chapter 77 extinguish

When I was 16 years old, I met a girl under a sycamore tree. She was holding a cigarette and wearing a cotton skirt.

Later, every time I met her, I was so nervous that I avoided it. I knew that she just wanted to pretend that she was bad because there was no love.

I met a girl under the sycamore tree when I was 16 years old in winter. She still smoked and wore a thick cotton-padded jacket.

I think it's time to say hi to her, although I'm afraid that she will let me get out of here.

I took her hand and finally went to the future. I told her that there would be no more haze in her world in the future.

She nodded and grabbed my hand tightly and walked all the way.

I also naively thought that I would lead her to the end of time, forever.

The journey is too long, and I was too confused when I was young. The night is foggy, and the more time goes by, the more we make us all vicissitudes.

I can even forget when she is lost. But I remember that I have been holding her hand and never letting go.

Now where am I going to find her? I forgot her name and don't know her address. I don't have her photo and number.

Will she also look for me? She doesn't have my name, address, photo and number.

Do you think I will find her again? She is afraid of loneliness and darkness and struggle. You said I would find her again, and I'm really worried about leaving her alone.

I said that I won't find her again. Maybe she is used to loneliness, darkness and fear. I think I can't find her anymore, because someone may struggle with her.

She will slowly forget me and everything, and I will slowly forget her, because I am about to evaporate from this world.

After

, it will disappear. Goodbye forever.

I blocked my ears with my fingers. The sound of music slowly echoed in my mind. I heard this song, not on the radio, but at the school celebration in my first of high school. The boy was playing the guitar on the dilapidated stage of the small theater, humming in the same tune, but I didn't hear the words very clearly.

At that time, I already knew that his name was Wilson, so the smile in the Internet cafe was just a premeditated implementation.

At that time, I thought I won. I won the whole world, even if I knew what he had with Xiaoxue before.

So when Qian Rui's matter comes out, I just don't want to admit that this is a karma.

That's what it's like. It was my imagination that I was a photographer who shuttled through time. In a dream, I suddenly looked back and found that it turned out to be like this. I suddenly became enlightened, so. It's retribution, not that it's not the time.

I, Xiaoxue, Qian Rui, Li Luo, Chen Yi and Xiaoyi are like a food chain, but it's a pity that the result has not been revealed until now.

It turns out that I'm in the last position, and I don't want to, but there's nothing I can do.

After

, it will disappear. Goodbye forever.

Li Luo, if it is the last language in your lyrics at that time, then you are really a great prophet and will disappear in the future.

Forever, goodbye. Whether it's me, you, Chen Yi or Qian Rui, we are all losers, and my heart suddenly has a perverted balance.

Forgive us, we can't be redeemed in the face of fate.

I buried my head between my knees. Although I covered my ears and clearly heard the sound of opening the door, I closed my eyes.

The footsteps were with a heavy sense of oppression. Without taking a step, you could feel the roar of something cracking. That was not Xiaoyi's footsteps. Xiaoyi's footsteps were not so destructive.

I was picked up with a pair of hands, with cold lips against my fingers covering my ears, and said to me, "Baby, shall we leave?" Let's escape from this world, okay?"

My tears flowed down my cheeks. Honey, where are you going to escape from this world? Are you really going to die?

I really want to lose my memory and forget everything. It's not pretending to forget, it's really forgetting. It's pulled out fundamentally, and nothing really happened.

He hugged me and walked out of the door step by step. I buried my head in his chest and didn't know where he was going to take me. If it's really a good thing to escape from the world as he said, then you can take me away.

"Do you know? Today is my nineteenth birthday. I never thought that I would spend my 19th birthday in the hospital, and during this period, I would experience the most hurt me for so many years. I haven't had a birthday before, and I can't completely deny it. It's rare. When my parents didn't leave me when I was very young, they often remembered it, and so did my aunt. When I was eight years old, she gave me a pure gold life lock. I don't think my life can be defined by happiness or unhappiness. Everything is relative and not absolute, but what I feel now is helplessness. Because I think what happened to me is that no normal person will encounter it. Maybe I'm unlucky. Looking back on the past 19 years, I really don't think it's meaningful. If I can really escape, then you can take me away, but where are you going? If we can't live in this place, will it be the same in the next place? It's impossible. Let's really go to hell. I promised my aunt to live a good life. I'm going to England to find my parents. I haven't enjoyed my life yet..."

"In fact, as long as I confirm one thing, I can get rid of a small part, no, a large part. Chen Yi, tell me the truth, does Li Luo's jump have anything to do with me? I want to hear the truth."

His footsteps stopped, and I felt as if I was in a very empty place. Curiosity made me naturally open my eyes to look.

As a result, I opened my eyelids and saw the brightest sunshine today.

The light is too dazzling. Even if the sun traveled through all kinds of things and put into our planet four years ago, it still does not reduce its temperature. I think it will remain the same and will not change.

Bright is bright, and dark is dark.

This is a small lawn for patients in the hospital to recuperate. There is no big difference in the ordinary park. It's just that this lawn is a lot of trouble and people who are sitting in wheelchairs in sick clothes and long for freedom of life. I have become one of them, but now I want to be a fugitive.

It's hard for me to decide whether it's a good thing or a bad thing.

When I was seven or eight years old, I thought I was very big at the age of eleven or twelve. At the age of fourteen, five or sixteen, I felt mature enough, and at the age of seventeen or eight, I felt old. When I was 19 years old, I felt that I was still a milky child, so it was still difficult to decide anything.

The conclusion is right or wrong, and there is not enough courage to say it, because of doubt because of uncertainty and lack of self-confidence.

I raised my head from his arms and forced myself to look directly at the sun. Even if it melted, it didn't matter. I just lacked an opportunity to prove that I was not a vampire. I didn't see the light to death.

"Do you want to listen to the truth?" He also raised his head to touch the sun with his eyes. Gradually, he put me on the ground, but he didn't look at me, and I didn't look at him.

"The root cause has nothing to do with you, but the sentence you said that made him die, forgave him and gave him courage. He chose it himself, and none of us could stop it. Even if he stops once, he will still choose other ways to disappear in our lives. As long as he is persistent to do anything, he will succeed. You are so smart that I don't need to remind you.

I laughed, "Really? Then I can selfishly think that it has nothing to do with me. I won't go to see him, because his presence has always made me painful. I will forget him as he said. Because I found that only when I forget him can I live a happy life. He is like a thorn in my life, impartially stuck in the weakest position in my heart. It hurts more and more when I think about it every day. When I forget its existence, it will only faintly. That kind of attack will gradually disappear with age, right?

"So, I will still miss him. I will force myself to spend all my time thinking about him. When I think that I don't want to think about it, I forget it."

He also smiled, and the smile catered to the perspective of the sun turned into the past, which was fleeting in a blink of an eye. The dust of life disappeared in a blink of an eye. We are like small waves in the long river of time. Even life is like this, not to mention that I encounter these painful things now.

I think it's best for me to become famous at the age of 70 and become a strong woman and a great man in the world. If a famous interview invited me at that time, facing the young host, my face was full of the posture I should have when I was young, I would tell her that nothing is enough to measure with the true meaning of the whole life, because nothing is more important than life, even if sometimes life tortures us. Life, but you can't die, right? Even if you can't die, then live happily. I will tell her the story of when I was in my teens. I was betrayed, had an abortion, took drugs, was slandered, and indulged with life with all random gestures. When I was young, it was a burning years, but when the years were really old, my ** could not burn.

"But why did you jump off the building?" He turned his head and asked me.

His perfect side face is the same as when I first saw him, impeccable, regardless of angle, time, space and place. It's just that the outline is stained with something different from the first time I saw him. I'm not talking about the nightclub, but when we took wedding photos together.

I regret why I didn't pay more attention to him at that time, which may have avoided the troubles later.

I can only regret to say that fate is still no different from my character when I first met it. I always like to play tricks on others so much. Maybe it's very enjoyable to look at others in confusion.

What a fucking pervert...

Life is unsatisfactory, which is really the crystallization of the wisdom of the ancestors. Summarizing such essence makes us unbearable for future generations.

I really can't escape with him, because he doesn't understand.

To be honest, I really hate those who think I'm going to jump off a building with Li Luo. Even if the whole world believes that I can't do nothing, but I hate it silently in my heart.

"Chen Yi, it seems that what you know about me is really limited to fur. I'm sorry, if you forgive me like this, I can't leave with you. I want to stay away from you. Stay away from anyone who makes me unable to forget Li Luo. I will go by myself. I will go to a place where I don't know my past. The rest of the matter is up to you. I hope we can see each other again in forty and fifty years. If you don't like it, then never see each other again. My brother bought me breakfast, and I'm going back.

I turned around and my wrist was strongly grasped.

"What if I insist on not leaving?"

I shook my head, "You won't, because you also want to be free. You don't want to see me either. As soon as you see me, your mind is full of Li Luo, isn't it?"

His pupils dilated, his fingers loosened and let me go, and he took a step back in a trance. Maybe it's a little uncomfortable to be seen so thoroughly, and it may have been hit hard. It's ridiculous to say so. I'm afraid no one has suffered more than us.

After thinking about it, I walked back to him, stood on tiptoe and gently kissed the corners of his lips, and said to him, "Goodbye, Chen Yi. Thank you, still.

Then leave.