Chapter 188 Crack

The grapes and the girl's hands are very attractive. I actually had the idea of not only eating grapes, but also eating the girl's hands, which made me shocked myself.

"What? If you don't eat it, I will hold it all the time. The girl was stunned when she saw me and urged her. Sure enough, her hand was raised like that, and she looked at me with an extremely serious expression, which made it clear that if I didn't eat grapes, she would stop talking to me.

My heart is suffering, not only because of the girl's attitude, but also because of the saliva spreading in my mouth. After thinking about it, there seems to be no better way but to eat the grapes. Besides, my stomach is also longing for this grape. So I swallowed a heavy mouthful, opened my mouth, and took the grapes directly from the girl's hand. Although I was careful, my lips accidentally touched the girl's hand in the process. How does that feel? I can't describe it. I just feel a blank in my brain, and I have no idea what the long-awaited grape tastes like. When I woke up from this feeling, my mouth was already empty. I don't know when the grapes have been swallowed. I don't even know whether I chewed or not.

The girl looked at me with a smile, and the serious look just now had been swept away, which also made me relaxed. At that time, I was too easily influenced by external things, and my mood was unstable, but one look of others could make me have countless thoughts in my heart. In essence, such a mentality is not suitable for studying. The sand sculpture-like belief, with just a little water, can make it collapse. The reason why it has stood up for so many years is that Xuecheng is a dry place with no extra water, and the girl is a sweet spring that corrodes sand sculptures.

The taste of this grape is good, far better than that of the Central Plains. My father told me that the climate in the Western Regions is suitable for growing grapes. If the temperature difference between morning and evening is large, the grapes will become very sweet. I didn't believe it before. There was not even water in the desert. I didn't know today that what my father said was true. The girl ate several pieces in a row and told me while eating.

"In the barren land, the things planted are sweeter, and the things in the world are not good." I really want to eat another one. It's a pity that I haven't even tasted what the grape tastes like. So my eyes unconsciously looked at the plate containing grapes.

"I can't eat this large plate of grapes. It may not taste good tomorrow, and I can't take this thing with me. Can you help me eat some? Otherwise, I will definitely think about these delicious grapes all night and sleep badly. If you help me eat, I won't hold on and sleep well. The girl blinked mischievously.

I don't know if she really thinks so or sees through my embarrassment. But this is what happens in the world. When you do it for the first time, you will always have some entanglement in your heart, but when you do it for the second time, everything seems to be natural. With the bottom of the grape that I don't know what it tastes like, I lost a lot of persistence and worries, and nodded gently. Then he also held the grapes with his fingers and put them in his mouth one by one.

So sweet and beautiful. It's so intoxicating. At that time, I felt that it was the happiest moment since I was born. There were smiling girls and sweet and sour grapes. My heart and stomach should be convulsive with my happy mood.

In the following time, I kept telling girls about some things in the desert, strange animals in the desert, strange climate, and strange sky. Of course, I don't think these are strange. It's like a part of my life. I'm telling the girl about my life in the desert over the past years, which sounds extremely strange to her. Maybe she will think I'm a strange person, but that's fine. When she returns to her hometown, she will think that there was a strange person who told her some strange stories in a strange city. This is also a good memory, which will probably make her remember me for a long time until she becomes someone else's wife.

This idea makes me feel a little sad. I find that I can't accept the girl in front of me to talk and laugh with other men, but this is inevitable. She will definitely get married. The Central Plains and Xuecheng are different. How I want her to stay in Xuecheng forever so that she can live with me without getting married. But she was not born in Xuecheng. She can only be a slave. No, how can such a delicate person like her be a slave! I heard the roar in my heart, and I felt the blue veins jumping on my head. The young man was completely trapped in the quagmire I laid for myself, and I couldn't extricate myself, and even didn't want to extricate myself.

The conversation continued like this. I tried my best to peel off some relatively interesting things in my boring life, but such things will always be finished, because my life is really boring. Finally, when I ate the last grape, I finished my words. The room fell silent. The suddenness of silence was the sudden silence of the noise, and the laughter of the two of us echoed proof of all this. And I also found that I had been expressing things, and the girl had been listening. She just smiled, but did not say any opinions or opinions. The girl did not participate in the conversation at all. From beginning to end, I was performing alone. So when I stopped, the whole conversation stopped.

I tried to think of something more, but then I thought that even if I could extend this "talk" for a moment, there would always be an end. That's enough. That's it. I stood up and prepared to say goodbye to the girl and go to the next room to sleep. It's not too early to think about it.

My farewell hasn't been said yet, but the girl said first, "Are you leaving?"

"Yes, it's very late. You have to go on your way tomorrow. Take a rest first, so that you can be energetic tomorrow. I tried to answer her in the most calm and polite tone. Although my eyes are still greedy for her beautiful cheeks.

"I want to ask you, you didn't go back to the new city tonight, and you have to take me away tomorrow morning. Is that okay?" The girl asked this question inexplicably. If she really worried about me, it seems that she should have asked earlier. I don't understand the meaning of her question.

"Oh, it doesn't matter. In fact, our class never names, all on our own. Sometimes some apprentices will suddenly find some problems for research and will not come to class for a long time. The longest is about... more than a month. There is a rule in the school that absenteeism for no more than half a year is acceptable. However, if people who are absent from class are not used for study and research, they will have no chance in the bachelor's examination. Therefore, no one will escape from learning because of laziness. I will go out of the city to save you and send you out of the city tomorrow. This is a very legitimate reason to save people's lives. There is nothing wrong with not going to class. I naturally have clear the rules of Xuecheng, but I asked myself in my heart, if the attendance in Xincheng is really very strict, will I give the girl to the ferryman and choose to go to class by myself? Definitely not! I shook my head firmly in my heart. Even if that person is my father, I will not give the girl to him. How important she is in my heart...

"Well, you can come with me tomorrow, okay? I will be afraid on the road alone. I'm afraid that I can't get out of this desert and go home by myself. Take me home and take a look at the scenery of the Central Plains by the way. I promise you that you can come back in half a year. When the girl said the promise, she raised one hand over her head as if she were making some kind of oath.

"No." I shook my head." Although apprentices can not go to class, they can't leave this desert. You can't even leave the control of the city, which is probably the range of the boat you are riding today. All research and study can only be carried out here. If I leave here with you, I will never come back for the rest of my life.

"How can it be?! Anyway, you sneak away and then come back secretly. Without telling others, you will see a lot of new things in the Central Plains, which will also be a good learning, and it must not be less than what you learn in the school. The girl promised that she spoke anxiously.

"Even if the situation is really like what you said, I can indeed leave secretly, just like I went out of the city today to save you, but in fact I went secretly. But once you go out and want to come back, it will be extremely difficult. Maybe you don't know that our city is not fixed in the desert, it will move in its own way. Except for the person who controls the sand boat, no one can calculate the specific movement trajectory of the city. After I left, I will never find it back here. I sighed heavily. Alas. This city is not allowed to enter. It is actually a miracle that you can come here today. The rower and I took considerable risks.

The girl did not continue to speak immediately, but looked at me with her eyes. She looked at me like that. I was surprised that she did not blink. This focused look even made my eyes a little itchy. Perhaps because the girl drank wine and ate a lot of grapes, her eyes looked so watery, exuding the most precious crystal-like luster in the desert. Then slowly, I could hear that she actually had a little snot. At first, the snot was very slight, and then it became heavier and heavier. Slowly, tears flowed out of his eyes. It could be seen that she was trying her best to control the tears, so most of the tears were spinning in her eyes.

"Do you like me?" The girl suddenly asked.

This caught me off guard. I remember what the teacher said in class that the girls in the Central Plains are very subtle. They often passively accept men's pursuits. Few women talk about love, love and love, but what happened to me? Is the teacher wrong? My mind was very confused at that moment. The first thing I thought of was not how to answer the girl's questions, but about the right and wrong of the teacher's lecture in class.

"I..." I have never been asked such a question, and I also believe that there are no apprentices in Xuecheng. I didn't even have a relationship between a man and a woman before today, but that doesn't prevent me from yearning for this relationship. In fact, the more I can't touch it, the more I am full of desire for this feeling. I know that this is a taboo in Xuecheng, and I also know that as an apprentice, I am not qualified to challenge the ancient taboo since the existence of Xuecheng. Teachers often say that existence is reasonable, because if it is unreasonable, it has long been changed by others. If others can accept it, but only you can't accept it, it can only prove that you are wrong and you are a heresy.

But, I know, I like girls. In my consciousness, there are only three distinct feelings for people: hate, dislike, hate, and like. So there is no doubt that I don't hate girls. If I hate girls, how can I save her from the desert and bring her into the old city with wishful thinking? If I don't like or hate her, just to save a life, then just now, when our conversation reached an impasse, I can completely brush my sleeves. So, obviously, I like her. But what's the point of this? She will leave tomorrow. I...

A feeling of heart being torn suddenly appeared, which made my answer more stuffy: "I..."

"What are you? How are you? Do you like it or not? Say it quickly!" It turns out that in a girl's consciousness, people's emotions are simpler. There are only two kinds, that is, whether they like to drink or not. I love the way she said this. Her eyes look forward intently, as if she were in the desert, focusing on lizards disguising themselves. When I'm bored, I can stare at the lizard like this for a day, as if we can have spiritual communication. And when I looked at it, I didn't have the fatigue of looking at my classmates at all.

The problem is no longer unavoidable, and why should I escape? It's just admitting a problem. Although I haven't heard of "like" in Xuecheng, it doesn't prove that this is a wrong emotion. At least the teacher has never said that.

"You are very good-looking. Of course I like you." I raised my head to understand the whole story, and there was no shyness or stumbling in my tone. I just admit what I think. The teacher has taught me that I must clearly understand my heart, otherwise, I will achieve nothing on the way to study.

"I like you too." The girl's words were bold and hot. She blurted out instead of thinking as I did.

I was very warm when I heard her words. It's a kind of luck to be liked by the people you like. Moreover, the later events told me countless times that not everyone can really enjoy this kind of luck.

"Since we like each other, you can come with me. After returning to the Central Plains, I will marry you. Even if you get into our family, my father is away all year round and can't live without a man. In fact, my mother often talks to me like this, but I don't like those men in my hometown. They are not as erudite and upright as you. When the girl said this, there was a trace of imperceptible shyness in her tone. I admit that such shyness makes people more moved.

"No. I can't leave the school city until I finish my studies. You must have a certain status in the school city before you can leave. I shook my head. I only have the norms and regulations of Xuecheng in my heart. Usually, when I say this, I have no feelings in my heart, but today, I really feel a kind of bitterness. It seems that this tragic fate was imposed on me by the people who made this rule thousands of years ago.

How could people know my life thousands of years ago?! What kind of power does he have to dominate me? Why should I do what he said? There is a fierce battle between heaven and man in my heart, which is difficult to solve.

Seeing that I didn't answer, the girl continued, "Then I'll ask you. Do you think there are more people in your hometown - this city, or more people in the Central Plains?

"Then there is no need to ask. There must be many people in the Central Plains." I know that there are tens of millions of people in the Central Plains, and the teacher told me so. This number is beyond my imagination. Even if everyone is just a small black spot, if they appear in front of me at the same time, it will make me dizzy. I really don't know how people in the Central Plains live.

"My father made a lot of money. I married you, and all this money is yours. This is enough for us to live in the Central Plains and be respected. If you still like to study, you can go to our school and learn it well. You can also take the merit examination and become a senior official. Even if you are only a county magistrate, you can manage a county and the surrounding villages. I'm afraid there are more people than the new city and the old city combined. Do you think that's not respectable enough? The girl is aggressive.

"Enough!" I shouted, "You have your lifestyle, I have mine, and I can't leave here. This is my home. Since I was born, I have been told to abide by these creeds and do things like this. If I don't study here and become a bachelor here, my life is meaningless. This is something that keeps me alive. And you... You only appeared this afternoon. You are just a phantom in my life. Why do you want me to change my firm heart?

"Is your heart really firm?" A smile appeared on the girl's face, which was not as warm as before. To be precise... it was actually a sneer.