chapter 100 is still messy

"After the earthquake, their school was disbanded, and she was unexpectedly divided into the best high school in the city. What's more surprising is that her girlfriend came to my school and is still in the next class. In fact, she promised me that she would come to our school to spend the next two years with me, but she didn't come and waited for her girlfriend. This result once made me feel that the fairness of the world and the trick of fate had reached its limit. Maybe it's because I'm in the same school with my girlfriend. Shuo's girlfriend finally asked her to make a decision and let her choose one between us. At the beginning, she chose me, and I was very happy and gratified. I didn't cry from beginning to end, but then she didn't give me any reason to choose her girlfriend again. I don't know what happened in the middle, and I don't want to know. In retrostigation, that's right. Just after her girlfriend knew that Shuo had chosen me, she called her all day to cry and couldn't eat. It seems that she needs her more than me, so she can't bear to choose again. I think I love her too much and gave her a very kind excuse to betray me.

Angie covered the cup with her hand, and I saw her tears overflowing, but I didn't let her fall. She gently picked up the cup and took a sip. Then she fell on the sofa in the back to find the most comfortable posture for herself. She was lazy, and we smiled at each other.

"Did you break up for a while?" I looked at her and asked.

She nodded and was shy. That's the expression without any pretentious gesture, which is extremely pure, and people can't help but feel pity.

My stomach still hurts, and my forehead has begun to sweat coldly. The voice is slightly hoarse, but if you don't listen carefully, you can't hear it. "Angel, do you have a cigarette?"

She nodded again, slowly took a bag of Zhonghua from the bag, lit one for me, and then ordered one for herself. She took a deep breath and said indifferently, "Jack's. He forgot to take it when he was eating. I remember you don't like women's cigarettes..."

"Thank you for remembering. You can continue." I took two puffs of cigarettes, and it was much better. But I know that it's just a short time. It will still hurt after a while, and it will hurt more and more, and I will feel more and more uncomfortable. But I have to hold back, because I don't want to go to the hospital anymore. When I go to the hospital, I will meet that person again...

So... In other words, I must keep myself healthy.

Well, just do it.

As you said, we broke up. After breaking up for a month, I asked the school for leave and went to Yunnan to adjust my mood. I went to many places, Kunming, Dali, Lijiang... I stood alone on the Yulong Snow Mountain at an altitude of thousands of meters and shouted in front of the sky, saying that I wanted to forget and forget. I lived a good life and started again. But when I came back, she found me again. Crying and begging me to let me come back to her, and also promise me that she will only love me from now on, and will never hurt me all the happiness in the world and what nonsense to be together forever! Well, I admit that I wavered. The shameful choice gave her another chance, saying that it still depends on her performance, and then she really didn't let me down again. I was relieved to tell the girl that the person she loved was me, but I was still on guard. I think you should understand me... A Li. After being injured once, you will still doubt more or less who will give you the whole world. When I was in my senior year of high school, I was the same. Because of my poor academic performance, I chose to take the art road and went to the art school for training. It must be more free to study outside than in school, so I have more time to be with her. I pick her up and spend the night with me in my dormitory every week.

Angie's slow and gentle tone sounds very pleasant. Listening to her story seems to be drinking a glass of too old wine. It's getting more and more delicious. The more you drink, the more you want to drink...

"At that time, winter came."

Her voice was also unimaginably light, like an old man slowly weaving a raincoat. When she said this, we all turned our heads out of the window. I don't know when the window was covered by a thin layer of fog, but I could still faintly see people running in a hurry outside, as well as couples snuggled to each other with an umbrella. I also accidentally saw a man leaning obliquely on the long street lamp under the street lamp not far from the bedside. I turned my head and waved to me, which was surprisingly similar to the way I had just waved to him.

I was puzzled and wiped the cloth on the window with my fingers. I clearly saw that he was already soaked, and his hair was sticking to his thin cheeks one by one. He looked extremely decadent but very heartbreaking. This makes me entangled. I don't know what the beast is crazy about.

"I hurriedly bought her gloves and scarves and sent them to her school. In this regard, I feel more like a man. In fact, I just want to love her well in the days when I can love her, because I am her girlfriend now, so I have more responsibility. But **, I will still know from the lines that they are still broken. For example, she often goes to the toilet to pick up the phone in the middle of the night, and she never asks me to touch her mobile phone, let alone let me see her text messages. I'm helpless... During that time, she always went out to drink with her friends in the middle of the night until the early morning, and then called her to complain. She never paid attention to my unreasonableness. As long as I drank too much and called her to drink, she would hang up directly. I was so angry that I broke two mobile phones. I decided to make myself more mature and no longer make her think I'm too wayward. Maybe she will love me more. I took time to draw a pair of gouache for her overnight in the studio, with a black background, and then dotted countless stars of different sizes on it. I named the painting "Flash" which is a flashing homophony. Using the words in her name, I think she will like it. My world is dark. She is the stars all over the sky as the dawn to light up me. If she disappears, I think the picture can completely erase the stars with black paint. A Li, when I say this, do you think my world is amazingly similar to yours?

After smoking the last cigarette, I extinguished the cigarette butt in the ashtray and stopped looking out of the window. "Does she like that picture?"

She laughed a little exaggeratedly, "To tell the truth? I really don't know if she likes it.

"I found that I gave the painting I gave her to her ex-girlfriend. I almost broke down, but I couldn't leave her. At that time, it was really put together with countless confusion. Until now, I don't want to think about it. What kind of days were it? I'm 18 years old. I'm facing a fateful choice in my senior year of high school, but I wander back and forth for a lover I can't love. She annihilated everything I had, and my world could only be built around her. We began to quarrel. When we quarreled fiercely, she would take action against me. I also changed from the silent enduring at the beginning to fighting with her, and both sides were hurt. At that time, I really felt that I couldn't go on like this. Neither of us would be happy if it went on like this! I think I'm leaving her. I asked my mother to transfer me to another art school, of course, without her knowledge. She can't find me. I can't see her. I feel that the world is clean. During that time, I met a boy named Yan. How should I describe Yan before you feel that he and Li Luo don't look like him at all? Forgive me for knowing so much about you and what happened around you. He is very thin, his skin is very white and he never smokes. I like to hide in the corner of the studio with headphones alone and draw what I imagine behind the drawing board. When we are practicing portraits, he may be painting oil paintings. When we are worried about hundreds of sketch assignments, he may be looking at the sky facing the drawing board into a three-month-old sketch. I think he is particularly attractive to me too much. I was not a child in the group. Gradually, I also like to move the drawing board next to him and do something with him. After getting familiar with him, he often teases me and makes me feel very happy with Yan. Shuo found me for a while, and we made up again. However, at that time, Shuo's relationship was hot and cold. She seemed to be aware of it, but she didn't ask me too much. I think this is the beginning of revenge. Shuo once gave it to me, and now I'm going to give it back to her. Karma is doomed. A Li, you have a deeper understanding of this than me.

"Revenge?" I laugh.

angel, do you know? As you said, I really have a deep understanding of karma, but do you know? In fact, you are hurting yourself as well as hurting her. You will hurt with her, even more than her, because you love her and have no choice but to bear it.

Either you die or I die. I really read too much and my heart is numb. We are always like this when we are young, so we feel that we can't be redeemed after the incident.

However, it's late.

"Ian asked me if I could give him an answer, and I said after the college entrance examination. He smiled and nodded and no longer pestered on this issue. I like such a boy, but I don't love him. It's not that I don't want to love, but that I can't love. Later, on the weekend, by chance, I was asked for a phone call by a woman on the street and began another entanglement. Ali, Jack, always praise how smart you are in front of me, but it's not a good thing to warn me that I'm as smart as you. So test you, the woman who asked me on the phone number on the street, can you guess who she is?

I smiled softly. You don't have to say that I know who she is, because I didn't know her until she asked me on the phone on the street.

"Sister Dong from the studio." I grabbed my hair and blurted out.