chapter 62 scatter

"I didn't go on the day she got married. I received a strange phone call from her in the evening. She spoke politely and asked me about my recent situation and my parents' health. Finally, she told me that if time can be turned back, Jian Shuo should not be a deskmate with Jiaqi. She should not always give snacks to Jiaqi. She should not spoil her. She should not like her... She also said that she misses my parents and brother very much. She really regards us as family. She knows that she has hurt our trust. She has always wanted to say sorry. I couldn't listen any more. I was afraid that I would break down, so I hung up the phone first. The next day, I was going to buy a return ticket, but my parents and brother kept me, saying that I would stay with them for a few more days after I came back.

"I thought I would never hear from her again. I thought her married life would be worry-free. However, a few days ago, I read in the newspaper that the chairman of a certain group was exposed to brutally beating his newlywed wife at home, causing his wife to be hospitalized for craniocerebral bleeding. I saw the picture in the center of the newspaper. Jiaqi was dying and lying sick**, her head was covered with white bandages, and her clothes were full of blood before she had time to change. At that time, I cried, and my mother saw me crying with me. Dad and brother are silent... At that time, I hated them very much. If it hadn't been for their failure to understand Jia Qi and drove her away rudely, how could she have encountered such a thing? I also hate myself. Why am I so cowardly that I don't fight against my family or walk away with her forever? The cruelty she is suffering now is all attributed to herself. Even if I know it's too much, what is this compared to what Jiaqi has suffered?!"

There was a little excitement in his tone, and his whole body trembled.

"Our family went to the hospital to see Jiaqi with guilt. She was in the intensive care unit. Her husband was afraid that those reporters would write nonsense and sent a lot of people to guard the door. If we couldn't get in, we just looked at her from a distance out of the glass window. At that time, a doctor stood at the door and asked the people guarding the door, 'Who is Jian Shuo?' Those people looked at each other in con's face and shook their heads. I heard the doctor talking to himself, 'It's strange. Why is she obviously unconscious and cry when she calls Jian Shuo's name?' I rushed to tell her that I was Jian Shuo and asked Jiaqi what was going on? As a result, the doctor said to me happily, 'You are Jian Shuo. You came just in time. The patient mentioned your name during the hypnosis process. You may be able to awaken her consciousness.' When I was about to rush in desperately, her husband came and said no, Jiaqi, don't be disturbed by idle people. My mother said that we would go back first and have a good discussion. When we went back and were ready to go back to Jiaqi with her husband, she was told that she had been transferred to the hospital. In this way, I really, really, completely lost her.

"In fact, I spent almost all my time forgetting her before she sent the invitation. I warn myself every day that she is not worth it, she is not worth it, and there is no result with her... But the more I say that, the clearer I remember. I always dream that when we were in the first year of junior high school, we would bite a lollipop. She did her homework and I would copy a question when she did one. In the second year of junior high school, I was in physical education class. I sat on the edge of the playground and ate snacks. She kept playing badminton in front of me and laughed at me for being a fat man. In the third year of junior high school, she opened her eyes and asked me in surprise, Jian Shuo, how can you be so thin, so handsome and stylish? Then kiss my cheek and continue, Jian Shuo, what should I do if I like you?"

I like you. What should I do? This sentence broke all the defense lines in my heart, and I slowly squatted down and covered my face and cried.

Jan Shuo's voice was ambiguous by my crying in the wind...

"I've been thinking that if she is really happy to marry that man, I also admit it. But how can the man who can be her father beat her like that? Why, why can't you give her happiness and marry her? Why, you have to hold a wedding when you know that you won't be happy if you marry him. I think it's because we are too young, so I have so much time to ask why, why... I remember that I used to make her happy about why Jiaqi was so beautiful and likable. When she was doing her homework, she would knock on the head and pretended to be fierce and said, 'I'm not a hundred thousand whys. How can I know?' I have to say that your tone and style are like the extreme.

"I thought you were Jiaqi. But now I find that you are not Jiaqi, you are Ali. A Li is that A Li can't become Jiaqi. Jiaqi is Jiaqi, who will never come back. She disappeared, and A Li still existed. Isn't it?"

I wiped my tears and stretched out my hand to him. "Give me a cigarette."

"Didn't you say no smoking?" He frowned, took out the cigarette case from his pocket, ordered one, handed it to me, and ordered another one for himself.

We were all speechless, looking at the calm river facing the smoke.

I also want to say that, as he said, Ali is not Jiaqi, and Jiaqi will not come back. Jian Shuo is not Li Luo. Li Luo went to Chen Yi and will never come back for the rest of his life.

We are always like this, chasing things that won't come back but think they will come back, forgetting the original meaning of life. I have always said to myself, too young, too young, just be more mature, more mature words... Be mature, if you can't come back, you won't come back. If you are mature to death, you will never come back.

Forget it, forget everything...

After smoking my last cigarette, I bounced the cigarette butt into the dark river without even a little wave...

Jiaqi, where are you?

I was confused and rubbed my long hair. Suddenly, my mobile phone rang, and I picked it up and said, "Hey."

There was a low and hoarse voice over there, "It's me."

I am.

"If you haven't gone back yet, come with me. My car is parked in the place just now... Don't refuse me, or I will really break down. It's the first time I've heard him talk to me in such a tone, because he has always been a strong and confident man in my influence. They will only use their own advantages as capital, tease others frivolously, and laugh at those who give true feelings contemptuously. I know that this kind of person is extreme capital and has been hurt, and his personality is too extreme. If he is really weak and begs you, it is that he is really exhausted. If you are really ruthless and don't save him, there is no doubt that he will die.

Sometimes I think, if only I had become a writer like Lu Xun. You can use a pen as a prescription to save a famous family instead of wandering in the endless illusory network, and fabricate all kinds of commercial vulgar stories to harm those netizens who are as boring as me. Everyone paralyzes themselves, thinking that this also paralyzes the time, and we stay in fantasy. In this way, it is no different from covering your ears and stealing bells!

"I won't refuse you this time. I'll come right away."

I hung up the phone and turned my head and smiled at Jian Shuo apologetically. I pulled my hand out of his palm, which was covered with sweat. Maybe it was mine or his.

"I'm sorry, boyfriend, I have to go first."

He nodded, "Well, I'll go back after smoking a cigarette."

I waved my hand and turned my head away. The time I turned around, I heard him say, "I still can't forget, we... It's all like this."

I don't ask questions and answers and leave quickly.

Before I got to the door of the bar, I saw Chen Yi's car parked on the roadside. He saw me pointing to the position behind the car, asking me to sit in the back.

Sure enough, as soon as I pulled the door of the car, I saw Li Luo, who was red all over. He lay on it with his eyes tightly closed and biting his lips, wearing Chen Yi's small coat on his body. I touched his body with my fingers and found that his whole body was cold and his face was purple. If it hadn't been for the ups and downs on his chest, I would really think...

Chen Yi started the car and looked at us from the reflector.

"Li Luo..." I took his hand and called his name.

I will be afraid, I will be afraid that the people around me will enter an unconscious state. Because of that, you may not wake up at any time.

"Li Luo... Open your eyes..." His fingers are colder than his body, his nails are dark, and his fingers are pale and weak, which is more sick than ever.

"He has too much K powder and ate meat again. It's up. I'm afraid I won't wake up for a while. Chen Yi's voice came from the front and was as calm as usual.

I asked anxiously, "Then why don't you take him to the hospital..." Halfway through that, I laughed at myself.

If he is really sent to the hospital, I guess we are all taking notes in the Public Security Bureau now.

"Go home first and go to the hospital if you really can't. I think he just fell asleep and will wake up later. I never thought that he would get stained with those things. I also understand now. I thought it was impossible. There is no impossibility.

I looked at him and sighed. I don't know what to say.

How I wish that all this didn't happen to me. When I was a teenager, I didn't care about the world, I didn't touch everything that had something that had something to do with the dark, and I didn't have a child for anyone. My good friend has always been around. The person I like is far away, and I have never touched it. My life should be sunny. I will drink black tea and talk about the piano in the afternoon. On weekends, I will go to the nursing home to volunteer. I will adopt stray dogs and save money to listen to my idol's concert.

It's just that my vision is too simple, so it's too different from reality. My life is in full swing and has nothing to do with the sunshine.