chapter 51 save me

In fact, I want to go to a place where the world can't find me. I cover myself with a lot of indifference, and I can't find anything. Covered up as a dirty corner of the world, no one can find me. I won't let them find it either.

Doesn't it mean that a person is an isolated island? Then I am an isolated island full of yellow sand, guarding an urn named Li Luo, and I will die alone.

I sat in a taxi and looked at the sky outside where night had fallen quietly. The roadside shines with colorful neon lights, and the dim yellow mixed with street lights presents an indescribable sense of loneliness and depression.

I remember that the birthday gift I gave to myself when I was 17 years old was to travel to the south of the Yangtze River alone. When I arrived in Shanghai, I stood on a luxury cruise ship on the Huangpu River and looked at the high buildings on both sides. The lights were more dazzling. That was a prosperous scene I had never seen in my life. A strange foreign man stepped on my foot while taking a picture and apologized to me in unfamiliar Chinese. He said, "I'm sorry."

I shook my head with a smile and was about to leave when he asked me, "Do you think it's beautiful here?"

I still shook my head, "No, it's not beautiful at all." He picked up the heavy SLR camera on his chest and took a random angle to take a picture.

Because it is too casual, the quality of the photos is very poor, unclear and blurred. This is probably the basic form of the city, erosion.

He was puzzled and spread out his hand to me, "why?"

I laughed, "This city is too depressing. Everything piled up with money contains its original weight. If it is too heavy, I will feel so prosperous that I am afraid. The perfect scene in my heart is natural, vigorous and relaxed. And here, it has nothing to do with the perfect scene in my heart. I will be afraid of here and won't come again."

I know what I say is too chewy. He won't understand. He waved to him and left.

The next day, I went to Wuzhen.

In fact, I didn't know there was such an ancient town. I was reading a favorite novel to understand it. The heroine in that book was born here. By the way, she brought out the water and soil of Wuzhen in the south of the Yangtze River and cultivated her always gentle temperament, which made me like her very much, so she left Shanghai and moved here.

I never thought that there would be a place that could be beautiful like this. The tree is so green, the sky is so blue, and the water is really as gentle as described in the book. Especially at night, I stood under the banyan tree and watched the black canopy boat full of tourists floating in the river in front of me, stepping barefoot on the bluestone board that has become extremely smooth due to too many footprints, as well as the lanterns on both sides of the river and the people living in the old house.

Close your eyes and you can feel the time. Really, such a real feeling, Nianhua.

I stood on the shore and looked at the beautiful things and called Li Luo. I said, "Honey, do you know? I'm in Wuzhen now. Everything I see here is so unreal. They are shaking too much. I'm afraid it's an illusion, because I feel the eternity here. I stand here as if the time has condensed. I won't die or leave. I will keep it quietly like a tree forever.

He laughed at me over there, "How's it going? You have to go alone! Remember to bring me a gift when you come back and be careful not to eat indiscriminately. If someone talks to you, you have to refuse him. If someone you don't know says he wants to treat you to sugar, don't take it. You must remember to walk, and watch the traffic lights when crossing the road..."

"You are so talky." I held the phone with tears on my face.

He said, "Well, if I had known I would have gone with you, I wouldn't have been so talkous with you."

I said, "Next time, we'll come together next time. Make a home here. You become a fisherman and fish every day. I am a housewife. After you finish fishing, I will dry my nets. How's it going?"

He laughed hard over there and suddenly became serious, "Okay."

As a result, there will be no next time.

Procrastinate until today, who else will go back and remember those vows once said. As I said, everyone was too young at that time. When I was young, I thought that there was nothing impossible for the world to revolve around me. Suddenly looking back, I found that when we were young, it was so ridiculous that we didn't know where we were wrong in the end.

I looked out of the car window at the scenery like another world. I covered my cheeks with my hands, and tears gradually overflowed from my fingers, more and more.

My crying became louder and louder. The driver was shocked and sent me to the gate of the community as quickly as possible. I cried and paid and got out of the car.

As soon as I got out of the car, the phone rang. I picked it up and saw that it was Chen Yi.

After thinking for a while, I still picked it up. Before I could speak, he said contemptuously over there, "What the hell are you doing?! Did you go back on your word so soon? How much did I think you really loved him?" Seriously, this is the first time I have realized that his voice can be so harsh.

I still didn't hear the sound of crying. I said to him with a solemn crying voice, "You are not... Don't you love him more than me? He and I just... How long have you been together? How many years have you known each other? What am I... Why do you want to retaliate against him? Why do you want to provoke me?! It's up to me to say if he is with you or not! What does it matter to me from beginning to end?! I never knew that there were so many ulsly people around me... You, each of you is a good thing! Which green onion are you, and why do you blame me? I'm going to go back on my word now. What's wrong? Anyway, you are about to play Li Luo to death, and I don't need to struggle meaninglessly.

My voice was returned to Chen Yi in the breeze as a vent.

I hope he can hear it on the other end of the phone and understand what I mean.

He didn't say anything for a long time, and it took him a long time to say, "Where are you?" Let's talk."

"No, there's nothing to talk about! Let's leave a way for each other. If you need to delete the phone, you can delete the phone. You don't need to contact it in the future. If you meet it, you will pretend that you don't know it. Anyway, you are not familiar with it. This is good for everyone... It's not a bad thing if you can make up with Li Luo and continue to fall in love. When I bless you, live a good life!" After saying that, I hung up the phone and directly turned off the phone and stuffed the phone into the bag.

As soon as he raised his head, he saw Jian Shuo.

I was in a trance. I really thought it was Li Luo. Damn, something is bothering me again. I wiped my tears, but if I couldn't wipe them cleanly, they still flowed down drop by drop.

Crying in front of unfamiliar people, I almost only feel shame.

"I heard Su Su that you live here, so I came to have a look. I didn't expect to meet you. What a coincidence." He came to me and said with a smile.

I don't know why I feel nauseous when I see this kind of tone of face now. I stare at him angrily. I know that my nose and tears are absolutely ugly now.

"What a coincidence, sister, crawl away! Sister, I'm not interested in your homosexuality at all! What I hate most now is homosexuality! So get out of here as far as you can. You'd better disappear from here. We won't see each other for the rest of our lives!"

I came up in anger and scolded him fiercely with a crying voice! The more you scold, the more uncomfortable it is. The more you scold, the more you cry. In the end, you simply squat on the ground and cry...

I didn't lie. What I hate most is homosexuality...

"Hey, hey, don't cry! I'm not gay, and I'm not bisexual. That's me kidding you... I swear, I only like women, not men, not to mention men and women. It was Su Su who told you that you would find men and women attractive. That's why I deliberately said that... God, what the hell did that girl joke with me!"

Er...

I was stunned in crying for a moment. It seemed that Su Su asked me what kind of man I liked before. I said that I would make an impression on men and women. Please, my own sister, that's my joke, okay? Is your old man's brain funny or something? I can take it seriously if I say it casually. Unexpectedly, such an excellent fan of mine said that I like bisexual men. Didn't he ruin my image and let the whole world know that I was a pervert?

I burped, stopped crying, and looked at him with tears in my eyes, "You are not bisexual."

He scratched his hair with a headache. This action was very similar to that of our young master. He said sincerely, "I'm not bisexual, and I never touch that kind of messy thing. What kind of Hailuoyin and foreign parties are all lies to you. I admit that what I took out when I went to the toilet that day was actually a box of chocolates wrapped in kraft paper. I wanted to tease you, and you insisted that it was for a good deal or something... However, the party yesterday morning was that someone was afraid of being scolded by you and let me say so. It's none of my business. When you scold her, you should think that you guessed it yourself, otherwise she might go in front of my brother again!"

As he spoke, he took out a bag of tissue printed with hellokitty and stuffed it into my hand and asked me to wipe off my cat-like face.

I looked at him suspiciously, "You still said that you are not gay. Do you have a normal man who uses such a sissy tissue?"

I saw that he almost cried with a hateful expression. "My God, I just stood here and watched you cry while talking on the phone, and immediately ran to the supermarket behind to buy a bag. I never carry paper towels with me. It's too damaging to put such a big bag in the trouser pocket.