chapter 42 is dying

"Sister, I like a girl. She hates the world. I think there's nothing I can do.

"Isn't it, the one in your cram school?" This is probably the first time in so many years that Xiaoyi told me so seriously that he fell in love with a girl. In the past, we used to talk about handsome men and beautiful women in a very contemptuous tone, which was not responsible to everyone. For example, sister, how about the little girl? Do you think it's pure? Looking at the purity, I don't know how much ** it is. It's not good to get it in **. I'll tell you that I've got too many of this kind of goods.

Yes, he is so young that he just wants to shamelessly prove his disdain for the world. How can it be considered that casual words will hurt others?

Xiao Yi shook his head. He didn't answer who the girl was, and I didn't ask. He continued, "When I was in the third year of junior high school, I also met a girl. She was in the same class as me, named Wu Mengmeng. You know I never got good grades. I sat in the last row and she sat next to me. That was the first time I saw such a special girl in my life. We were sitting in the last row. I don't understand why she sat next to me. She has long hair and white skin. Unlike other monsters in our class, she never wears makeup. She also lowered her head and didn't like to talk in class. She took notes carefully. Normally, she should be a top student. There's no reason to sit with me. Later, I heard from others that I knew that her family conditions were not good.

Xiaoyi probably understood when I said so. Our young master went to a high school with me when he was in junior high school. In my aunt's words, it was convenient to pick us up and have dinner. When I was in my senior year of high school, I didn't have much art training at all. My aunt simply transferred Xiaoyi to an aristocratic school in the city, which was convenient for boarding. I have been to their school. It's as luxurious as a hotel. There are all kinds of TVs, computers, washing machines, refrigerators, water heaters and air conditioners in the dormitory. There are stalls on the floor, and the tuition fee for a semester is more expensive than my three years of high school. The children who go to that school are either rich or expensive, so their so-called family conditions are not good, which is very good compared with the children outside. However, this kind of child will be more or less excluded at school.

"I observed her for a while and found that she was always alone. Basically, she had no intersection with the girls in the class, and she didn't seem to have any friends... As you know, the girls in our school are all monsters, and it is impossible to play with simple little girls like her. I became more and more interested in her. I wanted to know her more and more. The more I knew her, the more interested I became. She also seems to have found something and basically avoids me every day. But I still tried to talk to her. She had no choice but to get to know each other gradually. I just knew that her family opened a food store. She was able to study here because of her good grades. Originally, she could sit in the first row when she came in, but a classmate had money to give the teacher a red envelope to buy her seat, so she had to sit beside me.

I interrupted, "If it's that kind of girl, she should be very simple and kind. Haven't you always liked that type?"

"Yes, I like it, but I didn't expect that she lied to me." Xiaoyi spoke very slowly, revealing a violent emotion. Something should have happened that made him very angry or hurt. In fact, Xiaoyi is also a simple and kind child. Children always like to pretend to be a big man to prove that his shoulders are thick, and he is more vulnerable. If a person hurts him once, he will remember it stingily for the rest of his life.

"After my hard pursuit, we finally got together. She accepted that I bought her clothes and bags, but I didn't use them once. I was surprised. Until one time when I was shopping with my mother, I passed by a luxury replacement store and saw that the things I bought for her were basically inside. I began to wonder what she was doing. She never let me see her mobile phone, what was in her schoolbag, and she didn't take the initiative to call me. Until one time in class, she was called up by the teacher to do exercises in the dark. I quietly turned over her mobile phone and saw her text messages from others. The first one was: Let's break up. I just knew that I had been cheated. In fact, my time with her is really happy. She has never been a talkative girl. She will quietly watch me play football, watch me laugh, buy me breakfast, and go home together after I finish playing games in the Internet cafe. When other girls asked me for the number, they just stood behind me with a smile and looked at me. Sister, she really lived in my soul, like a piece of dog skin plaster. It's uncomfortable not to open it, but it hurts to remove it.

I felt the pain of Xiao Yi. I stretched out my hand to cover his head and asked, "What happened later?"

Actually, I want to tell him that it doesn't matter, baby. It doesn't matter how dirty the world is. Don't open your eyes and don't look at it, or you can see more dirty things.

They will make you nauseous to vomit, and you will... I can't stand it.

"She knew that I looked through her mobile phone, and she didn't explain anything. We thought we broke up peacefully. The next day, someone came to our class to make trouble and said he would come to her. It was a woman who said that she was in love with her, which was a sensation in our school before. Sister, I still remember that the woman was going to beat her. I stood in front of her and almost begged her, 'As long as you say you don't, I will believe you. I want you to say no.' I admit that I still liked her at that time, and I liked her so much. But she raised her head and smiled at me. The smile was sour to her bones. Her eyes were full of tears. She said to me, 'Zhang Xunyi, I'm sorry!' I will always remember how desperate and empty her eyes are. The woman pulled her away, and she never came to class again.

Xiaoyi's voice trembled a little. He tried to control it, but there was nothing he could do, allowing his emotions to flow.

"I never saw her again. Half a year later, I received a letter from her." Xiao Yi took out a white envelope from the pocket of his coat. The envelope is very wrinkled, and the handwriting on it is a little blurred, but it can still be seen that there is a sonorous rise in those embroidered fonts, and every stroke is helpless.

I took the letter from him and opened it slowly. Inside is the most common letter paper, and those fonts are full of five pages long.

"Zhang Xunyi, in fact, I have always wanted to call you Xiaoyi. I heard that your favorite sister called you like this. I caught the word "love most", which does not belong to me, so I have no way to call you. Forgive me for saying goodbye. I swear, I really love you. You can't believe it, you can doubt it, you can think of it as my fart, or you can lie to yourself when you wake up in your sleep in a certain month. I really love you. You have to read this sentence clearly. It's not the past tense, but the continuous tense, which is likely to become the future tense.

"This story is very long, boring, and even vulgar. If you really hate me, tear up this letter to a certain limit. If you have nothing to do now, take it as a joke. I hope it won't affect your mood. I was born in a family that knows how to describe it. My father is my own father, and my mother is also my own mother. But I have two brothers and sisters, one is called my father and uncle, and the other is called my mother and aunt. Do you understand the combination family? My father is the dean of a private hospital. He has been married twice. You know that men like to fuck women outside as soon as they have money, which has become the root of his two failed marriages. My brother is my father's son and my sister is my mother's daughter. Our family of five lives under the same roof, not close to each other, especially my brothers and sisters who are ten years older than me, who are like strangers who have nothing to do with each other. As I got older and older, my brothers and sisters got married, and five people became three. Dad seldom comes home because of his busy work and too many mistresses outside. Mom and Dad simply moved out to live with their lovers, and I was the only one left at home. That's why I came to that school. I will be over in the future, but in fact I don't. I remember that when I went home on Saturday when I was in the second year of junior high school, I just closed the door and heard the voices of my father and women in the corridor. I probably expected what would happen and hid under the table. Sure enough, after a while, Dad opened the door, hugged an enchanting woman, and rolled directly to **, and his clothes and trousers fell to the ground. I hid under the table and watched them sit and exercise vigorously. I didn't dare to speak and even dare to move. After four hours, my blood stopped all over my body. When it was so stiff that I couldn't even reach my fingers, they finally left. When she left, the woman deliberately patted the table with her hand. I knew that she had seen me hiding underneath, and everything was shown to me. After they left, I crawled out from under the table and began to vomit. My stomach juice dried up. I thought it would end again this time, but it still didn't.

My fingers also trembled, and the edge of the thin paper was wrinkled by me. I can't imagine how a teenager would feel when he saw those pictures. A teenager is so young that her life is desphemed so early. What kind of power does she have to support life again? If it doesn't wither, it will almost wither.

I have always felt that we will encounter many dangers and unknown difficulties on the road of growth. There is also a saying that parents are the first teachers of our children. It can be seen that we are unlucky. When we meet a bad teacher, the road of life is even more bumpy. There is no other way but to complain that we didn't polish our eyes when we were reincarnated. I know that in this way, it is shirking responsibility, but teenagers can know what is different. If they are hurt, they are hurt. How can they care about the responsibility?

Wu Mengmeng, when she met Xiao Yi, she thought she had met the dawn. It's also the sunset after all, and the darkness will come one after another, but we realize it later.