Chapter 16 Cold and Hot Tears

The bus starts.

I sat in the last row seat with my head bowing deeply, and the bitter taste made me feel that the smell of gasoline in the bus was so heavy that I never got carsick and felt like I wanted to vomit.

Is it over like this? I asked myself.

Is every smile of the sea breeze facing me fake? She just regarded me as a short-term stand-in for her brother Ningyuan? Am I just a meteor in her life? A shining and fleeting meteor that will not have much impact on her life? That's all? What about that kiss? What is that kiss by the sea? Is it just a moment of unsembarrassment? Just because of loneliness, let me succeed for a while?

Is

is it really over? I will never see the smile of the sea breeze again? Can't you see the words she sent anymore? Can't you feel happy by holding her hand anymore? Really can't do it anymore?

I stroked the pain in my chest with my hand and couldn't help shrinking my neck.

Is it really autumn now? Why do I feel so cold and seem to be in the cold wind in winter?

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After the bus arrived at the station, I went straight to an Internet cafe - after thinking about it for a long time, I felt that I should have a clear response to her decision, and because I really didn't know how to face the sea breeze, leaving a message on QQ should be the best choice.

When I opened QQ, my hand hung in the air for a long time and couldn't type the first word. The words that had been clearly thought out suddenly became confused. I took a breath and calmed down. I finally let my finger fall on the keyboard:

"Haifeng, everything that happened today caught me off guard. I don't even want to believe it's true even now - I really want to treat it as an unreal dream, but reason fills my chest with bitterness... Since this is your decision, since I'm just a good one around you. No substitute, since your true destiny can hold your hand at all times, I can only let go... Haifeng, don't worry, I'm not a person who likes to pester. If you give me love, I will give you a vow, and if you want to leave, then I will let you fly, so I won't bother you. Yes, I will quietly disappear in your life... Sea breeze, fly in the direction you like..."

After typing these words, I almost ran away from the Internet cafe, then went to a supermarket to buy two boxes of chocolates, and locked myself in the room when I got home.

When I was a child, every time I was unhappy, just a piece of chocolate could make me feel better. Slowly, I developed the habit of eating chocolate when I was unhappy, so that the sweetness of chocolate diluted the bitterness in my mouth - for more than 10 years, this trick has always been tried and again. However, today, why is the chocolate in my mouth? Will it become so bitter?

I closed my eyes and finally let a tear flow down...

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In the next few months, because of the college entrance examination, I am like all the students rippling in the endless sea of questions. Of course, I am still a little different from others. Others are bravely moving forward in the sea of questions, hopeing to travel all over the sea and finally achieve success, and I am just a spectator.

The college entrance examination is coming soon. Not surprisingly, I failed in the college entrance examination and only got into a little-known third-rate college in the city.

Since I broke up with Haifeng at the seaside, Haifeng has completely disappeared from my world. There are no letters, no QQ messages, no E-mail, and no phone... As time goes by, I think I have been used to the days without Haifeng.

The summer vacation passed quickly. I went to school with my backpack and started my college career.

After reporting, I went to my dormitory. When I went there, I found that there were 7 people to live in the not-sized dormitory. At the beginning, everyone was very restrained, but they politely exchanged names with each other, so I knew the six names of "Luo Wanda, Wang Bing, Cai Feng, Zhou Zhi, Zhang Tiangui, Hu Jie", because we They are all very easy to get along with, so we quickly get acquainted with each other.

Of course, the topic that men talk about most when they are together is women. With the understanding of each other, the gossip between us has become taboo. From the girls we like to their past love history, we talk about everything. However, due to men's face problems, the "love history" I mentioned is certainly not endless. In fact, as a result, the 37 experiences of being dumped have become the "fruits" of 36 dumping people, which made me admire me so that I almost didn't regard me as a worship... However, I don't know why, I can vividly adapt the previous 36 lovelorn experiences, but I don't mention anything about the sea breeze...< /P>

Because we haven't officially started class yet, we still don't have the chance to see how beautiful the MMs in our class are. Therefore, the seven people still have a meal together. They fantasize that it's not far away. It's better to find a beautiful MM in the class to start a vigorous love run and spend this long college career together... And The next day, the official class, after inspecting the appearance of the girls in my family one by one, the brothers completely gave up the idea of finding a girlfriend in this class. They all said that no wonder the rabbit did not eat the grass around the nest. It turned out that the grass growing on the edge of the nest was too bad...

In comparison, among the dormitory brothers, Wang Bing's disappointment should be the most, because according to him, he fell in love with a MM when he first reported, and he fell in love with him at first sight and never forget it. Unfortunately, it backfired. It's okay if this woman is not in our class, and she can't find a "beauty" who can be with her. Characters with a few words... It is said that our major is at least liberal arts, and the male-to-female ratio is still the most female. Why are we so unlucky? After returning to the dormitory, the brothers sighed.

Some people say that the way to heal emotional trauma is to start a new relationship, but somehow, I don't have the heart to do anything in school - because although I'm used to the days without the sea breeze, I'm also used to the days when I miss the sea breeze...

On the third day, there was a computer class. Because the teacher came late and the computer room door was not open, we casually enjoyed the advertising works of the seniors majoring in the advertising column in the corridor. Soon, one of the works attracted my attention - it was not how novel his design was. How unique the pattern is, just because the sentence in it deeply touched me-

"How cruel it is, you put out the cold water of my love flame, and I will turn it into tears drop by drop..."

Suddenly, my mood became extremely depressed, and a trace of light emotion leaked out from the depths of my heart -

Sad.