disrespect and impoliteness.

"Oh, oh. I... I just suddenly thought of something, so... I'm a little distracted." I explained in a hurry.

The girl holds a knife in her hand, which looks silver. But when I looked at the food just now, it seemed that there was no such tableware, but if you eat roast lamb legs, it seems that you do need a knife. Yes, it should be on the plate of the pancake, but the cake on the plate covered the knife. This knife is also extremely exquisite, and even has engraved flowers on the handle. I can't see what it is engraved. I admit that I am using this observation to divert my attention. If not, my eyes will only look at the lamb's leg, and even the girl's beautiful face can't attract me.

"Yes." As the girl spoke, she cut a large piece of meat with a knife, then put it in the nutty and put it on her mouth for a big bite. The freshly baked cake was very crispy and made a clear and audible broken sound in her mouth, which made what she said later accompanied by this wonderful blow. The girl didn't wait for the cake to swallow all, and said vaguely, "The people here call you apprentices. Isn't an apprentice a name for people with low status? But why does it follow the word master? Is your status here high or low? I can see that she is very hungry, and she also wants to talk to me. Therefore, just after asking this question, another mouthful of pancakes with meat was sent into her beautiful mouth.

I swallowed a mouthful of saliva before answering the question. If I didn't swallow it, the saliva would flow out when I was talking. In fact, the corners of my mouth had flowed out a little just now, but I wiped the saliva on the cuffs of the apprentice's robe with an inadvertent action.

This is not a good question to answer. This humble and noble name is completely created by this deformed city. What should I say? Should I tell her the old city and the new city? In fact, to explain the reason for this problem from the root, that is, it can't be said for a day and a night. What's more, for me who was young at that time, there were not so many specific ideas in my mind, and all I had was just a paste-like chaos.

"The city is divided into two places." I drew a circle with my finger, and then drew a circle in the middle to divide the circle just now into two. I live in the other half, in which I am a humble person and a humble apprentice. But in this half, my identity is extremely noble. They will add a master to my name. That's basically it." This is the simplest answer I can think of. I am very satisfied with my summary. I didn't mention any historical questions about Xuecheng. The smart explanation should be understood by the girl at once.

"I feel that you are not familiar with this place. Don't you come here often before?" The girl blinked as she spoke. Her eyelashes were so long that I sat opposite her, as if I felt the wind from her eyelashes. The wind seems to be mixed with the girl's own body smell and the mixed smell of lamb leg spices.

"Actually... this is my first time here." I stretched out a finger and emphasized. It's okay to tell her that I'm here for the first time. In this case, even if I'm a little clumsy, the girl can understand. It's good to have an opportunity to explain. I must be embarrassed to take the initiative to explain this problem.

"But..." It seemed that the girl was chewing a tendon on the sheep's leg. She frowned and chewed a few times without chewing, so she swallowed it directly. Unexpectedly, the tendon stuck in her throat. The girl grabbed a pot on the table in pain and took a big sip. With a "dong" sound, the girl's eyebrows gradually unfolded, and because of the pain just now, I saw clearly visible tears in her eyes.

It took her a long time to continue what she just said: "But why don't you come often? No one likes the humbleness of life. Obviously, you can live a good life in another place. Why do you insist on half of your life?

"Because half of my life has what I pursue, it is meaningful for me to live there. And here... If I live here, I don't know what to do." The first half of my sentence is extremely righteous, but in the second half of the sentence, it seems that even I feel that it is not very reasonable to say so.

"Pursuit..." The girl muttered the word, and then she took a big sip of what had just been in the pot. Judging from the smell of the pot, it should be wine. After drinking this sip, she added some rosy on her face. Pursuit, I can understand this. Just like my father, he returned goods between the Central Plains and Europa in order to make more money, so why did you stay there to make money? Just now, when I saw you buy something, you didn't bargain. You didn't even blink your eyes when you took out the golden beans. This is different from my father. He seems to care about everything he buy, even if it's just for small profits. I don't like his stingy. You carry so much gold with you. Just now, the guy kept saying that this is not as good as your side, called... Xincheng, right? The side called Xincheng must be very beautiful. You can also make a lot of money there. After the girl finished speaking, she did not continue to eat, but focused on waiting for my answer. Maybe she wants to know what the new city is like, or maybe she is a little full. After all, for a girl, she really has eaten too much like that just now.

"No, I'm not a businessman." I heard the girl praise me, and I felt a little proud. It can be faintly heard from her words that I am better than her father in some questions, and it is really a waste of my efforts to make such an impression on the girl. As you heard, I am an apprentice. What I pursue is knowledge, the process and method of pursuing, that is, continuous learning. There are schools and teachers in the new city. I can learn everything I want to know and complete the pursuit of knowledge.

"Oh, that's it. So what are you going to study for? Do you want to be a senior official in order to be famous?" The girl asked with her head tilted. In this way, her red face added a little more charm.

"No. I've heard of the famous exam in the Central Plains, but I didn't learn those. I just... want to learn that knowledge. People in the new city want to learn knowledge. This is my pursuit. I answered as I shook my head.

"Then why do you learn knowledge and don't take the merit test?" The girl continued to ask, and her questions were so fast that I couldn't dodge them. I don't even have time to think about how to answer more appropriately. All the answers are completely instinctive.

"In order to become a bachelor. In the new city, the more knowledgeable people are, the more respected they are, and if I become a bachelor, I can become a respected person in the new city. Bachelor, this word is so far away for me. While answering the girl's questions, I questioned myself whether I could become a bachelor or not. The assessment of becoming a bachelor is too harsh, and it takes so many years of study that not all people can stick to the exam.

"That..." The girl shook the wine pot in her hand as she spoke. Under her shaking, the wine hit the inner wall of the wine pot back and forth, making a sound. Is the old city more populous or the new city more populous?

"The old city has a large population." I answered this very with determination. I know that not everyone can become apprentices, and naturally the people in the old city will be more.

"Then I don't understand. You pursue knowledge just to be respected in the new city, but you can now be respected in the old city and be respected by more people. What's the point in your pursuit of knowledge? What you pursue in your life can be obtained immediately in another place. After saying that, the girl put the wine pot close to her mouth, drank up the rest of the wine, and then gently shook the empty wine pot.

This... This question makes it difficult for me to answer. I vaguely feel that there is something wrong with what she said, but I can't say exactly what's wrong for a moment. This..." My body and face have been stiff for a long time, and I can't refute the girl's point of view. This made me feel a little feverish on my face. In the delicate plate on the table, I saw my face flushed.

"Okay, I'm just kidding." The girl immediately rounded up the field, with a few laughter in the middle. The laughter no longer sounds as pleasant to me, but a sarcastic ridicule.

I really want to be angry. I feel that my faith has been mocked. This is what I have insisted on for a long time. I have always thought it is indestructible, but when I really take it to the sun, it is like a fabrication of incense ash, so fragile and vulnerable. I clenched my fist, but I didn't know who I wanted to hit. Did I hit myself?

"Oh, why are you still angry? Come on, eat a grape. The girl's Qianyu pointed out a grape. She put the grape in front of me. In fact, the position was very close to my mouth.