Chapter 74 The heart turns into gray

- In my life, I have loved the wrong person.

Su Siman's mind still seems to be half awake, confused and unreal.

She didn't want to believe the bloody scene she saw, but when she woke up, the strong smell of blood on her body reminded her that she had to believe it.

I always thought that Liang Shaojun was indifferent, but I didn't expect him to be so cruel. Didn't he say that he did it on the way to march? Unexpectedly, he was impatient so quickly. He came with such a vicious purpose and was so warmly welcomed by her brother. When he drank for him, there was a trace of shame in his heart? How could he do it?

One is her closest brother and the other is her favorite man. She hopes that they will always be friendly and harmonious. However, because of the conflict of national interest, her favorite man killed her brother with his own hands. How can she deal with herself?

How can Liang Shaojun do it...

Su Siman has been lost in the past few days, and his spirit has been greatly stimulated. He has not spoken for several days, as if he had been a serious illness.

Every time I opened my eyes, I seemed to see Chu Wenyuan lying on the ground covered in blood, with a pale and powerless hand reaching out to her and muttering desperately: Help me... Help me... She was haunted with nightmares day and night, and what she dreamed of was this scene. She woke up many times in her sleep. Every time she woke up, she was stained with tears and pillow towels and trembled all over.

Zhong Yeli was afraid that she couldn't think about it, so he stayed in the room to take care of her and never left.

After several days of muddle-headedness, Su Siman finally calmed down.

It's raining outside. Recently, the weather has become more and more chilly, and the air is full of coldness. There is often a sad wind penetrating into the room through the cracks of the window, and even this room is soaked with cold.

Su Siman leaned on** with a bleak face. Zhong Yeli had ordered Jing Ze to take the charcoal basin and put it in the house, but she still felt cold to the bone.

Zhong Yeli came in with a plate in person, sat on the embroidered pier in front of the bed, and handed her a small bowl of hot chicken soup. "Drink some soup while it's hot. You haven't eaten well for days."

She didn't answer, and her eyes were a little dull. Her pale lips moved and muttered, "The queen obviously asked him to do it on the way to march. I thought we could make it. How could he do this? He couldn't wait to kill my royal brother..."

"Maybe he had no choice, and he also had to suffer; maybe the truth is not what you see..." Zhong Yeli sighed and put down the porcelain bowl in his hand.

"He has pains, yes, he has pains, but can he kill innocent people indiscriminately? My royal brother and I didn't collude with any Yongliang Turks at all. They treated us like this, and he treated me like this..." She suddenly grabbed Zhong Yeli's hand tightly and looked at him sadly. Tears seemed to have dried up, and no matter how sad she was, she couldn't shed tears. Her hands trembled nervously, "Do you know, I'm good. I hate you... I hate you so much... You are so cruel to me that I can see it with my own eyes..."

Zhong Yeli knew that she was in a trance again. These days, she often thought in a trance and often mistook him for Liang Shaojun. Every time he saw her sad and desperate look, he felt so uncomfortable, and his heart seemed to be suddenly hit by something, full of sadness. At this age, she should have been the best time in her life. If she was born in an ordinary family, she should have taught her husband and son to enjoy the light happiness of life, but fate tricked her and involved her in the dark and endless struggle for imperial power. She was originally an innocent person, and he was also one of the evil pushers who pushed this innocent woman into the abyss. In this conspiracy, he played a disgraceful role. His conscience has been condemned because he knows this well.

Falling in love with someone you shouldn't fall in love with is doomed to punishment.

Su Siman is, and so is he.

No wonder the prince always says that he can't be a bad guy and can't do a big job, because he is not thorough enough. If a person still has a conscience, he is doomed to suffer in some things.

He had never known that he had such a weakness, and he always thought that he was cold-blooded and vicious enough. Now he found that compared with others, he turned out to be pure, gentle and gentle.

Zhong Yeli was originally a person with a lot of witty words, but now he can't think of what to say to comfort Su Siman. He only held her hand tightly, and the warmth of her palm was passed on to her without hesitation.

"You forgot him." For a long time, he said this in a low voice. As soon as he said it, he seemed to be shocked.

At this time, Su Siman's mind had recovered, and his sadness gradually faded away. His face was as thin as paper and calm. He looked up at Zhong Yeli, moved the corners of his mouth and said an incomparable sentence: "Has my royal brother buried?"

"Uh... No, the army will be launched tomorrow, and his coffin will be sent back to the State of Chu together." Zhong Yeli whispered, and his face was also a little pale.

"How many people are there?"

"400,000 troops."

In just a few days, 400,000 troops have been mobilized. How can it be? It must have been premeditated.

The civil strife may not destroy the State of Chu immediately, but as soon as the army of the State of Liang comes out, this time, the disaster of the country's life is inevitable. When the country was destroyed and her family died, can she still stay in Liang?

Su Siman lowered his head silently and picked up the bowl of chicken soup that was already a little cold at the head of the bed.

"Don't drink it first. I'll ask someone to heat it up."

Zhong Yeli stretched out her hand to grab the bowl, but was dodged by Su Siman and scooped a spoonful and sent it to her mouth. It was so bitter and salty that she still swallowed it.

After drinking this bowl of soup, Su Siman smiled faintly at Zhong Yeli and said, "Thank you for taking care of me these days. I have thought a lot recently and figured it out that he killed my royal brother and personally led the army to destroy Chu. I can't be with him anymore. Think about it, I have loved the wrong person in my life. From beginning to end, I lived in my own dream. I was just an indispensable cannon fodder in this conspiracy. He and Feng Wan were originally a natural couple, but I stepped in and destroyed their feelings. I thought that as long as I treated him well, I would definitely get his sincerity. But after all, I was wrong. I was just a passer-by and a spectator. Although I was ignorant and innocent, it was my fault after all. Thinking of such a result, it is God's punishment for me. Although it is a little harsh, it is also fair.

"Are you really not going to be with him?" Zhong Ye was a little confused, a little sad and happy in his heart.

Su Simman nodded.

It's really like walking in purgatory these days. When she was conscious, she thought a lot, but the final conclusion made her frustrated. From beginning to end, it was just a long-planned calculation, together with her marriage. Liang obviously wanted to annex Chu for a long time, and marriage was just a cover. Step by step, it was all under their control. She and Chu Wenyuan were trapped in this trap, and she could have predicted the final outcome.

She has always been just a pawn, so her marriage was not valued at the beginning. Liang Shaojun didn't even appear when she got married. He could despise her like this, because she was just a pawn. As she just said, she has always been living in her dream. When she was banned, she secretly ran to visit Liang Shaojun. When she was under house arrest, she was still looking forward to him to see her to save her. Now that she thinks about it, she wants to laugh.

She read a lot of books before, and she always felt that the heroines in it were so brain-damaged, but she didn't expect that she would do the same, and her wishful thinking was almost delirious. People who can't recognize the reality and their status are really pathetic. How can she be stupid enough to think that Liang Shaojun is really good to her? Really... It's too high to look at yourself. She once fantasized about finding true love in a conspiracy, which is really... so naive...

Do you still love him? She asked herself, but the voice in her heart was hoarse and could no longer answer. There was only a heartbreaking pain to answer her.

Love, this word, is too heavy to remove the power of her dream weaving, and she can no longer bear it.

If it is a burning of love and needs to use family affection and Li Min's burial as fuel, then she can't afford to love, and she can't afford such love. After all, she is not so selfish.

At this time, she realized how predictable Feng Wan Wan was. Although she was a little sinister and vicious, she was much more insightful than herself. At that time, she said that sooner or later, the Chu Congress would do her burial. It didn't take long for her to come true, didn't she?

Su Siman got up very early and changed back to the dress she wore when she left the palace, a light purple cloud brocade skirt, which was given to her by Liang Shaojun, and she liked it very much. Like a ghost, when Zhong Yeli robbed her that night, she was wearing that skirt. She carefully combed her hair with long ink hair up to her waist. Her hair quality was excellent, and there were no splits at the tail. It was soft and bright. She did not have such beautiful hair in modern times.

Zhong Yeli used to come to see her after getting up and accidentally found that she had got up.

"Can you comb your hair?" Su Siman asked with a smile.

She obviously asked more questions. Zhong Yeli Yirong knows everything. How can a small combing hair be difficult for him?

"What kind of comb are you going to wear?" He took the corner comb in her hand and looked at Su Siman with a pale face in the mirror.

She has been too thin these days. Originally, there was no excess meat on the baby's fat face. Her eyes were very big, but she was not bright. Her nose was small and upturned. The outline of her lips was very beautiful, but a little white. He found that she looked very beautiful when she lost weight, but it was too haggard.

"Comb me with a shadow and moon bun." She said.

For a long time, he found that Zhong Ye had not moved. Su Siman looked at the mirror and found that he was staring at himself in a daze.

"It turns out that you are so beautiful." After a long time, Zhong Ye sighed in a low voice.

"Then you can watch it for a while. I don't mind. There will be no chance in the future." Su Siman smiled again.

Zhong Yeli felt that her smile was very strange. In his eyes, he felt a little uncomfortable.

Looking at Zhong Yeli's white and slender hands taking care of his long hair, Su Siman looked at it. I don't know when the man in the mirror became Liang Shaojun. She had thought many times before. When she lost weight and became beautiful, the first person to see her most beautiful side must be her husband. She also imagined many times that he suddenly looked amazing when he saw her suddenly reborn and became beautiful. It's a pity... it's a pity...

Su Siman carefully inserted the butterfly hairpin into his temples and wore a newly picked white chrysanthemum stained with rain and dew on his temples. The young woman in the mirror has exquisite facial features, but her face is light, without powder. She is half haggard and delicate, which makes her feel pity. She looked at it for a while, looked at the mirror, raised her eyes and asked, "Do I look good today?"

Zhong Yeli hesitated for a moment and finally replied, "It's beautiful."

"Can you accompany me to a place?"

"Where to go?"

"broken cliff."

Zhong Yeli Yilin.

The broken intestine cliff is the only place for the Liang army to go to the State of Chu. In addition, the terrain there...

"I just want to look at him again from afar. Don't worry, I won't meet him."

"That's good." He thought that as long as he looked closely, nothing would be fine. She has already said that she will not be with him again. It would be cruel if she didn't even see him for the last time.

I hope all the entanglement will come to an end...