chapter 88 regret continues

"Baby, are you asleep?" My lips pressed against my ears and asked softly. Fortunately, his breath was still hot, which made me a little gratified.

I wrapped the quilt tightly and turned to hug him, so that the two of us hugged each other in the most intimate posture. My forehead is close to his throat knot, and my ears can also hear his heartbeat and hit my eardrums one by one.

He held me tighter. I thought he was very cold and his whole body was trembling. A person was extremely cold and grabbed something to keep warm, and I was.

But do you feel warm when you hold me?

"I didn't. Are you going to sleep?"

He shook his head.

"Do you know Chen Yi," I said faintly. My voice was very low, but there was no distance between us. He could easily hear it. "You said you love Li Luo, and I believe it. But I believe that you hate Li Luo more. I can't be arrogant about who Li Luo is. I know him very well, but one thing I know is that he won't take the initiative to provoke him if it's not something he is interested in. I guess the reason why you hate him is probably to provoke you, make you love him hopelessly and then leave you ruthlessly. He can easily pull away from feelings and emotions, but we can't do his free and casualness, so we will endlessly entangled and entangled in one thing, remember his days, look forward to the future days, he will come back, spend all day in memories, and fantasize about how to revenge on him every day. How to let him know what's going on around me? I never thought that he would be a little interested in our affairs. He is a very selfish person. I know that almost everyone who knows him knows, but I don't want to admit it, although I don't know what it is for. In his world, there is really no one else except himself. You know the purpose of what I said. I said it so simple and easy to understand. You should know it clearly.

"A Li," his voice was hoarse, calling me A Li instead of baby. "Is it the best relief that we must be indifferent when he dies?"

He really understood what I meant. Although I said that, he was the only one in the world who could really understand.

"He has been selfish for so long, we have to be presumptuous once. He is really dead, and I will think that he has always existed, so he is indifferent. Otherwise, what do you think?"

I emphasized the word "really".

"Okay. If I say that he is really different from you, do you still insist on your indifference?

"Chen Yi, I won't believe it again, no matter who says it. Let's change the topic. Didn't you have a story to tell me when you brought me to your house today? My fingers touched the protruding spine on his back, section by section, buried under the skin, and even the bones were filled with a chilly breath. My fingers trembled.

"You are so smart. I want to tell you too many stories. Let's start with the woman downstairs. That's my father's woman, but not my mother. My mother seldom comes home. She also has a house outside and is with her man, who is not my father. The most ridiculous thing is that they are still a legal couple and have no divorce. His voice is still the same, but it is getting clearer and clearer. I listened carefully and took it seriously word by word, because I was afraid that if I didn't pay attention to the source of his voice, it would disappear into the air and the world would be silent.

Can you tell me a happy and warm story? I have heard too many such dark and decadent stories. If you continue to tell them, I can't stand it.

"Whatever you say," I interrupted him. "I don't want to hear the story related to Li Luo anymore, okay?"

His fingers suddenly penetrated into my hair and linger in my hair. Instead of answering my questions, he continued to tell his story, "Do you know why they didn't divorce? Because of money, now the New Marriage Law has also come out, so you can't be separated. You will suffer a lot of losses if you are separated, and it will have a bad impact. Do you know what my father and my mother do? Shh... They are all people with face. They are officials.

"Then why are you together again? There should be no shortage of money. Nowadays, the most high-grade people are basically people who eat national food. They can report what they eat and buy with invoices. Look how colorful Li Gang's son is. Do you want to learn from him to stimulate your parents? It was a mistake to be together at the beginning. My tears flowed to the corners of my mouth and slipped into my mouth, sweet. Forgive me for saying that parents are particularly excited. Because they have experienced it, children who grow up in a normal family can better realize that having such a bad pair of parents is the most worthwhile suicide in the world.

Fortunately, we survived tenaciously. Should we get another bottle of Master Kang's green tea? Hahaha...

"They are in love because they are in love. This is what my grandmother told me, although I once doubted that my grandmother's words were 100% credible. My father chased my mother when he was still in school. He chased my mother from junior high school to high school. After graduating from high school, my mother went to college and my father went to college. After graduation, the two of them got the certificate. I still remember that when I was in elementary school, my family was very poor. I rented someone's house and the three of them were not as big as my current bedroom. Both of them are civil servants in the national unit. My father developed first. My mother has always been very strong and has also been promoted. Then my father began to take the woman home. My mother is a qualified person. She doesn't cry or hang herself, and she doesn't beat, scold or divorce. She fights against my father and takes the man home. It's nothing. You know how much my father tastes. I've also seen him take home boys about the same age as you. There is more than one, a group. When I was in junior high school at that time, I was curious. I quietly opened the door and saw a group of undressed men lying **. How exciting the scene was... Fortunately, my mother didn't see it. I don't know if she will follow the trend when she sees it. Do you want to ask me now if I have heredity?

"No." I answered truthfully, "I'm doubting whether you are gay or not, because I suddenly found that your sexual orientation is normal. Do you know psychological hints, because when you looked at your father and your group of men when you were a child, you kept hinting that you were boys, and boys should be with boys. Li Luo, who happened to grow up with you, also had the conditions that matched your hint at that time, so you killed him to the end and determined him. No, no, no, so you still like men and you are still gay. The culprit is still your father. If it weren't for your father, you wouldn't be like this. I don't blame the wrong person.

"Don't blame anyone. Didn't you say you didn't mention him? If you really want to say that I'm gay, I can't help it. I like girls now and I like baby. Do you believe it?"

"I believe it, it's just that there are too many babies. Each one is called Zheng Ai, right?"

He smiled. Someone once told me that laughing is just an expression, and it can't generally represent your emotions. "baby, hasn't anyone told you that it's happy for a woman to pretend to be stupid properly?" If you are too smart, you will live a very sad life, just like you are now.

"I prefer the four words, 'Great wisdom is stupid'. It's not like you said. I can't see through everything about you in front of everyone.

He stopped my fingers with my hair, put his hands around my waist, touched the waist chain around my waist, and asked, "What is this?" Why didn't you see this thing in your body last time?

"I've always worn this. It's so old that I can't even remember its age. Maybe it's older than my mother and not much younger than my grandmother. This is my mother's dowry. I encountered something very supernatural when I was a child, and my mother put it on for me. But his role is to let me know that my waistline has really not changed too exaggeratedly from childhood to age. Do you think the people in our family are trendy? At that time, the prophetic chain was on the waist. You said you didn't see it last time. I thought you were unconscious or in a hurry. You didn't look carefully at it at all.

His fingers continued to slide down to my thighs, feeling the scars I burned with my cigarette butt. His fingers are rubbing the scar. I know that the scar is very ugly and very good." Did you do it with cigarette butts last time you were in the hotel?"

"Since you are sure, why should I answer again?"

He didn't say anything. He turned his finger and turned his back to me. He turned off the light, and the room fell into darkness. I feel a little uneasy because I don't know what he is going to do. To be honest, I'm very tired now, and I'm really not in the mood to do that kind of thing. But if he is interested, I don't have the strength to resist, and I won't resist. I know that there is a big physical difference between myself and him. Even if I resist, I will compromise in the end. It's better to compromise at the beginning to avoid wasting energy.

"Baby, have you been here all the time?" He buried his head in the quilt, and his voice sounded very vague and could not hear emotion.

I didn't understand the intention of his question, so I asked him, "Why?"

At this time, the electronic clock in the corner of the room suddenly called the time, and the dull woman's voice sounded coldly, "It's Beijing time, twelve o'clock sharp."

I think this kind of sound will be creepy whether it's a person or something, especially during the ** time of twelve o'clock sharp.

Then, music began to play in it. The prelude was the clear melody of the acoustic guitar, which sounded extremely familiar. Immediately, the voice of a more familiar man came out of it.

When I was 16 years old, I met a girl under a sycamore tree. She was holding a cigarette and wearing a cotton skirt.