Chapter 189 "Contempt"

"Of course, I am an apprentice here. I will abide by what I have always adhered to. This is my glory, all my things, and it can also be said that it is the value of my existence." I stood up and said my words to the girl. This is something that has been supporting me to live. I have never given up, and no one can let me give up.

"Oh?" The girl tilted her head, and the contemptuous smile still hung on her face. I remember that you just told your buddy that you are an apprentice and can't eat at night. You have to abide by the rule of apprenticeship. But... you didn't refuse the grapes I just gave you." With a smile, the smile looked a little vicious. Like snakes in the desert, they all look beautiful and as delicate as flowers, but as long as they take a bite, the bachelor with the best control in medicine, there is no way to save your life.

"This..." This is indeed my weakness. Although the apprentice's rules do not prohibit eating at night, I did use this statement to prevaricate the guy just now. Although this reason is completely to save money, how can this reason be said? Besides, even if I say it, how can the girl believe it? So will the "apprentice" who throws golden beans care about it because of the shyness in his pocket? Don't joke.

"It's just because when you gave it to me just now, you looked like you were going to cry. I... I don't want you to cry. Because I... I like you." This should be a perfect logic. Anyway, I just said that I like her. I eat for you. Even if it violates the rules, it's also for you.

Wait! I'm trapped. Since I can violate the first time for her, I can also violate the second time. If she lets me out of the city after that, logically speaking, I have been on the weak side. Shit, it seems that I am really inexperienced on the issue of speaking. I keep complaining about myself in my heart.

"Okay, even if I just handed it to you, you can eat it because you like me and don't want me to cry. But you just took the grapes on the plate by yourself, and it seems that you have eaten a lot. You ate at least half of the grapes in the whole plate, right? The girl put her face towards me, and I seemed to feel her breathing.

I didn't expect the girl to say this. Yes, the grapes I ate were completely behind. I didn't have what I just said in my mind. I just thought that since I ate the first one, it doesn't matter if I continue to eat it. But what's the use of thinking about this now? In her eyes, I am already a person who has violated my faith and can be easily persuaded.

So, am I really that kind of person? No! I shook my head violently and roared in my heart: Never.

"Girl, I don't know your name. In your words, even if you and I meet by chance today, I have saved you, and I don't want any gratitude and reward. I just don't want another skeleton in the desert. In this way, your father in Europa and mother in your hometown will be very sad. I am an apprentice in the desert. I will spend my whole life chasing knowledge, which is all my ideals. You can question a person's wholety, his lifestyle, and his thinking, but please don't question his beliefs. I will live here. This is my faith. Only by having faith can I survive. I took a deep breath: "Actually, the city you live in can be built by survival and faith. It is these two things that have continued the civilization here for thousands of years." These are often said by the teacher. He often repeats them over and over in class. When I say these words myself, I feel as if the thousand-year history of Xuecheng is flowing in front of my eyes, and countless great ancestors stand in front of me and smile at me. Their huge tower-like posture and modest smiles are giving me strength all the time. At this time, I feel that the countless previous swings suddenly disappeared. There may be many unreasonable things in the city, but reasonable is much more than unreasonable. There is no perfection in the world. This kind of imperfect and uncoordinated thing is exactly what I am chasing. I am an apprentice and will become a bachelor in the future. This is my only identity, no matter where I am! This is also my oath. So girl, please don't say those words again. I will regard it as contempt for me. That's all for today's conversation. In addition, I don't want to live next door. I will return to my residence overnight. As for you..." I paused here, and I really wanted to say that it made the girl die, but how could I be willing to? I like her. This is not a lie. What's more, she will become a slave here, and the miserable life of a slave is something I can't imagine and don't want to imagine. As for you, there is some money. You can explain the situation to the store tomorrow morning and ask him to help buy camels, dry food and clean water. I took out the remaining four golden beans from my pocket and patted them all on the table. The money should be enough.

I didn't look at the girl's expression anymore, but went straight to the door. But as she walked, she found something wrong. I forgot a key problem. Only camels could not get out of the old city. She must rely on the sand boat to return to the right road. This is really troublesome. For the matter of Sha Zhizhou, you have to beg the ferryman. Fortunately, that's what he has promised a long time ago. I can try to find him now and ask him to pick up the girl in the morning, and I won't show up. Thinking of this, I turned my head and continued, "Oh, that's right. After you get your things, don't leave. The rower will pick you up and take you home. I wish you a safe journey. I'm here to say goodbye in advance..."

Where I stood, I could only see the girl's back. I saw her body gently**. She... She was crying. Should I come forward to comfort her before leaving? No! She just mocked me. She questioned my dream. How could such a person like me? She probably thought I was a joke. Why does she need a joke to comfort her? Thinking of this, anger filled my eyes, which made me no longer see her body shaking, so I gritted my teeth, turned around, opened the door and walked out of the girl's room.