chapter 64 time, endless

I pushed away Chen Yi, who was blocking the door of the car, got out of the car, and walked forward alone.

"Hey, Zheng Ai Li!" Chen Yi called me in the back, but I didn't look back.

The light of the street lamp was dim, and I watched my shadow being elonged under the light. As I walked, I took off my shoes and held them in my hand. I walked forward step by step with my bare feet. When my feet touched the cement floor, I really felt that I was walking, not floating...

I really don't want to think about right and wrong that are related to me or have nothing to do with me. I'm tired. I'm really tired. The key is that when I'm so tired, I don't even have a name that can be coquettish. It should be that I did too much in my last life. If so, it is common sense to punish me like this.

"Baby, come back." My wrist was caught.

To be honest, I'm really angry. Why the fuck did you want to take me back? Why didn't you let me go? Where the hell did I mess with you? I can't afford to provoke, even hiding has become a problem.

"I don't mean anything else. It's been such a long night. Of course, I'll take you out and send you back. In case you meet some bad person..."

"Bad guy?" I was so funny to hear the funniest joke in the world. Looking at his slightly haggard face under the street lamp, I suddenly felt that everyone was getting more and more tired. Chen Yi, I have lived for so many years, and I really haven't met anyone who can be called a bad person more than you.

He stopped talking and directly picked me up and walked into the car.

I don't bother to resist, because I'm too tired, and it's futile to resist.

"I want to sit in the front."

"A Luo has left. He said that his wife was waiting for him at home, and he had to go back quickly." He opened the co-pilot's door and threw me in, and then got into the car by himself. I started the car quickly for fear that I would run away.

I looked through the window at the street without pedestrians outside. The zebra crossing was pale and weak, and the traffic lights were very gloomy, restoring the original appearance of the city.

Lonely...

"Chen Yi," I scriscriped my finger on the window glass, "Is your life as aimless as mine? We are all trapped in that dream of the next few years and refuse to wake up. Too stubborn, ignoring the essence of the matter, but contributing to the worst result. More than once, I told myself not to think about it, not to think about it, and let myself live. But it hasn't been long. I can't dilute the past. I can't forget it. I will remember that they hurt me like that, but when I think of the person I love the most, I will tremble with fear. I want to find a medicine. If I can't find that medicine, I will have a car accident that can make me lose my memory as soon as possible, although this kind of plot only appears in vulgar romance novels, and I have written it myself. However, I still want to forget it in this way. This is the most direct, fastest and most effective. I lost my memory and woke up from that dream. I can live a life without load. I will be very happy.

He took my words with an obvious self-deprecation, "I'm stuck in a dream like you, but my dream is better than yours, and there is no betrayal in my dream. But do you know that the more so, the greater the gap with reality. You will feel that you live in heaven and hell for a while. You may not know that I have taken drugs. It's not as low-level as you playing with K powder and ice. I smoke marijuana. I have been to the drug rehabilitation center five times. In fact, I know that I'm not addicted enough to go to a drug rehabilitation center. But I just want to go to the drug rehabilitation center to see if I will die if I don't see Li Luo's complete isolation from him. Five times over and over again, I didn't die. But still, I can't stop him. Every time I was in a drug rehabilitation center, I would tell myself that I finally quit him and finally quit for so many years. But when I went out, I couldn't stop looking for him. Forget it, I don't want to say that. I know you don't want to hear his name. Let's stop talking. I'm tired.

"Then let's escape together, or kill Li Luo. Everyone is happy, haha." I said with a smile.

I know that my voice is very lonely in the night sky. I don't want to live this kind of life anymore. I want to stay away from everything.

I have to make a decision.

Chen Yi sent me to the door. When he got out of the car, he handed me a small box and said to me, "Baby, I think you're right. There are too many things going on in the world. I think you will also be very happy. Believe me, I wish you happiness. Live a good life by yourself.

His words are like his last words. I feel that this time I'm really going to die from my life. Isn't it good?

Isn't that what you think?

I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and smiled at him, "Thank you."

His car drove away, and I squatted at the door and quietly opened the small box. Under the street lamp, I saw a ring in it. It was the same as what I saw in the jewelry store that day. I took it out, pinched it with my thumb and forefinger, and looked diagonally at the inside of the ring. Sure enough, there was a row of small letters printed in it, Tiffany&co.

I laughed, put the ring in the box again, and gently threw it back.

It's like I stood by the river in a white wedding dress and kissed the phone that winter, throwing it back.

I thought I completely put aside everything that oppressed me. I didn't do it that time. I hope I can do it this time.

No need, forget it.

I called Xiaoyi and asked him to come down and open the door for me. He looked at my red eyes and sighed slightly and said nothing more.

I went back to my room, lay down with my eyes closed, and slept all night.

It was not until six o'clock in the morning that I barely fell asleep. Before I slept for two hours, the phone rang dead again.

I grabbed my mobile phone and saw that it was Soda, so I picked it up and said, "Hey."

Calling so early must have asked me to accompany her for breakfast and greet me. How did I feel when I saw that scene last night?

"Lier, let me tell you..." Su Su's voice was very low. She was quiet on the other side, which seemed to be in an extremely cold place for fear of waking up the sleeping monster and deliberately lowered her voice.

"Ye-huh, you said." I turned over and put the phone close to my ear.

"I'm in the hospital now, Qian Rui... I almost hung up when I cut my wrists at home last night. Li Luo is also here, looking like he doesn't want to come back alive. Do you want to come back and have a look?

Cut her wrists. I didn't expect that she always played these scenes that I had played.

I can continue the plot according to her mind. When she wakes up, she will definitely tell everyone that I feel sorry for Zheng Ai and I committed suicide. In this way, public opinion can be on her side, and I take over all the bad people's images and be scolded.

It doesn't matter, I really don't care.

"Su Su, there are only two situations where I go back to see her, the first is her wedding, and the second is her funeral. All right, let's not talk about it. I'll sleep for a while.

"Hey, hey, wait a minute, what are you worried about before I finish speaking? Damn, are you angry with Dai Xue? I just called her and asked her if she wanted to come to see Qian Rui, who also said so, and asked me not to call you, saying that you would definitely not come. All right, all right, I don't think she will die either. Don't sleep. Come out for breakfast. Hey, hey, haha, Li Luo? Ah, what? It's not Ali, it's not Ali, I didn't give it to her..."

After a noise on the phone, there was an extremely clear voice, familiar and strange, "Hey, is it Zheng Ae Li?"

For the first time in years, I heard him call me like this, not Ali, not Xiao Li, with his first name and surname.

I probably knew what he was going to say, so I hung up the phone directly.

After hanging up the phone, I received a text message from Jian Shuo, "I'm back to Italy. Goodbye."

It's all goodbye. Should I also say goodbye?

I replied to him quickly, "Goodbye, I wish you happiness."

He never replied. I turned off the phone and threw it aside. Looking at the ceiling, tears, drop by drop.

Xiao Yi opened the door and slept next to me with a pillow in his arms.

"Sister, do you have any money to lend me some?"

I wiped the running water, sat up from ** and asked him, "How long are you going to fill that hole?" She won't appreciate it if you meet her requirements again and again. I won't lend you money. Just as I know her better than you, she won't fall in love with you. Wake up. How can she be like Wu Mengmeng and Xiaoyi? They are completely two people.

He was stunned for a moment, sat up from **, looked at me, and asked in surprise, "You know?"

"In fact, there are many things I know. It's very simple. I can guess without turning too many corners. It's just that I don't want to say it. I always feel that there should be a degree in everything. You should be aware before I remind you. If you are not aware, I will remind you. Just like now, I said that she won't love you. If you still want to get hurt, it will only be yourself. What can you do now that you can't let go? Do you really like her? Ask yourself, I said that you can't be the savior, and no one is the savior. Do you understand what I said?"

"Xiao Yi, you are still too young. When you really go through the test of a lot of life, you will no longer be so confident in yourself. My sister is by your side now. She can help you, understand you and teach you. What if I'm not here one day? Can you learn how to deal with life alone? You are seventeen years old, and you have to learn to grow up.

I also looked at him and said very seriously.

Yes, Xiaoyi is still a piece of white paper. The beauty of his life may still be full, but what about the simple wasted? Who can live such a duty-bound life will only be gradually lost in this world.

"Sister, what should I do?"

"Don't go to see her, don't answer her phone, quarantine everything about her." I touched his cheek.

At this time, the phone rang again, and it was Su Su, "Hey."